Amelia POV

"Amelia. Everyday you don't open the door, it gets a little easier to stay inside. I can't pull you out anymore. No one can open this door but you. I want to be here. I will be. Amelia..."

Whatever strength I had left in me took over before my mind could tell me not to and I finally opened the door. The astonished look on his face matched my equally as shocked expression. Almost instantly I was against his chest with hot tears streaming down my face. His strong arms enveloped me in a comforting and warm embrace. It felt like I was home again. He moved us from the doorway to the bed and held me close until my sobs stopped. I was so exhausted and I could tell he was too.

"I don't know where to start-"

"False negative."

"What? Amelia..."

"The test I took that night with you... It was a false negative."

"But you don't want a baby with me..."

My heart broke the way his sullen face further fell when he mentioned "with me".

"I do though. Remember all the stuff I told you that was gonna be too scary?"

"Nothing you could say or do would scare me away, Amelia. You know this."

"When Ryan died, I went to drug rehab. I had a hard time with withdrawals. As time went on, I discovered that it wasn't just withdrawals. I was pregnant. I didn't want to accept the fact I was pregnant with a dead man's baby."

Tears stung my eyes and start to spill again. I hated having to talk about this. It was one of the darkest times in my life. I took a deep breath and continued.

"I refused to get an ultrasound for the longest time. I must have been at least 20 weeks before I agreed to let Addison do it. During what should've been such a happy event, Addison quickly pulled the screen away. She didn't want me to see but I already somewhat knew. My baby had anencephaly. My little innocent baby had no brain. Everyone tried to convince me to terminate him but I couldn't. I didn't want to. So as much as you know, he ended up living for 43 minutes. He went into distress and I had all of his organs donated. He saved so many lives. No one here in Seattle knows about what happened."

"You could've told me, Amelia. I would've understood."

"Everyone sees all my damage before they see the good in me. I didn't want you to follow suit."

He wiped my tears yet again and tilted my chin up so I would look at him. His eyes were glassy; I knew he was trying to keep it together.

"I'm just as damaged as you are, my love. You see the best in me and it's the same with you. I understand why you feel how you do. I'm sorry you had to go through it alone. I love you. I've loved you from the start. If creating a family is too painful and scary for you, we don't have to have one. We'll do what we have to. You're the most important thing to me, and I don't want to lose you again."

Our lips came together in a slow and passionate kiss.

"I want a family with you. I do want to have your baby. I want 4-5 of them, remember? I just didn't think it would happen so soon and when I had Derek run the blood work for me at work, it came back positive. Robbins gave me an ultrasound. Our baby has a brain."

We kissed again and our embrace got even closer. A couple tears managed to escape his eyes.

"We're gonna have a baby."

"Yeah Owen, we are gonna have a baby. I know saying sorry doesn't begin to make up for me running but I am still sorry. I regret it entirely. I just couldn't breathe knowing there was a life inside me when you didn't even know about the first one."

"I don't blame you. I didn't like it but I don't blame you. It is in the past now. I want you to come home. I miss you and I don't want another night alone in bed where you belong with me. Please Amelia."

The pained and pleading look in his eyes was more than enough of a reason to say yes.

"I'm ready to come home."

After gathering my belongings, I hugged Derek and Meredith goodbye and got in Owen's truck to go home. Owen being the chivalrous guy that he is, held my hand the whole silent drive home. I was so anxious and I hated that it got this way between us. I was the only one to blame for it but that didn't make it suck any less.

We got home and as soon as Owen unlocked the front door, I went to take a shower. I just needed the hot water on me for a few minutes. Once I finished washing my hair, I saw Owen slowly walk into the bathroom.

"Can I join you?"

Yet another thing he said that make my heart sink. He had never asked before and now everything was just awkward between us.

"I was hoping you would."

I started to get extremely self conscious of myself and my body and hoped Owen wouldn't look too long or too closely. He stripped naked and stepped in immediately closing the space between us. We clung to each other, chest to chest, and was content like that for a few minutes. No words needed to be spoken. Eventually we pulled back some from each other, my blue eyes looking right into his even brighter blue eyes. He started to kiss me which I happily reciprocated. He backed us up against the wall and lifted me up to have my core against his hard, impressive member.

"Owen, I'm so lucky to have you..."

He interrupted me with another deep kiss then started kissing down my neck.

"Amelia... I need you."

"Have me, baby. You know you can have me."

~Yay! A new story. YES Derek is alive! It's an Omelia centric fic but will definitely have its fair share of Merder. Leave me a review, let me know what you think!~