Disclaimer: I don't own Yu-Gi-Oh.
For Ryu no Neko, for making me a Prideshipper, though I'm still not sure
that's a good thing.
Heads or Tails
When I flip this coin, will it land on heads or tails? Do I really care? The answer is yes. Who knew that this coin could be such a scary thing. Yet... I don't know. Heads or tails? Which one's heads? Which one's tails? Do I have to flip a coin for that? Why should I even flip this coin? Do I need to decide?
I can't leave them in limbo like this. It hurts too much. They don't even know! Why does this mean so much to me? It's a new feeling to me, feeling like I want something, something that I can't have. Yugi said something like that once, after his Lit. class. You spend your life wanting something that you can't have, and even though you know you can't have it, you keep looking for it, but you give up all hope of finding it. So what was it that I was looking for?
I don't know.
Warmth, safety, honesty?
Danger, worry, thrills?
I don't know.
I don't know if I ever knew. I don't know if I ever will know, but at least this time, I can try to understand.
Heads or Tails?
Life or Death?
That's not the choice I'm making. I think that would be easier. Just give up, and not have to make the choice. It's weak, someone once told me (I think it was the tomb-robber) to just lay down and die. It's harder to keep going, and to live with the choices you've had to made.
Good or Evil?
That's not it either. I know what I am, and I can't, won't, change that. Not for anything. Never. Why be someone else? You would still be hated by some. You can never be loved by all, so why try? Why should anyone even bother to try and hide themselves behind the mask of popularity? It doesn't work.
Love or Hate?
That's closer, but still not the choice I'm going to have to make. I love some, and I hate others, I can't change my feelings for those who are long dead and gone. I can't stand here agonizing over choices that were already made. What I can do is make this choice here and now.
Love?
I did not choose to love, I didn't not choose to care about people. It happened, and it took me by surprise. I didn't expect to feel again. I've been numb for so long, feeling hurt. And it still does. Does everyone feel this way? I don't know.
How can people live with this pain? I don't know. What I do know is that there are very few things I can control in my life. This will be one of them.
Heads or Tails?
I still haven't flipped the coin. I still haven't decided which one's which.
Head's or Tails?
I need to make my choice soon. The coin's cold in my hand. My shaking, trembling hand. I need to breathe. I need to remember why I'm making this choice. Remember what choice I'm making.
Heads or Tails?
Love...
Love....
Love Bakura?
Love Seto?
Love both?
Love neither?
Heads or Tails?
Bakura or Seto?
Darkness is falling, I need to flip the coin while I can still see.
Heads or Tails?
I've flipped it. Up it goes, over and over and over. It lands on the sidewalk with a metallic click. I inhale, and lean over to get a good look at the coin.
But I don't. I don't look. Why?
I can choose.
I don't need some silly coin to tell me how to live my life. I can live it for myself.
I stand off, and brush the dust off my pants. Then I set off towards my destination. I have a confession to make.
The coin lies on the sidewalk, glinting in the light.
Which side's facing up?
Heads or Tails?
I don't know.
Nor do I care.
A/N: Who was this talking. Yami Yugi. Which side did the coin land on? Don't know. Who's house is he going to? Don't know. So you can make your own choices, which ever way you want to.
Heads or Tails
When I flip this coin, will it land on heads or tails? Do I really care? The answer is yes. Who knew that this coin could be such a scary thing. Yet... I don't know. Heads or tails? Which one's heads? Which one's tails? Do I have to flip a coin for that? Why should I even flip this coin? Do I need to decide?
I can't leave them in limbo like this. It hurts too much. They don't even know! Why does this mean so much to me? It's a new feeling to me, feeling like I want something, something that I can't have. Yugi said something like that once, after his Lit. class. You spend your life wanting something that you can't have, and even though you know you can't have it, you keep looking for it, but you give up all hope of finding it. So what was it that I was looking for?
I don't know.
Warmth, safety, honesty?
Danger, worry, thrills?
I don't know.
I don't know if I ever knew. I don't know if I ever will know, but at least this time, I can try to understand.
Heads or Tails?
Life or Death?
That's not the choice I'm making. I think that would be easier. Just give up, and not have to make the choice. It's weak, someone once told me (I think it was the tomb-robber) to just lay down and die. It's harder to keep going, and to live with the choices you've had to made.
Good or Evil?
That's not it either. I know what I am, and I can't, won't, change that. Not for anything. Never. Why be someone else? You would still be hated by some. You can never be loved by all, so why try? Why should anyone even bother to try and hide themselves behind the mask of popularity? It doesn't work.
Love or Hate?
That's closer, but still not the choice I'm going to have to make. I love some, and I hate others, I can't change my feelings for those who are long dead and gone. I can't stand here agonizing over choices that were already made. What I can do is make this choice here and now.
Love?
I did not choose to love, I didn't not choose to care about people. It happened, and it took me by surprise. I didn't expect to feel again. I've been numb for so long, feeling hurt. And it still does. Does everyone feel this way? I don't know.
How can people live with this pain? I don't know. What I do know is that there are very few things I can control in my life. This will be one of them.
Heads or Tails?
I still haven't flipped the coin. I still haven't decided which one's which.
Head's or Tails?
I need to make my choice soon. The coin's cold in my hand. My shaking, trembling hand. I need to breathe. I need to remember why I'm making this choice. Remember what choice I'm making.
Heads or Tails?
Love...
Love....
Love Bakura?
Love Seto?
Love both?
Love neither?
Heads or Tails?
Bakura or Seto?
Darkness is falling, I need to flip the coin while I can still see.
Heads or Tails?
I've flipped it. Up it goes, over and over and over. It lands on the sidewalk with a metallic click. I inhale, and lean over to get a good look at the coin.
But I don't. I don't look. Why?
I can choose.
I don't need some silly coin to tell me how to live my life. I can live it for myself.
I stand off, and brush the dust off my pants. Then I set off towards my destination. I have a confession to make.
The coin lies on the sidewalk, glinting in the light.
Which side's facing up?
Heads or Tails?
I don't know.
Nor do I care.
A/N: Who was this talking. Yami Yugi. Which side did the coin land on? Don't know. Who's house is he going to? Don't know. So you can make your own choices, which ever way you want to.