"Within You"
Prologue: Doing Without
By Lady Starra
E-mail: ladystarra@angelfire.com
Rating: PG
Standard disclaimers apply.
Hi, minna! Welcome to my next fanfic! This prologue is short, but that
is how I like to keep them, sorry! Thanks to everyone for their
encouragement and faithfulness to email me on "Playing Matchmaker." I
am so glad you all enjoyed it, hopefully I can keep it up! We'll see
with this story, ne? Hope you like!
Usagi looked out of her window, gazing at the moon. She began
to think of the previous week, when she and Mamoru were babysitting
little Manami-chan. It was wonderful, spending time with Mamo-chan.
But she couldn't help feeling depressed nonetheless.
'He still doesn't remember me,' she thought sadly. She was
beginning to wonder if he ever would. If she was more like she used to
be, like Princess Serenity, then she was sure he would love her again.
But...she wasn't. She was Tsukino Usagi, and she wanted him to love
her as Tsukino Usagi.
'Yeah, right, Usagi. You're just a whiny, klutzy teenager who
is never on time, and is failing almost every subject in school to
boot. What could Mamo-chan ever possibly see in someone like you?' a
voice inside her cried. She felt the tears began to sting her eyes and
finally sliding down her face.
"Mamo-chan..." she cried softly.
"Usagi-chan?"
She turned to see Luna behind her, with concern in her eyes.
"Luna," she said, her tears still flowing freely.
"What is the matter?" she asked.
"Luna, why can't we give Mamo-chan his memories back?" Usagi
asked.
Luna sighed. So THAT was what all this was about.
"I'm sorry, Usagi-chan. The mind meld only works for the
Senshi. I am sure Mamoru-san will remember soon," she said.
"But what if he doesn't, Luna? What if he never remembers? I
don't know if I can live without him."
"Usagi-chan...it's important you let him remember on his own.
If you don't it could effect him emotionally. What if he can't handle
it? If you love him, wait. Be patient. Love will have it's way."
"You really believe that, Luna?"
The cat smiled and came up to gently nudge the girl she
thought of as a daughter. "Of course I do. And I will always be here
for you, Usagi-chan."
Usagi hugged her guardian and pet her gently.
"Arigato, Luna. I really don't know what I'd do without you."
Usagi put Luna down. "I...I think I need to go for a walk. Just so I
can think about this a while longer."
"Don't be too long. It's past eight o'clock," Luna said.
"I won't be, Luna." Usagi grabbed the star locket out of her
jewelry box and went downstairs.
"Mom, I'm going for a walk!" Usagi shouted as she ran down the
stairs.
"Now? But it's almost eight-thirty," Ikuko told her daughter.
"I won't be long!" were her last words as she dashed out the
door. She decided to go to the park close to Mamo-chan's. Out of all
the parks in Tokyo, that one had the best view of the moon. She began
to think about what Luna said.
'She's right,' Usagi thought. 'I wish I could tell him
everything, but Mamo-chan seems so satisfied with his life. If I had
the choice, I would be normal, too. I don't want to get in the way of
his happiness. I love him, and if he's happy, then so am I. He may not
believe me if I told him anyway. He would probably laugh and wonder
how I came up with such a story.'
She began to think about how Natsumi was pursuing Mamoru. It
was infuriating Usagi, to say the least. The girl was ruthless, and
just as determined as Usagi. That scared her. The thought of Mamoru
ending up with Natsumi made Usagi shudder. But, remembering how Mamoru
had shrugged her off at the virtual reality theater brought a smile to
her face.
'After all, he did spend most of that day with ME and not
her,' she thought. 'Seijuurou really seems to like me, but...I can't
be with him. Not when I love my Mamo-chan.'
Usagi finally reached the park, not even noticing that she had
passed Mamoru's apartment building. She was so deep in her thoughts it
was a wonder she even noticed that she was getting closer to the park.
She went to her favorite bench, where she'd gone to think countless
nights before. She had started coming here when she had first learned
she was Sailor Moon, to sort out her feelings on her new lifestyle.
She had also come here to think about her obsessions with Motoki and
Tuxedo Kamen, and also used to go there to cry when she'd been driven
over the edge by Rei and/or Mamoru. She hadn't come here since the day
she found out that Mamoru was not Tsukikage no Knight, when she had
cried a waterfall of tears, confusion and sadness whirling in her mind
that entire night, longing for her Mamo-chan.
The reflection of the moon over the lake was perfect. The fact
that it was a full moon made it all that much more splendid. Usagi
opened the star locket and listened to its tinkling melody, and unable
to help herself, she felt tears once again streaming down her face.
She looked up at the moon and spoke softly.
"Mother, I don't know if you can hear me, but I just want to
do what's right. I know you are probably disappointed about how I have
turned out here, and I want more than anything for you to be proud of
me. I'm sorry I have failed you."
She sobbed softly, until she heard a familiar voice behind
her.
"Usagi?"
So, how'd you like? Hopefully, I can get the next chapter out next
week, I have most of it written but I majorly need to make it longer.
Your e-mails always help me to stay motivated and inspired, so please
write to me, ladystarra@angelfire.com!!! Big thanks to Alicia Blade
and Edeet, I love you guys! Read their stories! Ja ne!
