I hate you, yet I love you
I hate you because you dare to love me, more so than I care for you
I hate you because you saw more of me, more than I ever dare to see in myself
You cross the line that divides being friends and being a couple
You cross the line that separated between You and Me
The line that made you and I, into an Us.
I feel your care, and I care for you the same...
I feel your love, and I love you back but I am afraid
This love that you so blatantly show me, is new and foreign
A far cry from the affection I feel for you.
I have no clue how to accept it, nor how to react to when you present it to me daily.
When you hugged me, back when we were just friends its was just a friendly hug.
That's it just a friendly hug
When you hug me now, its so much more
Sometimes I have difficulty describing it just to myself
The sensations of being warm from the inside out instead from the outside in,
Of being safe, and complete.
Just you holding me in your arms…
You are the glue that keeps my sanity together.