It's all My fault

chapter 1 : Olivers Sorrow

I sloped upstairs ignoring my mothers nagging, muttering the occasional "uhuh" just to sound like I was paying attention but I really wasn't in the mood and I didn't care if she knew I wasn't listening because nothing she could do would make me feel any worse than I already did. Today was the day Lilly Truscott was going to walk out of my life forever and there was nothing I could do to stop it. God knows I'd done enough to cause it. I wasn't the one sat behind the steering wheel, but I might as well have been. I'd driven her away! I couldn't even talk to Miley about it because she blamed me for making her best friend leave too.

I slammed my bedroom door shut and the force of it made a picture frame fall off of my bookshelf. I knew instantly what the picture was of because it was the only one I had up in my room. I wasn't a big fan of photos because they always lied and often the smiles were fake and forced and didn't reflect the true feelings of people. But not this one, this one was true and the smiles were real and the people were actually happy and not just pretending. I stared down at the picture behind the broken glass and saw the two care-free kindergarteners grinning back at me. Where had those times gone? Why did we have to grow up? Why did I have to ruin everything and everyone I cared about?

I bent down and carefully picked up the frame, kicked the bits of broken glass aside and collapsed onto my bed. I can't remember the last time I'd been as happy as I was in this picture. No wait, I can. It was at the start of all the trouble, two weeks before Thanks Giving when Lilly told me she liked me! But I blew it and now that's 'Reason number 1' why it's my fault she's leaving.

Miley, Lilly and I were sat in our usual spot on the beach. Lilly and I had just been surfing and I was soaking wet because I'd fallen of the board at least 7 times. I wasn't as good as Lilly at surfing, we both knew it but there was no way I was going to admit it. I sat down on the sand and shook my head like a dog, sending water everywhere.

"Oliver!" Miley exclaimed as she wiped the water off of her face. I just shrugged my shoulders and lay down on the sand and closed my eyes, enjoying the heat of the sun on my skin.

"You're getting better Oliver! Last time you fell like 12 times" She laughed.

"Thanks Lil but I was just mucking about. If I actually tried I could stay on properly." I was lying of course but she didn't have to know that.

"Of course you could…Huh? What?" I had no idea what Lilly was talking about so I opened my eyes to see her and Miley sat there whispering.

"What are you two gossiping about now?" I said smirking.

"Oh nothing," Miley said giving Lilly a strange look and, at the time, I didn't know what it meant but looking back now I realise it was a 'tell him already' kinda look. Lilly was shaking her head fiercely at her but Miley didn't seem bothered.

"Well I'm going to…erm…go for a walk. See you two later." She gave Lilly that look again and left.

"No, Miley… Miley! " Lilly yelled after her but Miley didn't turn round, she just kept walking. Lilly turned her head to me and I gave her a puzzled look, I wasn't prepared for what was coming at all.

Lilly gave a nervous laugh and shifted round so she was sat on her knees in front of me. I propped myself up with my elbows hoping that she was going to explain what was going on because I was completely confused.

"I kinda wanna ask you something…well tell you something… ask you something and tell you something… but the other way round." She was getting really nervous now and it sort of made me nervous too. She never acted like this around me.

"Ok… go on"

"God, Miley's been wanting me to tell you this for like ages and I never knew how hard it would be when I agreed."

"So it's about Miley?" I had no idea what was going on.

"No it's about me…and you." She swallowed hard, took a deep breath and continued. "Look the thing is, well I have a… a huge crush on you and I guess I just wanted you to know and wondered if you felt the same. So… do you?" She said anxiously. I looked away from her, I had no idea what to say so I just said the only thing I could.

"Oh."

"I knew it; I knew you wouldn't feel the same. I shouldn't have said anything .I'm sorry." She sounded so hurt. I was shocked by the pain I could here in her voice but I didn't do anything about it, I just watched her get up and leave. I didn't tell her how I really felt. I didn't tell her that I had a crush on her too. I didn't tell her that what she'd just told me had made me the happiest person alive. I just let her run.

A/N: Yeah so that is my first chapter and I'm not too pleased with it. I wanna know what you lot think about it. If you like it please let me know coz then I will continue but it's up to you. Ta