Here's my new story. Don't worry I am still continuing my other ones, I just came up with this during my writers block and wanted to write it down. Let me know what you guys think. Should I continue? Please Review.
Erin Lindsay's life had never been easy. Her mom was a manipulative drug addict and her dad was in prison. The only person she could truly rely on was Hank Voight, the person who saved her from her life of drugs, alcohol, and prostitution. Hank Voight took her into his home and raised her as his own. She owed her life to him.
That is the reason she had to break things off with her boyfriend. That was the hardest thing she had ever done. She didn't want to break up with him, but she had no choice. She never let her guard down and trusted anyone before. That was until she met Jay Halstead, her partner at the Intelligence Unit. They had sexual tension since the beginning of their partnership, but Erin knew better to get involved with her colleague. Although he was always there for her, nothing happened between the two until the door opened when Lindsay took a job at the task force. They finally had their infamous "one day" and they both were truly happy. She never let herself be happy with someone like him before; someone she fell for. Although it is hard for her to admit, she fell in love with him. Their happiness didn't last long. After she returned to Intelligence, Voight sensed there was something going on between the two and Erin called it off.
"Voight knows." Jay Halstead said as he entered the locker room and joined Erin Lindsay by her locker.
"I know." Erin said.
"For the record, I don't care. I said we should come clean a month ago and I am going to talk to him right now." He said firmly as he pushed himself off the locker and started to walk his way to the bullpen.
"Jay." Erin stopped him. She could see the hurt in his eyes. "I wish it was that easy. You know it's different for me."
He put his hand on her shoulder. "I understand." He moved his hand to her cheek and she leaned into his hand. . "So, we'll cool it, but we'll always have each other's back."
"Always."
"Alright, that's good enough for now." He said before he left the locker room. He wanted to fight for her, but he also needed to respect Erin's wishes and the loyalty she has for Hank Voight.
That was two months ago and she could not stop thinking about him. She missed him; she missed his touch. She missed waking up next to him. She has never desired a man before in her life and she was terrified of how hard she fell for Jay Halstead. She couldn't do anything about it though, she had too much to lose.
She sat across her team at Molly's. She looked over at the bar and saw Jay laughing with his current girlfriend, Allie Corson, and his brother, Will. Allie and Jay rekindled their high school roman a couple of weeks prior. Halstead had not put a label on it, but they were seeing each other again. The jealousy burned Erin Lindsay inside. That is the side of herself she never thought she would feel, but she truly was jealous of Allie and how openly they could date.
Jay turned to see Lindsay glaring and him and he smiled at her and lifted his beer to toast to her. She faintly smiled back at him and raised her beer to him as well.
"Lindsay, you okay?" Erin was brought out of her thoughts by Kim Burgess who sat across from her.
"Huh? Yeah, I'm good." Erin gave her a small smile and tried to get back into the conversation with the rest of the unit.
After a while of conversing with her friends, she wanted to go home and be away from everything, especially from Jay.
"Guys, I'm going to call it a night. I'll see you all tomorrow." Lindsay said.
"But you only had one beer. C'mon, Linds let us buy you one more round." Ruzek said.
"I'm good guys, thank you. I want to go check on Nadia, she's been studying all night."
"Alright, stay hi from us." Antonio said.
"I will, goodnight guys." Erin smiled at her friends and quickly waved at Allie and the Halstead brothers and walked out of Molly's.
"Erin," she heard the all too familiar voice calling after her.
She stopped at the sidewalk and turned around to face Jay Halstead.
"Jay." She smirked.
"Where you off to?" He asked.
"Home. I just needed to check on Nadia and then curl up in bed." Erin said.
"You okay? You don't seem like yourself today." *Exactly* she thought to herself. She never got upset over a guy, this was not like her.
"I'm good, Jay. Go back inside to your girlfriend." Erin gave him a faint smile.
"We're not really putting a label on what we have yet, it's too soon. I miss you, ya know?" He said.
She nodded. "Yeah, me too. But Voight's never going to accept us, and now you have Allie. We're partners, Jay. That's how it's supposed to be. So go inside Jay, please."
"Yeah, you're right." He nodded not convinced of his own feelings. He tried to let her go thousands of times, but his mind always wandered back to her. He was in love with Erin Lindsay; he would always be in love with her. He just couldn't tell her that because of Voight and because it will scare her off. He liked Allie, but he didn't love her, his heart was already taken by someone he could not have. "I wish the circumstances were different."
"Yeah, but they're not. Maybe this is how it's supposed to be." She said as she wrapped her hands around her arms to warm up.
"Are you cold?" Jay asked and took off his jacket and wrapped it over her shoulders.
"Jay, I'm good. I'm only walking to my car."
"Erin, it's freezing out." He said. "Let me walk you to your car."
"Okay." Erin said as they started walking around the corner where her car was parked. When she reached her car, she took the jacket off of her shoulders and handed it to Jay. "Thank you for the jacket. Goodnight Jay."
"Goodnight Erin." It took everything out of him not to grab her and kiss her until they were both out of breath, but they had decided to cool it and he needed to respect that. Plus, he was having a fling with Allie, and Jay Halstead was not a cheater.
He opened the car door for her. She faintly smiled at him one last time and got into the car and turned the car on.
He watched as she drove away. "I love you, Erin." He whispered in his drunken state.
As Erin entered her apartment she saw the light on in Nadia's room.
"Hey, there smart girl." Erin said as she saw Nadia at her desk studying.
"Hey, I'm dying over her." Nadia said as she buried her head into her book.
Erin sat on her bed and said, "It'll all be worth it in the end, trust me."
"Yeah, I just have to get through this test on tuesday." Nadia said.
"You're going to kill it, Nads. I believe in you." Erin said. "I'm so proud of you, you know that?"
"Thanks, Erin." She smiled at her. "How was Molly's."
"It was okay, I just wanted to be home tonight."
"You miss Jay, don't you? Is he with that slut?" Nadia asked.
"Nadia." Erin scolded her.
"What? Do you think I'm blind and deaf, Erin? Do you think I didn't hear what you two did over and over again?"
"You didn't?" Erin was appalled. She could not believe Nadia knew about them and she heard them sleeping together.
"Oh Jay, keep going. JAY…" Nadia impersonated Erin's voice. "You know you should let him take the wheel on the streets like you do in the bedroom."
"OH MY GOD." Erin put her head into her hands to hide her embarrassment.
"I am scarred for life, thank you." Nadia said.
"I'm so sorry. We thought you were asleep." Erin said.
"I can't really sleep through all of the yelling, you know." Nadia smirked.
"We are done with this conversation." Erin said getting up. "I am so sorry that you heard that."
"But seriously, Erin. You need to let him drive a little. The whole house husband thing you guys have going on isn't fair for him."
"Uhuh." Erin smirked. "We'll see. Do you need anything, I'm going to head off to bed."
"Actually, do you have pads. I just ran out." Nadia said.
"I think I ran out the last time I had my period, but I did right it down on the list for the next time I had my period." She took out her phone and looked at the date that she created the note. "Shit."
"What is it, Erin?"
"Nothing." Erin said as she got up and walked out into the living room.
"Erin." Nadia ran after her. She knew something was up. "What is it?"
Erin took a deep breath. "I'm two months late, Nadia." She blurted out.
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