Why do I hold this bottle in my
hand?
Drink away the pain is all I can do.
Why did you leave
me?
You said 'I love you' HAH! I shouldn't have believed a
monster! You dazzle me Eddie, you really do and I HATE YOU for
that! You lie through your teeth you bastard! I wish I hadn't met
you I wish you were dead!
But why wish for the impossible when
the knife sits just in front of me? It is so easy for me to die, to
throw this all away, o forget your beautify ugly face!
I wish
I hadn't met you! I wish you were dead!
But now who is the one
mourning the loss of their love, Eddie?
You were too late!
And now as an angel I watch from above.
I look down to see
your face once more.
I hate you! I hate your eternal beauty!
I
wasn't good enough for you, and you come to my grave why?
To
tell me I was nothing?
To mock my family?
But instead I see
you, hurt on your face and sadness in your eyes.
"I was too
late, I love you Bella, I always have, I am so sorry."
I hear
your musical voice once more as I float higher and higher into the
clouds.
I can hardly see you anymore, but I want to stay, I know
the truth now! I don't want this! I don't want this!
"No! Edward! I'm sorry! No, I want to go back! Let me go back! I don't want this! I don't want to be dead! I love you Edward!" I screamed, hoping, for some reason he's hear me.
What Have I Done?
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Suicide is NEVER the answer! Don't try to numb the pain…it only ends up leading to stupid this like killing yourself.