'She's someone who is trapped within the hands of the past,
A fragile soul who may not last
"Can somebody help me?"
"Someone, anyone just set me free."
Wishful Thinking of a Lonely Dreamer
I feel like I am suffocating. My chest feels like it is keeps getting heavier each breathe I take in. I know what they are thinking. I know that I don't fit in. I know that… I wish I didn't know anything, I wish I was like those laid-back people…I wish there would be a friend whenever I feel like this: worried, guilty, sad, tearful and it feels painful.
A warm hug…is all I need to feel better again. I wish I wasn't so independent, but then again I'm nothing at all. Why am I wishing this? I hate the looks they give me. Those smiles only to brush me off, not the encouraging ones, no, I never get those. I can only lock them away because I don't want it to change. Why? I want to become strong and adapt to things like any other human being, but I wonder why it is so hard to change? Why is it that they won't allow me to change?
Is it another rule for the universe, to not let a certain person change? But Even so, I want to be stronger even if I have to let some things go…
What if it's not a form of bullying, it's just that they don't want you.
What if it's not friendship, it's a hand that you can't let go.
What if it's not them, it's you.
What would you do?