A/N:
In case you didn't know:
Hetalia=not mine
Arthur(Art)=England
Alfred=America
Kinda new, different, something to try and get me back on track.
Hey, Art, buddy...
I... (sigh) I never have been good at these serious, sappy heart-to-hearts...
And I know... I know that doing this now might be too little too late
But... you know, you always were a fan of the saying:
"Better late than never."
I... When I was small
You were...
...Everything...
Absolutely everything...
I waited for you did you know that?
Ha
Of course you did...
You knew everything.
I always did hate it when you left me for weeks, months at a time
… I hated it...
But, I was always so happy when you came home...
You were...
… Who I looked up to...
Always...
And I, when I grew up, I wanted to be just. Like. You...
And I fell in love with the very idea of it...
It swarmed my dreams and was the muse of all my crappy drawings.
You were...
...MY hero...
...MY knight in shining armor...
...MY...
But, then... I saw what you were doing
I saw how, at the time, how little you cared about me...
...Looking back now... I know I was wrong
But then...
(sigh)
I didn't WANT to REVOLT...
I didn't want to go to WAR AGAINST YOU...
I didn't want to POINT a GUN at YOU...
...But I did...
And I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, Arthur...
...But I'm not sorry...
When you fell to your knees at my feet...
When tears mixed with the pouring rain and streamed down your face...
When that voice that had always been so strong and so sure...
BEGGED and BROKE...
I HATED myself for it...
I wanted nothing less than to take up your offer and go home...
But my children...
...They needed me...
And my people...
...They needed me...
And my country...
...Needed me to be strong...
But I needed YOU.
How was I supposed to make a decision like that?
All by myself?
You...
Raised me...
Protected me...
You made me the country, the nation, the world superpower...
...The person that I am today...
That was all you...
And I turned around and I left you there, sobbing, and begging in the rain and the mud.
But...
I didn't do it just for my children or my people or my country...
I did it so that I could become YOUR everything...
Become who YOU looked up to...
I left you there so that I could grow up and become YOUR hero...
And so that I could protect you.
And I will NEVER forgive myself for making that decision.
...I wont hold it against you if you still hate me...
...I know you still have nightmares
But, I never...
I didn't...
I'm sorry...
...Hey, hey Arthur...?
Do you remember when I said you WERE my everything, you WERE were who I looked up to, you WERE my hero?
...You still are...
And you ALWAYS will be...
And I wonder... I wonder if I can be the same to you?
If you could ever...
Forgive me enough to let me try.
...Despite how long its been
I'm still young
I've still got a lot of growing up to do
But,
If you could...
Wait for me...
I know I can do it...
But,
Until then,
Never forget that
I still love you
And I always will
And I'm still your little boy
That will NEVER change... ever.
-Alfred.
A/N: So, because of my MAJOR writers block, I tried a little one-shot just to see if it helped, if I get a decent amount of people reading it, and maybe a review or two telling me that y'all actually liked it, I might try writing more.
This was based off of kinda a post-revolutionary war guilt that I thought might've been cool to write and I thought it turned out pretty good but y'all let me know what ya think and whether I should write more or stick to what I've already got.
I love reading one-shots but I have a really hard time writing my own so don't expect too many of these but I'm gonna go see if I can't get started on another chapter for y'all and I'll see y'all later, Ja ne (see you).