Her eyes open
Call My Name
Her eyes open
Her memory returns
Her eyes water
The pain kicks in
What will become of the life once perfect?
He watches her from the shadows
Her heart is broken
Her mind is lost
Her body is frail
Why can't she see,
What's right in front of her?
But he simply watches
He sits at his throne
Grinning upon the pain he has cased
But the smile disappears
The silent's is numbing
In the deepest corner of his mind,
He misses his name being called by her
To lie there, unwilling to live, was the easiest thing to do at the moment. 'What's the point of my existence?' she says to herself. Tears water up in her eyes. She trusted him with her life! He was everything to her, why? Why could she have been so blind? She hurt her dear friends to. She pointed her sword at them! 'I can never speak to them again, not after what I have done!'
It was weeks after Captain Aizen had betrayed her and the Soul Society. Everyone was on end, still trying to recover. To do such a thing was unspeakable! He had planed it all from the start as well, using people like chest pieces. Planning out his actions right under there noises. But why? Why go though such lengths? It still confused her.
She just lay there, not wanting to live. It seemed childish, but the reality is that she still is a child. She tried to grow up to fast. But this resulted in her being naïve and helpless. It was hopeless, why even bother to get up. She didn't want pity from her subordinates; she wanted her life back, her calm, carefree life. When the only thing to worry about was the pile of unnecessary paper work that took for ever to complete.
As the time passes, she began to forget the pain, or maybe she just put on a mask to hide how she really felt. She didn't want the pity that everyone was giving her. They were all trying so hard to be kind to her. And she tried her best to make them feel like they were helping her. When really, she just kept it all inside.
"Hinamori…?" Came a familiar voice. She looked up from her papers and replied quietly, "Y-yes Captain Hitsugaya?" He slowly opened to door. He felt uneasy with her calling him 'Captain'. He had always nagged her to call him that, and when she didn't he would scold her. But now that she was, it felt like there was a thick wall between them.
He looked at her, but she quickly looked back at the papers on her desk.
"S…so, you want some help with that?" He asked putting on a fake smile.
"No." She quietly replied without even looking up.
"Oh… ok… well, I just thought that maybe you would want to talk… now that I'm back from the human world for a little while…" He said taking a step forward.
She just kept writing.
He looked down, 'Why is she doing this?' He thought.
"You… uhh, you know that I'm not mad at you right? Cause we already went over this, it wasn't your fault that you… uhh, accused me. It's all behind us… right?" He said still looking at the floor; his fake smile was getting harder to keep on.
"Yeah…" She replied.
Hitsugaya opened his mouth to say something else, but Momo suddenly stood up. She neatly placed the papers into a pile, then walked past him and out the door without even give him a glance. He just stood there; a numb sensation came over his body once she slid the door closed. 'Why…' He thought, 'why is she doing this? I don't understand…'
She pushed her back against the door once she closed it. "I'm sorry…" she whispered before heading off to her quarters.
She got little sleep that night, much like most of her other nights. They were always so confusing. Dreams of her former Captain, and how he had been deceiving her the entire time. But still in her heart she cared for him more then anything.
She never talked to anyone about how she felt anymore, she was afraid that they might look poorly upon her for still having feelings for him after what he had done. She would sit out on that roof top and look at the stars. She would always wonder what it would feel like if he where still here. She would gaze at the moon and wonder if he was looking at it to.
"The tides have changed…" He said looking up at the tall ceiling.
"Pardon…?" Asked the grinning man leaning against the wall.
"Things… aren't right…" He replied still looking up
The grinning man raised his eyebrow, "What things, sir?"
The man closed his eyes, "The things that are lurking in ones heart…"
So there you have the first chapter thingy! My original version was better, but my power went off and knowing me, I didn't save it after the first page… so I lost about two pages of some fine story making. You know how it goes to… its hard to draw the same picture twice, and the same goes for a story!