It was all good. I couldn't have asked for anything else. Its is said that when everything is going too well, u must have definitely over looked something. I didn't know what I was getting myself into just then, all I knew was that is was perfect and I don't want it to ever end.
I stared into those green emerald eyes. The eyes which I got so used too. It never occurred in my mind that when he would leave, he'll take a piece of me too.
I can't believe my ears… did he just say that he's is leaving.
"I am sorry Misaki, please try to…"
I couldn't hear any thing else. It seemed like that my mind went completely blank. Here I was hearing from a guy telling me that he was going to England for he doesn't know how many years. Damn. I couldn't even say a word. It feels like someone was choking me. Tears were threatening to spill. But I couldn't cry even if I wanted too. My whole world went blank.
I gave him my everything. My heart my soul and now it means nothing to him.
"Misaki please say something". I heard him say
"What…?. Why?" it was all I could utter.
"I know you are hurt, it was never my intention to make you cry, but it's for the best. It's the best for you"
"Since when did you start deciding what's best for me?" I snapped.
"Please I am sorry..."
I wanted too cry so much… I wanted him to hold me, tell that it is all a bad dream but the bigger part told me to slap him.
"It's better if you go Ayuzawa… …" he responded
Yeah it's better if I go I am leaving. I ran out no matter what I can't stand it. I can't let him see me cry. Can't be vulnerable in front of a person who doesn't care about does he?. A Part of me wanted to run back to him… Misaki he can't love you... if he did he'd never leave you , shattered...
I couldn't go home... I don't know how I would face my aunt and my cousin... Yes right…she is my mother's sisters and Suzuna is her daughter. I am just a guest though she has never made me feel like I was not her daughter….
It is what I wanted to tell him that I am Eleanor rohan . I lived in Japan for 4 years .haa…. I can't believe I came to Japan to heal some of my previous wounds and now I am going back to America with some new wounds... wounds that run deep into my heart. Yes I have decided. I will go to America on the first flight in the morning. I can't stay in this place. It just has too many memories…I called Selena to tell her that I am coming… I am leaving everything behind….. Everything that reminds me of him…Usui Takumi….