Breathe No More
Chapter 1 Falling
Oriana
I've never been this pissed off in my entire life. He actually hit me! ME! All because I told him that he should lay off the alcohol for a bit. That stupid asshole, he never hit me before so why now? I know I'm not going back there, back to that trailer shithole. Yes, I live in a trailer. That's what I get for dropping out of high school and never getting my GED to go to college. I was stupid.
So stupid, jeesh. I shouldn't be driving right now when I'm this angry. I decided to head over to my mothers, like it would make me feel any better. My mother is a drug addict. Always has been always will be. Surprisingly I'm not a druggy myself; she was one of the other reasons why I dropped out of school. I had to take care of her. Another stupid mistake, I thought I could change her, clean her up, but of course it didn't work. I wish I realized that before.
I pulled in the driveway and stepped out of my car making sure I locked it before I walked away. When I walked up to the door I knocked several times with no answer. That's strange; her car is in the driveway why isn't she answering the door? She always hides a key in the dirt of some flower pots next to her door. Of course there weren't any flowers in them since she always forgets to water them. When I stepped inside the TV was blaring and I saw her sitting in her chair in front of it.
"Didn't you hear me knock?" I asked as I closed the door behind me locking it once more, and then walked into the kitchen to hang my coat up.
She didn't answer.
I sighed and walked over to her and stepped in front of the TV. Her head was facing down, she must be sleeping.
"Hey?" I shook her, no response. I shook her again and her head flopped to the side to reveal lifeless eyes. I took a couple of steps back until my back hit the wall. She was dead.
The police came quickly, they assessed the situation and told me she OD on cocaine. I was sitting on the porch while the police entered and exit my mother's house. I didn't pay any attention to them; I was still trying to process what happened to me today. My mother is dead.
My mother is dead.
She OD on cocaine.
The tears wouldn't stop falling from my face. I couldn't stop crying. Was this my fault? I should have been here for her instead of leaving her here all alone so I can run off with my trailer trash boyfriend. Her death is my entire fault.
My best friend Vanessa finally arrived, her eyes grew wide when she saw the police line and police officers walking freely through my yard and house, and when she caught sight of me she quickly exited her car and ran over to me. "Oh my god I just heard the news, are you all right Ora?" It's short for Oriana.
I didn't answer and she sat down next to me and put me in her arms where she held me. I turned my head so it was placed on her shoulder and continued to sob. "Shh, it's all right hun, I'm here for you and I'll always be here for you."
A couple of weeks have passed since that day; I've been staying with Vanessa since then depriving myself from everyone. I still went to work of course but that was the only time I ever went out. Pathetic I know, but what else can I do? I've lost everything, my home/boyfriend, my mother; I never had a father, he left my mother when he found out she was pregnant at the age of sixteen and he was eighteen. Yeah, messed up isn't it? My whole life has always been fucked up.
I sat on my butt in my pajamas on the sofa drinking a nice hot cup of coffee. I awaited my friend to arrive back home. She left to pick up a surprise for me; she said I needed the excitement. I have to say I am rather bored right now sitting here watching Grey's Anatomy at night, the newer episodes kind of suck. I could hear her car pull into the driveway, she drives a jeep liberty and they have really loud motors. When she came through the garage door she had a huge smile plastered on her face a Walmart bag in tow. She reached into her bag and said, "Look at what I got!" she pulled out all four seasons of Yu Yu Hakusho.
I could feel my face brighten up when I saw them. "Om my god, you didn't!"
"Yes I did, I knew they would lift your depressed and deprived spirit up."
"Deprived?"
She skipped over to me and sat down next to me completely ignoring my question. "Remember in middle school how obsessed we were with this Anime? Then when cartoon network stopped airing it we were so angry and started to do badly in middle school grade wise?" She started to laugh and I laughed with her. We were so stupid then; this show was all we had back then. Something to focus on other than our current lives at the moment; I missed those innocent days so much.
It took four days, one season a day and it was amazing. It brought back so many memories. I use to love Kurama so much; I remembered how I use to have drawings of him everywhere in my room. I was the master of drawing him. I almost forgot about him and I thanked Vanessa for making me relive a past that I missed so much.
"That was amazing," I said over dinner, which consisted of macaroni and cheese and mashed potatoes. When I was in middle school I liked to mix them together and tonight I did just that.
"Having fun there?" Vanessa asked and laughed when I nodded vigorously. When we were finished eating and began to wash the dishes Vanessa asked me if I could take the garbage out and I did as I was told since I was mooching off her and I did everything I could to help her. Two garbage bags I had to take out, "How the hell did we have two bags of garbage since last week?" I yelled into the kitchen.
"We do eat don't we?" She yelled back.
"Not two bags worth of rotten food," I said to myself as I grabbed both bags and made my way to the end of the driveway.
When I got halfway down the driveway each step I took felt heavier and heavier, my eyes grew heavy as well and the driveway began to go blurry. I made it to the and dropped the bags. The road seemed to move under me and I tried my best to not let it trip me. I fell to my knees figuring it would be best if I crawled back to the house.
My mind began to go fuzzy; I forgot what I was doing. Why was I on the ground, I tried to stand up but couldn't, it felt like I had weights strapped to me. What was happening? I tried to cry out for help but nothing came from my mouth. My arms grew weak and I went face first into the cement.
I felt like I was on a rollercoaster.
A rollercoaster going down hill.
Down and down… Down… I was falling.
I could actually feel the air pass through my hair. I strained to open my eyes and I saw the bright blue, very blue sky above me.
And I was falling. I was actually falling and I still couldn't move or scream. What the hell, how did I get up here? How high up was I?
Please let me land in something soft pppllleeeaaassseee God!
No, instead I landed on the ground and ended up fainting for a reason I don't know.
(Okay, to give you more of an explanation for this story, well, the first chapter was in our world and towards the end well yeah, I think you know where she is at now. I made this story like five years ago, posted it and got really bad feedback because I was really bad at writing and my grammar and spelling was atrocious. I kept it up to see if anyone would give me good feedback but nope, not one. So I took it down about a year ago and decided recently to redo it and try again. So if ya like please REVIEW! I am a reviewing whore and I will thank everyone one by one and reply back on the next chapter to what you say.
This story will be more funny and outgoing/adventurous. If anyone likes drama or serious stories once in awhile just look at my other story called A Dying Dream.
And also this chapter was EXTREMELY SHORT for my taste. This is really just a prequel type thing, just to see if anyone wants me to continue. I usually make about 2,500+ words in each chapter but my first one is always short.
REVIEW if you want me to continue, if not I'll just continue my other story.)