I wouldn't be Myself at All, a harry potter fanfic

As I looked down at her beautiful face I couldn't help but feel unworthy. And then it started. I started to doubt the extent of my love for her and the love I could feel for everyone. I almost felt that if I could feel complete and overwhelming love for my own baby, then what could I fell? Could I even feel at all? I find myself excepting that what you need is something I will never be, and if that's what you want, then I can't be it.

Everyone is telling me how happy I should be and I know all you need is a little place in my heart. Inside I find it difficult to give. Sometimes I feel like your shaking your head and I'm not worthy enough, this isn't going to work. Sometimes I feel a little selfish, and then I think why I shouldn't? It's easy to say I love you but I don't think it will make a difference this time.

I don't know who I am, to say that I will never let your down. That no one else will love you half as much as I do now, even though I don't believe it myself. I don't know who I am to tell you I'll always catch you when you fall, because I don't know myself. If I said these things I wouldn't be myself at all.

I find it hard to let go of my old life and put your first, even though you are. It shouldn't be as hard as I'm making it. I'm shaking my head inside like this isn't going to work. I always say I love you, but it doesn't make a difference in time.

I don't want to be the person everybody is, and hide the truth to make me seem like a better person but I know I need help, because this is real love, and when it comes down to it, all that matters is my love.