I do not own Twilight. I just obsess over it.

cliff diving stuff...From NM from when she jumps off to when she starts to sink I didn't want to copy from the book...

I felt my legs being dragged down deeper and deeper in the cold black water. Where was it?! Where is that light I've always heard of? I've felt my lungs fill with the cold water and the pain, holy crow! The pain! I thought you were suppose to have peace, all pain was suppose to leave and then there was some light that I would see and it would feel warm and loving and I would then get my harp and wings. What was this all about! NO! This can't be. Don't tell me I'm going to feel all of this for eternity. Oh, please, I hope the fish eat my flesh soon so I wont feel this anymore! Where was my angles voice? Where were my grandparents who went before me? How could I have been so foolish!? Maybe God misunderstood me. It was a mistake. No, this can't be I must be in hell! Why is it so cold here? Did it freeze over? I'm nuts, that's it! How can I even try to joke about my fate at a time like this. I just need to get through this.

Jacob's POV

I can't believe that I couldn't save her. She was almost within my reach. My lungs were about to burst needing more oxygen. Why was she sinking that way? Like she was being dragged by something. I tried to keep going when I heard Sam's voice call me back up. Correction, command me back up. I don't know if I will ever forgive him for distracting me. I looked up for a split second and then looked back to Bella's body, but she was...gone. I yelled but it just came out in bubbles and had to resurface. I can't even count how many times I dove back down so search for her. This was all my fault...the very least I could do would be to deliver her body to Charlie.

What good is being "a protector" if I couldn't protect the one girl in the world I loved. The rest of the pack kept an eye out for the surface. After a few hours I realized there was no hope for her. I pounded the shore in my anger and frustration for not being able to save her. I had all this new found strength and speed. For what! I can't save the one person that I care for. I hate myself. Sam put his hand on my shoulder and told me that we would keep a patrol out for her body to wash up. I couldn't even imagine what Victoria would do to desecrate her body if she found her first. I have to go find Charlie I thought, but then everything went black.

I woke up on my couch. Quil was there. His face was pained and confused and what was that, angry? I sat up and hoped I had just experienced the worst nightmare possible! I was almost relieved! That's when he said it. Those words came out of his mouth.

"Her body hasn't washed up yet. We will have one of us patrol, but there are more pressing issues at this time."

"What the hell could that be?!" I spat out.

"It's Harry Clearwater. He just died of a heart attack. Everyone else is at the hospital. Including Charlie. I was the one sent here to give you the message to meet us there."

"What is going on, how did I get on this couch." I questioned.

"Apparently you exhausted yourself in your search, and your body just finally gave out. Hey, it's OK, I can't even imagine what you must be going through. If anything ever happened to Clair..."

"Quil, don't you ever think of that! Do you hear me! NEVER! (I sighed and calmly asked) Has anyone talked to Charlie yet...you know... about Bella?"

"No, that's why I was sent here. Sam thinks it would be best if you told him." Quil looked so angry. "How could that help you at a time like this? It was Sam's decision, not mine. Oh man! I'm really sorry about everything." I knew he really understood what I was going through at that moment. Even without being in our wolf form.

We arrived at the hospital to see everyone trying to console Harry's family. Charlie truly looked sad and when he saw me...confused. Confused that his little girl wasn't with us. My dad turned my way and said, "Jacob, I think you need to talk to Charlie right now. He deserves to know!"

"Sure sure." I said sadly.

"Charlie, um...I need to talk to you. Can I see you in private?"

"You bet Jacob. Is this about helping out the Clearwaters?" Charlie asked.

"I wish." my voice cracked when I spoke.

We walked in the chapel. The pack ushered out everyone else when they saw us enter. They knew what was going to be said. They were all going home now anyway.

"Charlie, this is really hard to say. It's about Bella..."

Charlie got upset and gave me the once over, "Just say what you're going to say Jake! Did you get my little girl pregnant or something?!"

"NO! No, no, no. Nothing like that...I wish that's what it was." I muttered

"WHAT!?" Charlie's face was almost purple and I saw him flinch for his gun holster.

I raised my arms in a surrendered form, if this was his reaction to that, what would it be when I told him his little girl was dead because I couldn't dive deep enough! I think he calmed down when he saw me break down in tears.

"Ah, come on Jake, I'm not gonna shot you. Stop crying. I'm sure we can figure out whatever is going on."

I then told him the whole story. At first I was worried that he wouldn't understand me since I was crying so much. I looked up to see his reaction but I was so confused. His eyes were closed but he looked like he was...smiling. Why the heck would he be smiling?! Why isn't his in tears? Was he actually happy that his daughter was dead rather than pregnant? What kind of sick...

"Jacob, thank you. Really, from the bottom of my heart. I know you did your best for my little girl. I hope you know that I appreciate everything you've done for her." He put his hand on my shoulder. It felt cold and his face looked a little blue. I was startled and was wondering if he was having a heart attack too. He just shook his head and smiled at me.

"Jake, knowing that you were my daughter's closest friend at the end really does mean a lot to me." Then he turned away from me and walked out the door as I collapsed weeping on the floor.

