Summary: In the weeks following their break-up, Santana writes a series of poems to Brittany. AU.
Disclaimer: I definitely don't own Glee, if I did, there would be far less Finchel and far more Brittana.
Brittany,
"I choke back each tear that bleeds
I'd rather rest forever in your arms
I'd rather stay than go
But I know that I should leave.
I think of our time together
Is it fading, or am I dreaming?
Everything you said lives on"
- August in Bethany, Juliana Theory
I loved you, with everything I was
But now there is nothing left of me
So where does that leave you?
The only memories I have are of you and me
I can't get you out of my head
Though I know I am nothing to you
I dream on in the hopes that one day
You will come back to me
And say those words I so long for you to say
At night memories of us fill my head
There is nothing else in there but you
I'm trying to fit the puzzle pieces together
Of how we got to this place
This place that screams of loneliness
I want to hold you
Hold you so tight and never let you go again
I miss you
Sometimes so much I can't speak
Can't breath without wishing
Wishing that you would come back to me
But all that's left is merely a memory of you
The sound of your voice rings on
I can hear it in my head
Just close my eyes and there you are for me to see forever
But I wish I could open them
And you would still be there
Standing in front of me
Smiling your gorgeous smile
Laughing your gorgeous laugh
I hope the vision I have of you never disappears
Never fades, never fails like the love we once shared
I can look back on those times with a smile
But will it always be that way?
I fee like it hasn't hit me yet
I think I'm still holding onto the hope of you
Part of me might just be numb
Might just be in denial
Not willing to believe that you left
That you said goodbye
That you've give up on us
Given up on me
I hope I will see you again
And be able to meet you with a smile
I picture your face
The shock at how different I am now
How you changed me
Held me so gently that something in me shifted
I hope you know that
That I'm a better person now
A better person now for loving you
I believe again
I feel again
I breathe again
But I wish it was all with you
Your face is forever tattooed in my brain
But won't ever go away the way that you did
That picture is what keeps me sane
I love you, and I always will,
Santana
I hope you guys enjoyed it. I'm planning on having a few more poems up within the next few days. This story should be about 4 or 5 chapters.
The lyrics in the beginning of the poem are from an amazing band called The Juliana Theory. The song is August in Bethany, it's so great. Give it a listen if you'd like.
Thanks!
Kath