Sincerely,
Lady S
Prologue: Doing Without
By Lady Starra
E-mail: ladystarra@angelfire.com
Rating: PG
Standard disclaimers apply.
Hi, minna! Welcome to my next fanfic! This prologue is short, but that
is how I like to keep them, sorry! Thanks to everyone for their
encouragement and faithfulness to email me on "Playing Matchmaker." I
am so glad you all enjoyed it, hopefully I can keep it up! We'll see
with this story, ne? Hope you like!
Usagi looked out of her window, gazing at the moon. She began
to think of the previous week, when she and Mamoru were babysitting
little Manami-chan. It was wonderful, spending time with Mamo-chan.
But she couldn't help feeling depressed nonetheless.
'He still doesn't remember me,' she thought sadly. She was
beginning to wonder if he ever would. If she was more like she used to
be, like Princess Serenity, then she was sure he would love her again.
But...she wasn't. She was Tsukino Usagi, and she wanted him to love
her as Tsukino Usagi.
'Yeah, right, Usagi. You're just a whiny, klutzy teenager who
is never on time, and is failing almost every subject in school to
boot. What could Mamo-chan ever possibly see in someone like you?' a
voice inside her cried. She felt the tears began to sting her eyes and
finally sliding down her face.
"Mamo-chan..." she cried softly.
"Usagi-chan?"
She turned to see Luna behind her, with concern in her eyes.
"Luna," she said, her tears still flowing freely.
"What is the matter?" she asked.
"Luna, why can't we give Mamo-chan his memories back?" Usagi
asked.
Luna sighed. So THAT was what all this was about.
"I'm sorry, Usagi-chan. The mind meld only works for the
Senshi. I am sure Mamoru-san will remember soon," she said.
"But what if he doesn't, Luna? What if he never remembers? I
don't know if I can live without him."
"Usagi-chan...it's important you let him remember on his own.
If you don't it could effect him emotionally. What if he can't handle
it? If you love him, wait. Be patient. Love will have it's way."
"You really believe that, Luna?"
The cat smiled and came up to gently nudge the girl she
thought of as a daughter. "Of course I do. And I will always be here
for you, Usagi-chan."
Usagi hugged her guardian and pet her gently.
"Arigato, Luna. I really don't know what I'd do without you."
Usagi put Luna down. "I...I think I need to go for a walk. Just so I
can think about this a while longer."
"Don't be too long. It's past eight o'clock," Luna said.
"I won't be, Luna." Usagi grabbed the star locket out of her
jewelry box and went downstairs.
"Mom, I'm going for a walk!" Usagi shouted as she ran down the
stairs.
"Now? But it's almost eight-thirty," Ikuko told her daughter.
"I won't be long!" were her last words as she dashed out the
door. She decided to go to the park close to Mamo-chan's. Out of all
the parks in Tokyo, that one had the best view of the moon. She began
to think about what Luna said.
'She's right,' Usagi thought. 'I wish I could tell him
everything, but Mamo-chan seems so satisfied with his life. If I had
the choice, I would be normal, too. I don't want to get in the way of
his happiness. I love him, and if he's happy, then so am I. He may not
believe me if I told him anyway. He would probably laugh and wonder
how I came up with such a story.'
She began to think about how Natsumi was pursuing Mamoru. It
was infuriating Usagi, to say the least. The girl was ruthless, and
just as determined as Usagi. That scared her. The thought of Mamoru
ending up with Natsumi made Usagi shudder. But, remembering how Mamoru
had shrugged her off at the virtual reality theater brought a smile to
her face.
'After all, he did spend most of that day with ME and not
her,' she thought. 'Seijuurou really seems to like me, but...I can't
be with him. Not when I love my Mamo-chan.'
Usagi finally reached the park, not even noticing that she had
passed Mamoru's apartment building. She was so deep in her thoughts it
was a wonder she even noticed that she was getting closer to the park.
She went to her favorite bench, where she'd gone to think countless
nights before. She had started coming here when she had first learned
she was Sailor Moon, to sort out her feelings on her new lifestyle.
She had also come here to think about her obsessions with Motoki and
Tuxedo Kamen, and also used to go there to cry when she'd been driven
over the edge by Rei and/or Mamoru. She hadn't come here since the day
she found out that Mamoru was not Tsukikage no Knight, when she had
cried a waterfall of tears, confusion and sadness whirling in her mind
that entire night, longing for her Mamo-chan.
The reflection of the moon over the lake was perfect. The fact
that it was a full moon made it all that much more splendid. Usagi
opened the star locket and listened to its tinkling melody, and unable
to help herself, she felt tears once again streaming down her face.
She looked up at the moon and spoke softly.
"Mother, I don't know if you can hear me, but I just want to
do what's right. I know you are probably disappointed about how I have
turned out here, and I want more than anything for you to be proud of
me. I'm sorry I have failed you."
She sobbed softly, until she heard a familiar voice behind
her.
"Usagi?"
So, how'd you like? Hopefully, I can get the next chapter out next
week, I have most of it written but I majorly need to make it longer.
Your e-mails always help me to stay motivated and inspired, so please
write to me, ladystarra@angelfire.com!!! Big thanks to Alicia Blade
and Edeet, I love you guys! Read their stories! Ja ne!
Sincerely,
Lady S