Okay, this is my first Instant Star fanfiction, and I want everyone to know this isn't about Jude

Okay, this is my first Instant Star fanfiction, and I want everyone to know this isn't about Jude...she'll be mentioned but she's not the main character. But there are going to be alot of twists as the main character Ashlie, she's not me before you ask we just share the same name, goes through similar trials that Jude did, but this going to be a completely different story than Jude's. Ashlie does not sound exactly like Jude, but she sounds similar but not the same, Ashlie's is higher and softer, but behind it she has power. She sounds like Amy Lee voice mixed with Avril Lavigne and Haley Williams and then Jude's voice. It may sound strange but that's her voice and it's just as good as Jude, so no undermining! No flames please, but constructive critism is highly accepted! I"ll be using instant star songs and others, some of my own which I'm not sure about because i don't want people stealing something I wrote, because music and fanfiction is something completely and totally different. Any of the songs that arent my own, I don't own at all and give full credit to whoever they belong to but in this story Im saying the character wrote them...but in actual reality she didnt. In the beginning alot of what happened to Jude happens to Ashlie, like the whole thing with Tommy, Georgia and Ej is the same. But the beginning is kind of the only thing that's the same really.

Chapter One- A Surreal Beginning

Standing there in that small overdecorated dressing room backstage with Jenna, my best friend, I realized just how nerverecking this contest could be. My heart never beated so fast, and I thought it was going to fly out of my chest. Now that's a funny image. I really need laughter right now or I just might break down and cry because I'm so scared right now.

"Ashlie, you're gonna rock this thing and you know it! Go out there and get em!" Jenna smiled at me with such adoration it made my eyes tear up. We were both rockers and I didn't how the heck the crowd would react. Who knows they could be total pop fans...who knew right? Everything I had worked for, everyone who helped me along the way. Jenna, I always saw like the older sister that I had but didn't have. Well I have an older sister, she's just a bitch and- well let's not talk about her no need to stress me out more. Jenna was there for me more than my own sister ever has been let's just put it that way. Jen was 20 and I was 17.

"Jen, I love you so much for everytime I needed you to be here for me and you always were." I smiled as I pulled her into a hug, and let a few tears flow, but only a few.

"Hey, don't let em get to you." She smiled again and brushed the tears I had shed away with the pad of her thumb as I nodded in agreement with a smile reaching my lips and glowing in my deep oceanic blue eyes. Soon I buried my head into her shoulder as I continued to cry all of my tears I had built up today. Jenna was the only person in my whole life that's ever seen me cry, not even my own family has. While I cried, Jenna brushed her hands through my midback length dark brown chocolate tresses. Jen was definately the best damn thing in my life that I've ever had. I'm so thankful for everything she's taught me and given me, I don't know what I'd do without her.

"All right. Let's knock their asses dead!" I shouted as I grabbed my guitar and walked out proudly with Jen at my side as we headed out to play the best damn song we've ever played.

We arrived backstage with everyone else in the contest and completely got a hold of ourselves as everyone in our band got ready to play. The song I was going to play with a couple friends that wanted to help me reach stardom was kinda pop but for this contest it seemed like a good choice and a exception. I found out that I could be very flexible if I wanted to be and by any means... I was the one who made the choice anyway.

"Hi, my names Ashlie Ryan. The song I'm performing is a song I wrote and I hope you guys like it." I smiled at the audience who watched intensely.

I started to play, the strings on my guitar vibrated as they pentrated the tension that surrounded the air and my voice rang heavily through the it...and I felt the energy of the music as the crowd livened up and It finally seemed like they were reacting well to it...I could just feel it with every scream of my name.

As I sang the last line, my voice fading out in a melodic sound. I felt like I was floating while I watched as the audience cheered and screamed for us...I felt like it was really coming true. Every dream I had for being a musician was really coming true. It was finally happening, finally...happening. After every other contestant performed, we all waited backstage buzzed off the energy the crowd was giving off. It was almost like a drug when you're up there, people screaming your name, demanding you perform for them, demanding you. You just feel like everything around you is glowing and you feel like you're floating, like nothing else matters except you and your audience. Like nothing else exists except you and your guitar. That feeling...it so surreal. Nothing else in the world compares to that one single feeling.

"And the first ever before Instant Star is...Ashlie Ryan!" The woman annouced as I stood still, the shock settling in. It was one of those times where you don't know what the hell you're doing and don't know what's even going on in your own head and you're emotion meter is going haywire. At that point I didn't know what to even feel because too many feelings were swamping me and I felt like they were trying to take over, not a good thing to have in a situation like mine.

I found Jen pushing me to go on stage where they called my name again. I regained my composure and walked out on stage, confidence intact, proud smile on my face and my guitar in my hand.

"So how do you feel after being the first winner of Instant Star?" The woman asked me with a microphone in my face, woah lady watch it.

