~Good Bye~
Chung,
By the time you get this letter, I'll probably be long gone. I know you're an early riser, so that's why i'm choosing now to write this letter to you. Do not think that any of this is your fault, because you've been kind to me from the very beginning, and so patient. As much as I enjoyed our time together, all things must come to an end. These past weeks I couldn't help but ask myself: what is this exactly? What are we? When we started this, we were young, and didn't know exactly what love was. We only did what felt good and what made us happy. Maybe somewhere along the way we discovered it, but this...isn't my happiness.
You were very sweet to me, and very protective and I thank you for all the times you nursed me back to health. The cute little notes you would leave me when you were out at work, and the surprise kisses when I came home from training. You were everything I ever wanted in a person. Loyal, patient, and loving. But something kept me from being truly happy, and I didn't know what it was, until now.
The truth of the matter is...that I didn't love you. At least, not in the way that you loved me. You were ready to give me your all, to sacrifice every bit of strength you had for me, but I...I couldn't do the same. I was hesitant, and my heart wavered far too long. The night of our first...I knew then that this feeling would only continue to grow, along with my guilt.
This way is much easier...I won't have to see the tears on your face as these words sink in. And I won't have to kick myself time and again for not being able to comfort you afterwards. I will always care about you, and you will always be a valuable friend and comrade to me...but this has to end. For both of us.
Hurting you was never something I would have ever dreamed of, but at least this way I am left to suffer my guilt and my shame alone, so that I may never hurt another the way I will have hurt you.
Please, take care of yourself.
Elsword