So this my first tfios fanfic so don't blame me for the bad quality!
I do Augustus, I do.
I scroll down the page, looking for more, but there are only two more words. "Okay, Hazel?"
"Okay, Augustus." My voice comes out as a hoarse whisper, due to all the crying I have done recently. I fall back onto the pillow I know will be there and let myself fall asleep.
I wake up with vomit on my mouth. I try to get out of bed, to get to the bathroom, but the vomit ends up on my bed covers. All that goes through my head is, SO THIS IS DYING? As I remember that night at the gas station when Augustus was a complete wreck. "Mom, help."
"What is it swee - oh." she says as she notices the disgusting mess I am surrounded by. "Are you feeling okay?" she asks, worry carved into her face. I shake my head, just as another wave of nausea hits me, I vomit again, and when I am done, Mom helps me stand up, before telling me that she has organized an appointment with Dr. Maria in an hour.
Mom helps me dress, she helps me eat a breakfast of toast and jam, and she helps me take my medication, before helping me into the car and driving me to Dr. Maria. "Mom, do you think this it, that I am now, like, properly dying?" I ask her, as it is a question I want answered. I notice her shift uncomfortably in her seat, before she replies, "I dunno, sweetie, I honestly don't know."
"Ah, Hazel, Mrs. Lancaster, how nice to see you!" Dr. Maria says, shaking Mom and my hands. "I understand you're worried about Hazel due to -"
"Heavy vomiting this morning." Mom finishes for her.
"Yes, well, Hazel, we'll do some scans, just to, well, see if the vomiting is due to tumor growth or anything, but I have a feeling it might just be a little bit of a tummy bug." her words reassure me, more then Mom's ever could. If she thinks it'll be alright, then it most likely will be, as she is a trained doctor.
Several scans later, and I am hungry as hell, probably due to losing last night's dinner this morning. Then Dr. Maria enters the room, a worried expression on her face, which my face quickly wears as well. "This is the end, isn't it, Doc?" I ask, and I feel as if a giant weight would be lifted off my chest if she said yes, as it would mean I would join Augustus in that capitol "S" Somewhere that he talked about very soon, and my parents could finally live their lives.
Of course, nothing ever goes my way, and Dr. Maria shakes her head, frowning slightly. That's when I realize that I must have sounded completely overjoyed at the thought of dying soon, and I mentally scold myself as she says, "But you are, um, well, I'll talk to you in private first." I suddenly worry like hell, what could be going on that's so worrying if I am not going to die soon?
She takes me into a quiet corridor, and she says two words that change my life, "You're pregnant."
"But, but, it was just once, and, is it even possible?" I manage to get the words out, before collapsing into a broken waterworks.
"I didn't think it was possible, but, I guess it is. And, Hazel, you need to get an abortion ASAP because, well, the medication you take would kill it, and a miscarriage is possibly the worst thing for you." I quickly process the information, before realizing what an abortion would mean. It would mean getting rid of the final message, the final part, of Augustus left of him, and the infinity that Augustus talked so much about would be gone, gone forever.
My voice is firm and confident when I say, "No. I'll give up the medication, I am going to die anyway, just, please, let this baby live, le Augustus and my little infinity live." Although Dr. Maria is clearly annoyed by my choice, there is a hint of a smile playing on her lips, probably admiring the "courage" I am said to possess.
So, I watched the movie yesterday, and, don't hate me for this, didn't cry and laughed through the gas station scene, Augustus' death and funeral, and well, everything. But it was sooooo good. Sooooo good.
I know that this is a slightly cliché story idea, but I mean, it's an epic one! REVIEW PLEASE! ONE FAV, FOLLOW OR REVIEW = NEW UPDATE!