My very good friend of mine, tvaddict23, made a suggestion to have a journal entry from Cam as part of the last chapter of Booth's Lie. I decided, reluctantly, that while I really liked the idea of an entry for Cam, I needed it to be a stand alone story as the whole focus for Booth's Lie is on Booth and Bones, with one individual, Hank, thrown in as a sort of mentor/shoulder to cry on. I hope you enjoy this short one. Gregg.
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From the Journal of Dr. Camille Saroyan:
Jan. 22, 2010: I saw something today that has made me rethink three years of feelings regarding Dr. Brennan. I saw a person who comes across as cold and aloof most of the time become a sensitive woman who put aside her personal standards to give something to her closest friend that would allow him to keep his faith in something he's believed in deeply his whole life.
I didn't know if I would ever get to even like Dr. Brennan when I first met her. If Seeley hadn't told me straight up that if I fired her I would lose not only Dr. Brennan, but I would lose all of her staff and also Seeley as well, I would have made a devastating mistake. I didn't understand how this woman could garner such loyalty, but since that time I have come to understand. Her cold, awkward temperament isn't lack of caring. It's simply a way to protect herself from the inner pain that the world has created in her life. By forcing me to learn to work with her, Seeley made it possible for me to observe and become friends with probably the most dedicated professional I've ever known.
I doubt that Dr. Brennan and I will ever become close friends. She doesn't open herself up to that easily, but she had allowed a small crack in the door to her feelings to open up. I've at least been smart enough to accept that small bit, and I think I've been rewarded by it.
This morning, though, showed me a much deeper side to Dr. Brennan. For a long time now it's been obvious that Seeley has been in love with Dr. Brennan. I wasn't too sure about her feelings until Seeley was shot in the karaoke. It was then that I saw what everyone else had been talking about since I first started this job. Since then I've seen both of them deny it, and I even saw Dr. Brennan royally screw up by dating two men at once. Since then she hasn't been with a man to my knowledge, though she did have one abortive date with that idiot Hacker. I had to ask her about the pregnancy test, but her answer reassured me that she was waiting for something. I'm sure it's Seeley.
She almost messed up once more when she was initially adamant about how the remains were JFK. She also seemed oblivious to how much such a thing would hurt Seeley. That changed, though, the minute I said something about how much his trust in his government had allowed him to live with his guilt over what he did as a sniper. She immediately began to work harder to show that the remains weren't JFK's, even though we all knew that they were. Her lying to Seeley showed me once and for all just how much that woman loves him.
I think I made a serious mistake when I confronted Seeley about being very sure of himself before telling Dr. Brennan he was in love with her. It's obvious that the feelings are on both sides. I'm going to have to make amends somehow and see if these two can find a way to move beyond their own fears. I only hope someday I can find a friend that cares as much about me as Dr, Brennan cares for Seeley, and vice versa. A good friend like that is very rare in this world, but also very precious.
A/N: Like in Booth's Lie I am going more for emotions in these journal entries, so the details are a bit more vague than in a prose setting. I hope you enjoyed this short glimpse into Dr. Saroyan's mind after this latest episode. Gregg.