"It's surreal, I mean, I never thought it would ever happen to me...I'm just so, WOW." I smiled as she smiled back at me. Once again I found people pushing me to go in certain directions and other people leading me in others. But the whole time, I needed the pushing and pulling, cause I couldn't even control my own body. If didn't sit down soon, my body would collapse. I was exausted, I was so anxious last night I didn't get any sleep because I wanted to make sure I was ready to play in this contest.

I was back in my little dressing room and another woman appeared at the door, but this one looked important, so I actually had to listen to her. Then I realized why she looked so familiar because she was one of the judges.

"Hey there, my Instant Star winner. How are you doing?" She smiled geniunely towards me as I looked up at her with a smile on my own face but this time it wasn't for the cameras.

"I'm alright I guess, a bit exausted but other than that just peachy." I said with a hint of sacastic humor, she laughed at that one and then introduced herself.

"My name is Georgia and I manage G Major Records, and I was one of the judges. We created Instant Star, I'm sure you know that already," I nodded as I waited for her to continue.

"As you already know, as the Instant Star winner, you get a contract at G Major for 3 albums. So are you up for it?" She finished with that same smile plastered to her face.

"You know I am, otherwise I totally would not have entered." I smirked with a confidence I didn't think I had.

A couple of days passed, and my life felt like I was standing in one spot as everything blurred around me. But soon they were brought to a stand still. Georgia told me that she wanted me to meet someone that I'd be working with very closely, EJ right beside her, still critical of me.

I waited with Jen on the couch in the lobby of G Major.

"Ash, I always knew you go so far...and you'll only go farther girlie." She laughed with a smile on her face...her smile was always showing it's face and she always knew how to cheer me up when I was down.

"What, that I win the contest that would make my dreams come true, nah you're not that good at predicting these kind of things." I laughed as she playfully punched my arm and I faked being hurt with a smile on my face.

"Oh thanks alot! Nice to know you have so much faith in me."

"Oh I do, just don't show it." We laughed about stupid little jokes for a little while longer.

"Hey ash, promise me one thing, kay?" She looked at me...her smile fading slightly. That was when I knew something was up.

"What's up Jen, what's wrong?" I asked carefully, but still in a worried tone.

"Promise me you won't let these freaks in this business change you." She smiled again, this time even brighter than before.

"Of course not!" I exclaimed as I pulled her into a hug before continuing,

"No one's gonna change me, you know what they say...you can lead a horse to water but you can't make it drink." I smiled reassuringly to let her know I accepted her promise.

"Just don't drink, however tasty that water looks." She look at me with a smirk replacing her smile that was when we saw Georgia and Ej coming out of one of the studios.

"There's my Instant Star!" She smiled at me as me and Jen practically jumped off the couches to greet the two who made my dreams come true.

As soon as they reached me, Georgia hugged me and Ej just smiled still unsure of their choice.

"Who's this?" She looked curiously towards Jenna.

"My best friend who's been along for the whole ride, Jenna." I smiled as I pulled Jen infront of me.

"A really long ride." She mumbled with a smirk on her face while she recieved a glare from me.

"I'm Jen, really nice to meet you!" She smiled brightly to Georgia and Ej and shook Georgia's hand that's when Ej chose to speak.

"Ashlie, there were some people in this competion who were better suited to become pop stars..for example Eden." I looked down before replying with a smile,

"I'm not a popstar, I can't really be that. I'm a songwriter. It's what I do." I finished with a determined look in my eyes when Georgia returned,

"That's why we chose you Ashlie. I believe your songs can move units but also people. That's why we've teamed you with a writer/producer with real substance."

"Adam Gontier from Three Days Grace?!" Jenna interrupted excitedly and I replied,

"Ben Burnley from Breaking Benjamin?!" I smiled hopefully and hinting at what kind of music I wanted to put out there.

"Thinking more...Tom Quincy." Georgia smiled encouragingly.

"Tom Quincy!?" I laughed as she looked at me sternly,"Little Tommy Q from Boyz Attack, you've got to be kidding me Georgia." I laughed alongside Jenna as she realized Georgia was dead serious.

"Oh my god, you're serious aren't you?" Jenna exclaimed as I abruptly stopped laughing.

"Georgia...little Tommy Q...of all people why him?" I asked in horror with Jenna right beside me.

"Listen girls, I know his reputation and I know that he's been in and out of the tabloids, but he has grown as an artist. He's become a brilliant writer/producer."

"But he's a pop junkie...and completely...hmm, retro?" Jenna looked shocked as I was quietly snickering inside my mind.

"Not to mention, um and totally lame Georgia. There's just no way you can be serious." I finished for Jen, furrowing my brows in complete and utter disgust.

"I mean Tommy Q, come on." I looked at Georgia and Ej in a 'please say you're kidding' kind of look.

"First, I'm here because Georgia is a friend. I could care less about you or you're wack contest. Second, the name is Tom Quincy. Don't you EVER call me little Tommy Q again." The man himself appeared before us.

