Er... Hello ? That's my first story written in English... So tell me if it's too inintelligible... I would delete it ^^' And if it's intelligible enough... Tell me my mistakes, I will correct the text and that will learn me some things... ^^'
It would have been a one-shot... But started like it is, it would be too long to be read in once... (I've the silly habit of writting too long story... My last French one-shot is 8484-word-long... ^.^'' Too much enthusiastic about my GouFubu I guess...)
The pairing was -in my head at first- Haruya/Fuusuke. But I ended with a Hiroto/Haruya... In which Hiroto is a jerk... I'm sorry T.T But I write what's crossing my mind ! So I hope you will like that story... (plus, I don't remember I read a story about these two... Am I the first of writting about them ? )
What's in Italic is either a flashback or the tought of someone.
A last thing to say before I let you read this... thing... It's rated T because implying raped, boy-love and for some words I use in the dialogues. I don't think I will change it to M, I'm not ready to write lemons in English (it's already difficult to me to write that so a lemon...).
Be hurt then be loved
"Nagumo ! Let me leave !
- I just need some money !
- Get a job and work to earn it ! Release me !
- Working is annoying... I'll have to steal Reize's...
- He has no more money, you already stole his all.
- Tsh..."
Haruya sighed. He needed money to buy Atsuishi a gift for his birthday. But Gazel didn't want to lend him his.
"Go ask to Hiroto !
- No way ! I will never ask him anything ! He's the last guy I would ever ask something, even if he were the last guy on Earth !
- He's not as bad as you think, you know...
- He is ! I hate him ! Gran is the worst guy I know !"
Fuusuke rolled his eyes. Haruya had burst into his room, saying he need money, but he just couldn't lend him the price his friend was asking. He didn't have that much. Osamu had spend his to buy the food for the two next weeks. The last one with the more money was Hiroto, but Haruya's pride and hatred were too strong to let him ask to the other red-haired boy.
"You're so useless ! I'm going.
- Yeah, yeah... And don't tease Midorikawa if you see him, I told you he hasn't got money !"
With that, Nagumo ran away from Gazel's room. He groaned in anger. Fuusuke and him was best friends like before since the end of these... "problems" with the Aliea Meteorite. But even though the other were talking all together and calling each other by their real names, Haruya kept calling everybody by their alien names and hating the ones he hated at this time. Fuusuke never understood why, though. Haruya's hatred towards Hiroto never calmed down. But Haruya had a reason for that, but he would not tell it to anyone. A reason which was dating for a few days after they received the Aliea Meteorite...
Hiroto approached near Haruya. He crossed his arms around the waist of the tulip-haired boy and whispered to his ear.
"Burrrrn... You know what ? That jersey suits on you so much... But I think you're much better without it...
- W-What ? Go away !" Burn shivered.
"No way... You're too cute to I let you..."
Burn felt a hand going down his body, under his uniform. He gasped as Gran put his lips against his neck. The captain of Gaia started to suck the cream-coloured skin. Burn moaned even though he was trying no to. He never knew his neck was so sensitive...
"You like it, right ? What about I continue ?
- You... You're such a...
- Don't say things you will regret. I will make you enjoy being taken like I will take you right now."
The following scene, Burn would prefer to forget. But he couldn't. There was a long scar across his chest, where Hiroto cut him when he had tried to escape, which remembered him what happened five month ago. He hated how the former captain of Genesis acted like nothing had passed towards the others. He hated those gentle looks he gave him when they were in the same room. He always felt Hiroto looking at him and that was driving him mad and sick. And he knew that the teal-eyed boy knew that.
"Nagumo !"
The said boy jumped as Netsuha screamed his name.
"What ?
- I call you almost one hundred times ! Have you ever bought the gift for Atsuishi ?
- No, I haven't enough money to buy what I want to offer him. And Gazel doesn't want to lend me some.
- And that seems weird to you ? You always are asking him something. He should do that a long time before..."
Haruya kicked the brown-haired boy.
"Not you now ! I'm not going to work to gain my money. I already do enough things here.
