Chapter 1

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight *sigh* saying that is depressing

WARNING EVENTS IN THIS STORY ARE NOT THE SAME AS IN THE BOOK!

This story is not all e-mails I promise.

Your brother left me and now I'm broken.

I get up in the mornings and do what I am supposed to do so I don't scare Charlie, but the pain is unbearable.

Day 1

Alice, it hurts to type your name and I'm crying now.

Your brother isn't the only one who hurt me, and you didn't even say goodbye.

I hope you still have this e-mail and I'm not talking to a random stranger addicted to the computer.

I understand if you don't answer me, but why did you leave me?

Day 2

Alice, it is the third day since I started e-mailing you and started living my nearly pointless life.

There is a giant hole in my chest and it hurts like nothing I've ever experienced before.

You all did this to me, why?

Was I not good enough for y'all?

Did I do something wrong?

Alice it has been four days since I started e-mailing you.

I went to the movies with Jessica and it was horrible.

I miss you I want my best friend back.

Are you there?

Alice, I still can't think of you without crying it has been five days and it's only getting worse.

I am not mad at you but why did you leave?

Is it the same reason as him?

Am I just a distraction?

Does HE know about the e-mails?

Alice, I laughed for the first time in months.

I went to Jacob Black's house the boy who told me about you guys.

He is just a friend but he helped with the pain for the day, but it came back.

Day 6

Alice, it has been seven days.

I miss you and I miss Esme she is like my mother and I love

Her. She hurt me when ya'll left will you tell her for me?

Ask her why I wasn't good enough of a daughter for her to keep?

Alice tonight I figured something out it sounds crazy maybe it is

,but when I do something reckless or stupid I can hear his voice perfectly.

It is the only link I have to all of you.

A voice in my head.

Day 9

Alice, I still cry when I think about ya'll.

The hallucinations of HIM are fading.

The motorcycles aren't working anymore and I'm falling apart.

Day 10

About two months later

Alice, it has been nearly two months.

Jacob left me.

There was a pain in my chest that felt like

I was falling apart, but now there is another.

I keep telling myself that it is not as bad as when all of you left

me but it is bad enough.

Alice it is now the two month mark.

Jacob left and is now part of a gang in La Push led by Sam Uley.

The thing is Jake was afraid of them before.

Sam says Jacob can't be my friend.

I need some guidance from you, will you help me?

Alice, it has been two months and one day.

Jacob snuck into my room early this morning to apologize.

I figured something out, Jacobs a werewolf.

It wasn't much of a shock when I found out what all of you were because I knew there was something different about ya'll,

but Jacob was just my normal HUMAN friend.

Are all of my friends not so mythical creatures?

Maybe Angela is a witch?

Alice it has been two months and two days since I started e-mailing you.

Maybe you won't respond maybe you will.

Maybe I am talking to some random person who probably by now thinks I'm crazy.

Maybe I am.

Alice Victoria is back she keeps trying to get to me but the pack won't let her.

Alice I know I've asked this before but why did you leave?

Why didn't you say goodbye?

Why haven't you responded?

Alice, I'm lonely and depressed.

Sure I have Jacob and the rest of the pack, but they're not the ones I really want to be with.

Alice I want my family back.

You stole my family when y'all left.

HE took my sisters, my brothers, my parents, my friends... My family.

I still cry when I think about you ya know.

Alice, I miss you terribly.

Can you tell Jasper I'm not mad at him at all, it was never his fault, that he is still my brother if he wants to be?

Can you tell Emmett I miss my big teddy bear brother that has no common sense,

doesn't understand sarcasm, and always finds away to make me blush?

Can you tell Rosalie that I miss her, that in a way I looked up to her?

She was like a sister to me.

Alice, can you tell him that even though he said he didn't love me anymore that he always has a place in my heart,

and no matter what he thinks he has a soul, and that I hope he finds someone he wants to be with forever?

Alice, my life has officially fell apart.

I'm freaking out Alice!

I was at Billy Black's house when he got a phone call.

Victoria got through the pack and... Jacob he...he was murdered.

When I heard the news I rushed home ( I was crying and you know how fast my truck goes) but I was to late.

Victoria had already left my house, but Charlie was, he was killed Alice,Victoria killed him. I can still see him laying dead in a puddle of blood, his body barely recognizable. It was as if she tortured him.

What do I do now Alice?

What do I do?

Alice, Renee and Phil were in a car crash.

They didn't make it.

Alice I am completely lost now.

My blood relatives are gone.

My family left me my last friend is gone.

I don't like being alone.

Alice what if Victoria comes back for me what would I do?

Alice can't you all, or one of you, come back and help me?

Alice it has been two months and six days.

Today is Charlie's funeral and tomorrow is Jake's, and the next day is Renee and Phil's.

They found out Renee was pregnant when she died. A baby girl.

I was going to be a sister.

Since I'm officially an adult I can live by myself and Charlie left me the house,

but I don't know if I want to stay here alone with all the memories of the people I lost.

Why can't all of you come back and help me?

I want my best friend back, I want my sisters back, I want my mom and dad back, and I want my brothers back.

Can't ya'll come and wake me from this nightmare?

I still cry when I think of you, I've been crying a lot lately.

Please won't all of you come help me I'm a complete mess with no one left to turn to?

Alice, it has been two months and seven days.

The reason I'm still living is based on the fact that ya'll are still out there and the small hope that ya'll will come help me.

Maybe I should give up.

Should I give up Alice, Maybe all of you won't come?

I will wait a month at the most but I don't know how much more I can take of this.

Alice, it has been two months and eight days, and I'm still waiting to see if all of you come hut i don't think i can wait a whole month.

It would be easy.

Take a knife to my wrist, take a whole bottle of pills, or even hang a noose in my closet.

Just like that all of this would be over.

Every night i have to fight to go to sleep.

I have nightmares of Victoria finding me, torturing me until I beg for the mercy of death.

I dream of Jake and Charlie's deaths with me helpless on the sidelines only able to scream as I watch.

Nightmares of Renee and my unborn sister blaming me for their death for ruining their lives.

The only thing that keeps me from doing one of those things is the thought that ya'll might be coming.

Alice, are ya'll coming?

AN: This story has already been published on my old account ailewej. I am unable to access that account so I am reposting, editing, changing, and finishing this story. It will have the same plot but with some minor differences. If you want to cheat and read the other story I promise you it will not be the same and the ultimate ending will be different so there is no use for you to read ahead! Please Review ~ jewelia1 AKA ailewej