Okay, that is my first fic in english so everybody calm down and don't kill me. ^^'

Any mistake (now it's 03:32 in the mornig so it's very possible to have MANY of then) please, let me know!

And just for warning: this is a Koukou fic, I don't own Digimon or anything and I don't know when Kouichi's birthday is. (If someone knows I wold like to know, please?)

Our Eyes

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The first time our eyes met, there was just Darkness.

Simple like that. Sad like that.

Empty. Incomplete.

Lonely.

Like if God – if he really exists – haven't created Light yet.

Still, something sparked in your eyes. Something behind the anger and bloodlust.

And I was scared. Cause you didn't mean anything to me.

Cause I didn't want you to.

But I saw sadness and fear and pain.

I saw your eyes creaming to me.

I was not sure if anyone else could see, but I saw. And that was all that matters.

But then you're gone, left me behind to blink in the dark again and again.

To wonder if you were me.

To wonder if I was feeling all of this…

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The second time our eyes met, there was Light. My Light.

It didn't look like a big deal and you still didn't mean something to me but…I guess I was happy in someway.

Kind of not-so-lonely, if it makes sense.

I didn't call you brother that time, did I?

I couldn't.

The word was so strange. Tempting, yeah, but still so strange. I knew you was my Nii-san and I kindda feel like a outouto but…I don't know…

The word sounded so cracked in my mind.

Somehow, it just didn't fell right.

After that, our eyes locked at each other at every second.

But I was missing something.

Did you miss for so long too?

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Then our eyes met for the third time.

And there was Darkness surrounding you.

Ant there was my Light, trying to take you back.

For an eternal-second I thought I was too late.

I feel all alone again.

So, I did the only thing I could.

I offered myself. Heart, soul and even my Light. It was simply there, in a silver tray, to anyone catch.

Anything. Everything. For you.

God or Devil, it didn't matter.

I just want you back.

And you came.

You whispered my name. You took my hand. You cried.

Maybe I don't know what I've lost in that night, if I have, indeed, lost something. But there again, it didn't – doesn't – matter.

You were back. That was all I had to know.

I hugged you, so tight that I was afraid I could broke you. Instead, you clutched me against your chest even more tight.

By that, I notice, for the very first time, that I couldn't stand without your eyes, without you.

I couldn't.

I can't.

Never, ever.

And I'm sorry if I took so long.

And I'm sorry if it's supposed to be wrong.

But I can't help it, neither can you.

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Then the fourth time came and our eyes met once again.

But they closed.

And then were just lips. Mine. Yours.

Our.

First kiss. Big deal, hun?

And it was. Even if horrible – be honest, neither of us had much practice – it was the best kiss I ever had.

Cause was the holy sign that you loved me. All that I needed – and still need – to be alive.

We were finally complete.

Darkness and Light together, producing only love.

That was all I had to know, to feel, to live for.

Maybe I don't show often.

Maybe I'm still afraid of something.

But I will try. Whatever do you want me to, I will.

Cause I love you, Nii-san.

Sorry if I couldn't say all of this to you today but, believe me, it's for real.

Maybe, this whole thing that I call letter is nothing more than words cracked and misplaced. Yet the feeling is here. I know you will feel too.

I don't know how to end this so, I will just say I love you again.

I love you.

Forever, ever.

Just you, my dear half.

My Darkness. My brother.

My love.

Happy birthday, Nii-san.

- Kouji -