"Yea ok, sorry to ruin your day TOM quincy." I apologized sarcastically.

"You know what, show me what you got and then I'LL decide if you can be cocky or not. Got that?" He replied with equal sarcasm. I fumed while I watched everyone walk into one studio. Jenna leaned over to whisper in my ear.

"OOO he's a hottie now, girl. Mr. yummilicious, and he's a bad ass." She giggled into my ear as I slapped her arm and replied,

"If you like him so much the asshole is ALL yours." I walked away from her and into the studio, leaving her to trail behind me.

"At least I got my trusted friend, now we're on the road alone again...

I guess we're tired of giving in..." I smiled as I sang with Jenna looking toward me with her own smile. Mr. bad boy held his head in his hands and leaned over to the microphone,

"You wanna stop? Cause you're hurting my ears." Then came into the area I was in and said,

"You won a contest, with that?" He looked at me and continued,

"You're singing it like it was a funeral dirge. It's boring, you gotta pick up the tempo. Straight qauaters on the bottom, watch." He then proceeded to grab my guitar out of my hands,

"Sing." I looked toward Jenna who seemed to glare at him.

"Sing." He more like demanded this time.

"At least I got my trusted friend,"

"Faster." He commanded while he played with such conviction...I was actually surprised someone like him could play like that.

"We're alone on the road again," I sang with a hint of mockery laced into my little melody which was a bit obvious because I noticed the slight glare he gave me which made me of course, smirk. What I do best other than being a musician of course.

"Alright, these lyrics. We're on the road, we're tired of giving in, we made it here. Who's we?" He asked with a bit of sarcasm...a complete ass about everything.

Tom Quincy- aka Asshole of the Century, Mr. stick up my ass and totally Mr. egotistical bastard.

I looked to Jenna and smiled,

"It's about me and my best friend." She smiled back and made a slight face at asshole of the century before he looked.

"Okay, we dont care about you're friend Ashlie. We care about you. Your song is too bland. You have to make it personal, got it?"

"Well, too bad asshole. Cause I like it the way it is, got that?" I glared fiercely at Mr. I got a stick up my ass.

"Oh, really mature, name calling? Well your song it served it's purpose, it won you the contest. But it's not ready, not even close. Not until we rewrite the lyrics." Out of the corner of my eyes I saw Jenna storm over,

"Hey Ash, We gotta go, NOW. Member the tickets for the concert Jeriad got us? We don't have that much time to get ready and I'm sick of his bastard ass over here so, if ur straight let's go." She smiled something fake to piss off Mr. egotistical bastard and wiggled her eyebrows at me while the bad ass looked to Georgia.

"I think that's enough for today Ashlie. You can go now." Once the words left Georgia's mouth, Jenna was practically pulling me out of the studio.

"See ya later, Tommy Q." I smirked as I saw him practically twitch. Jenna and I headed out to the apartment we bought with the money we won and found ourselves laughing about Little Tommy Q and making up even more nicknames for Mr. Bad Ass while we were getting ready to meet Jeriad and get to that amazing Senses Fail concert. That night was the start of my life changing completely forever.

"Hey you ready?" I heard Jen call from downstairs as I looked down from the loft to see my best friend waiting for me down stairs. We were both dressed in completely emo clothes. Super tight skinny jeans, Vans, super tight figure hugging checkerboard tanks, with hand warmers with brass knuckles built in, extremely dark eyeliner, a million bracelets on both wrists and amazing hair with tons of hair products and a shit load of hairspray.

Jen was wearing a lime green checkerboard tank, with a black one under it with matching strechy bracelets in both colors, black hand warms with skulls on each knuckle, silver faded skinny jeans with green and silver checkerboard vans she wore two belts around her waist but not inside the loops, a lime green checkerboard and a black skull. She was wearing black eyeliner and lime green eye shadow around her eyeliner along with a little bit of silver. Her bangs were parted to the side of her face and her hair was completely straight, the ends of her layers flipping up.

I was wearing a silver tank with skulls and a blue checkerboard underneath, dark blue checkerboard hand warmers with brass knuckles built in, dark faded black skinny jeans with blue converse I wore two belts the same style as Jen, one blue checkerboard the other silver skulls. I was wearing black eyeliner at the corners of my eyes in a smokey look and had silver eye shadow with blue around the edges at the corners of my eyes. My bags were also parted to the left side of my face while Jen's were on her right and My hair was moosed with a shit load of hair spray.

I was wearing dark blue studded hoop earrings while Jen was wear Lime green ones, both of us chose to wear the ones that were the size of out hands so we could fit a hand through em.

"Oh my god Ashlie, we're not gonna be able to get good shit dude hurry up! Jeriad is outside waiting for us!" Jen shouted as I came running downstairs. We got to the concert and got front row. It was one of the best nights of my life, until Mr. asshole of the century had to ruin it.