Bella's POV

I must have gone through this for days! My flesh feeling as if it is being ripped from my body and feelings I can't even put into words are going through my mind. I was starting to forget who I was, why I was here. Edward, that's right. It was all because of a man named Edward. I feel so alone. Surly he wasn't worth all this pain and suffering, but something deep down told me that he was. I felt a pain in my heart from his memory. Oh, the devil sure did know how to tourcher his victims didn't he? Just when I started to imagine that the pain was going away I could hear voices. It was strange though, like in a language that I knew from a long time ago. Was this in the tongue of angles? It was certainly like music, but my ears felt muffled. It was like I could hear the voices in my head, not my ears. I knew these voices. But where from? There was singing. Oh, please tell me that I was being delivered up from this hell I was in. Maybe there was a mix up and they saw in my heart of hearts that I didn't intend to hurt myself. That I belonged in heaven after all. Maybe I just had penance for my stupidity?! I hoped that was the case...What...I can HOPE again. I gave a sigh of relief, but it was different. It was harder to breath. The air was thick and I had to work to pull it in my lungs and push it out. I opened my eyes and there was an eerie green glow. I looked around and the first people that I saw were my grandparents. They looked so different. So...Beautiful. My grandmother was smiling at me sweetly and spoke to my mind.

'Isabella! How I've missed you! How I love you! I'm so glad that you are with us now!"

My grandfather rushed up to me and gave me a bone crunching hug. It was remarkable because I remembered hearing that in the end he was so feeble and weak. Charlie used to tell me that Grandpa would want to hold me but the best they could do was have Charlie hold me next to him.

'Isabella, how I wished I could have done that in the other life! The stories you heard about me not being able to hold you are true.' I was shocked to then see his memories of me as a baby and Charlie holding me close so my Grandpa could put his feeble hand on my cheek. There were tears in his eyes.

'Grandpa, I'm so sorry! I can't even imagine you that way. You are so strong and young looking.' I looked down at my hands in embarrassment. What must they think of me for throwing my life away for something so stupid...now what was that reason? But on further examination, I was shocked. My skin looked different. I wondered how different I looked. Then it took a few minutes to gather enough courage to check to see if I had wings. I whirled around. My grandparents laughed. I must have looked like a dog chasing it's tail. Hum...I sure liked dogs, they do say all dogs go to heaven.

My grandmother stopped me from spinning and said as she looked in my eyes, 'Darling, we don't have wings! But we can fly! In a way, of course. Oh, one moment, I have to do something first." My grandmother had a faraway look and was joined by my grandfather. They spoke in a tongue that I was sure I should know but couldn't quite remember. They had anger in their voices and hatred in their eyes. Then they turned back to me with their smiles and said, "Lets go flying".

Jacob's POV
It has been almost a month now that my Bella has been gone. That leech and his family are back. It's all his fault, that filthy bloodsucker. Why are they back now? I'll tell you one thing, if they slip up, even a little, it will be my pleasure to rip out this throat and disassemble his body. Maybe I'll remove his heart and and hang in from my rear view mirror. The thought of that made me smile. But no, this isn't a time to smile, this is a time to comb the shore for the body of my best friend. Who am I kidding, she was more than that, or at least she should have been. "Why Bells! Why?" I was so mad that heaven took her from me. From time to time I would see a big clump of seaweed wash ashore. Half afraid that it would be her. I couldn't imagine seeing my beautiful Bells picked at by fish. I wanted to desperately always remember her feisty and just...perfect. Oh Bells, why.

Chief Swan didn't want to try to recover his daughter's body. He said that it was better for her to be buried at sea. That way, he could always feel her close when he would smell the salty air. He also knew that we would be checking for her body on the shore daily.

There was a memorial service at the shore a couple of weeks back. I was glad, the bloodsuckers weren't allowed to come since it was across the treaty lines. He will never get to say goodbye to her again! He didn't deserve to be able to! At the conclusion we all threw roses into the sea from the cliff site and there were wreathes and flower arrangements there as well. It was a makeshift memorial. I found out that the senior class was planning to have a real memorial put there in her honer. I couldn't believe that there were so many people there. Her entire school and most of Forks. I noticed that annoying Mike guy there crying and this creepy looking girl looking like she was enjoying having him hold her while he was weeping. I think her name was Jessica or something. She kept telling everyone how close she was to Bella. You could see even at her memorial, she wanted to take the attention away from Bells. There were police chiefs from the surrounding areas there as well. It was a beautiful ceremony for a beautiful girl.

Just then, I saw something I wasn't expecting. It was Charlie. What the heck is he doing out here? Is he really going fishing? He had his boat and was pushing it in the water. I ran up and called out to him.

"Hey Charlie!" He looked startled like I caught him doing something. Maybe he was going to go out looking for his little girls body. Did he change his mind. I decided to give him an out.

"Good day to go fishing huh?" I said while looking and my flipper sized feet.

"Um, yeah, I thought, since it was my day off and all. I just needed a break." I looked up to see him try to cover up some stuff in his boat. He had a 12 pack of Coke tied to a rope and a meshed bag full of softball sized stones. That was odd. Maybe he was going to drag them to keep them cold, but Coke really wasn't his drink, that was Bella's. Oh, Bella! Maybe he was going to drink it in her honor.

I then had an idea, "Chief, you want some company?"

"NO! I mean, no, that's OK Jake, I think I got it."

"I didn't mean me." yes I did "I was thinking that I could get my dad to go with you...If you want that is. It would only take a sec."

His face had a broad smile on it and he said, "Jake, I know what you're trying to do and I appreciate it, really. I think I just need to be alone right now. I promise, Billy is my closest friend, I will go to him when I'm ready."

"Sure ...sure" was all I could say. He then pushed his boat off waved at me and "sailed" into the sunset. He was a ways off but I could see him with my wolf's sight. Or at least I thought I could I then saw him throw in the Coke weighed down with the bag of rocks. Weird!

Edward's POV

What is going on! I can't live like this. Alice saw a vision of Bella jumping off a cliff and then nothing...nothing. Rose saw it fit to call me and tell me that my beloved was dead, fish food was her foul words, so I had to call Charlie to confirm. I called, but Alice answered. She sounded out of breath, should I remind her that we don't need to breath. I roared at her for being there and asked her what she was doing, then she told me that Bella was in trouble. That she was in pain. Horrible pain. That she couldn't see her, but that is was pitch black.

That was a month ago. I keep going over Alice's vision over and over, making Alice relive it over and over. Bella jumps, sinks then nothing...nothing. Then she's in pain. Bella in darkness in pain. We could even feel the pain. It was something that we have never experienced. I can hear peoples thoughts but not feel what they feel. And Alice, she can "see" but not feel.

Oh, I get sick when I think that my angel is going through that. Jacob came to me to tell me that I murdered her. I know he enjoyed rubbing my face in that. I wouldn't tell him about Alice's vision. She wasn't his concern anymore anyway. I was back to stay. I made a foolish decision and if it would take eternity to correct it, then so be it. Besides how would she see all that if she were dead? How indeed! We would check on her from time to time but the pain stopped suddenly.

Alice got a far away look that she was having a vision. I tapped right into it. We could see Bella with two strange people. She looked strange too. But more beautiful than anything I have ever seen. We could hear the most beautiful singing, but...what language is that? The melody is haunting. It was so peaceful. Bella started to spin around like she was in an underwater ballet or something. She was so amazingly beautiful. The couple that were with her were laughing but not at her. Rather with joy. The woman stopped Bella's spinning and then one of the most frightening things happened.

The woman turned and saw us. It was like we were there. Bella looked at her and then toward us, but we could tell she couldn't see us. She spoke to Alice and I looking us in the eye.

"You two. How dare you! What authority do you have to spy on our family."

The man was by her side in a flash."I normally don't give warnings, but seeing as you care for Isabella so much I will give you one THIS time. If I ever find out that you seek us again I will make you wish you were never born. Isabella is no longer your concern. She is where she belongs. She will have joy here. You needn't worry about her. Let her go...for your sake."

"NEVER! I LOVE HER!" I yelled.

"How dare you speak to me in such tones you insolent toad!" A pain thrashed through my body like nothing I remember ever feeling.

"NO, BELLA!"

"You are a crude creature aren't you. You address her as Bella do you? Do you not know who she is?" then he said under his breath 'of course not' "She doesn't remember you fool. Your feeble feelings for her mean nothing. She doesn't remember anything of her past life. Just know that she will be young and beautiful and joyful forever. If you truly love her you should be rejoicing. You do not want a war with our kind." he spoke to me as if I was some insignificant bug that he could easily crush.

"I'm not giving her up without a fight!" I spat.

He laughed and the woman's eyes bore into me with hatred. "You really think you are a threat...to us? As I said before, this is a warning little boy. Stop before you get 'burned?' Yes, I know what you are and your weakness to fire. Don't make me destroy you and your family. Just so you know, this will be the last time you will be 'allowed' to have a little peek at our Isabella. You are being cut off from her in this way."

I felt that horrible pain again and then everything was black and I was on the floor in my house. I was dry sobbing and my family was staring at me with all these questions buzzing all around me. They heard my side of the conversation but have never seen us talk to a vision before. It was the most unique vision Alice and I have ever shared. I could hear Alice quickly telling them what all happened. I collected myself off of the floor and grabbed Alice.

"Alice, we have to see what they are doing to her!"

There was fear in her eyes, "I don't think that's a good idea. I've never had someone do that to me before. He scares me. He knows who we are Edward! He's threatened our whole family!"

"I'm begging you Alice! She's my life!"

She thought about it and sighed. Then she was concentrating. Nothing. Nothing happened. She then tried harder. Again, nothing. She looked really scared. Then she looked at Rose and easily saw her with Emmett in their bedroom and whipped out of that. Relief came over her face.

"Well, the good news is I still have my power, but the bad news is, I can no longer see Bella. I'm truly sorry Edward."

That's when Carlisle spoke up. "Alice, Edward. Can you describe to me what is couple looked like in every detail possible. It's obvious that they aren't quite human and if we want to get Bella back, we need to know what we are dealing with."