- You sure ? You asked me yesterday if I could help Midorikawa with his homework while it was to you he had asked help. And I helped him.
Nagumo huffed and turned away. He didn't want to argue with his friend. But, hey, we're talking about Nagumo Haruya ! He received orders from nobody ! Plus, if even his friends don't want to help him, so well. He just had to find the money elsewhere. Hitomiko kept her money in a box in his room. He just had to go get it.
He went to Hitomiko's room, further than he would want. Atsuishi's birthday was in two days, so he hadn't so much time to waste. He knew where the box was -on the shelf at the right of her bed. He brought a chair towards it and jumped on. He caught the box and jumped down. He took the money he needed inside.
"Nagumo ? What are you doing in Hitomiko's room ? More important, what are you doing with her money-box ?"
Haruya froze when he heard this voice. That was Him.
"What... What about you ? Y-You don't have to be there too, you moron !
- She asks me to bring her her mobile.
- Tsh, what an excuse... What prove me that what you're saying is right ?"
The tulip-head boy was panicking. He knew that Hiroto said true, but he didn't know how to escape from him. The chances the former captain of Gaia would repeat all that to their sister were too much. But he needed those yens.
"I... I need money, so like nobody wants or can give me it, I took it by myself. I will pay her back later.
- Put this money down. I will lend you mine. Hitomiko needs hers to buy our Christmas gifts.
- No way I will take yours ! You ...
- Don't say things you will regret."
Haruya's eyes opened wide. He began to shake. Gran had said the same thing before he...
"Nagumo, what's wrong ? You're so pale... and you're shaking. Are you s...
- Shut up. You said... You said exactly that, word for word, five months ago.
- Five months ?... I don't see what you're...Oh. You stay on that ?
- Obviously ! How do you want me to forget this sort of things ? You raped me, you fucking jerk !"
He didn't realise he was crying until a tear fell along his cheek. He dried it, and let the box and the money crush to the ground. It was said. He had said it out and loud. Never mind if someone else had heard that. On the contrary, if someone had heard that, this person would know the true side of Gran. Then, Haruya ran away.
He didn't care much about Atsuishi's gift right now. He felt his eyes watering so he ran faster. He didn't know where he was going, but again, he didn't care that much. He just wanted to go far from here, somewhere Hiroto would never go.
This evening, when all the kids of the Sun Garden orphanage were together, no one had noticed that Haruya wasn't here yet. No one but Hiroto. And he was pretty sure he knew why the other red-haired boy wasn't there.
Fuusuke burst into the living room with almost destroying the door.
"Where's he ? Haruya stole me my book !
- Er... No, that was me, Suzuno. I'm sorry, I should have asked you before.
- Huh ? Oh, if it's you, Midorikawa... Then, alright. Haruya wouldn't give me it back but you... Well. So, where is he, though ?"
Nobody spoke. This question had frozen everybody. Yes. Where was Haruya ?
"Who is the last who saw him today ?
- Er... I guess... I guess it's me..." Hiroto said hesitantly.
"You guess ?
- Y-Yeah..."
Everybody seemed confused. Since when Hiroto was so less confident ?
"Hiroto, what happened ?
- Nothing.
- Hiroto,I swear to you that, if you don't tell me what have happened, I will made of you life a real hell."
The red-haired boy looked down as Fuusuke threatened him and muttered.
"He reminds me what I've done to him five month ago..."
Unluckily for him, Suzuno heard what he said.
"And what have you done to him ?
- I... I raped him..."
Telling the truth made him feel less heavy, but he felt incredibly more guilty. What he did to Haruya was just so... cruel. Abnormal, cruel and he beat him, on top of that ! His eyes opened wide when Fuusuke caught him by the throat.
"You fucking... That's why he seems so scary when you're around !
- Suzuno ! Stop strangling him ! He will die !"
But the snow-haired boy didn't care. That was an explanation for all the odd behaviors Haruya had had before. The fact he didn't want to shower with him or with his team anymore, the fact he always slept with at least a shirt and a short over his underwear, and so much more !
Netsuha and Atsuishi grabbed him by the waist and moved him away from Hiroto. Fuusuke calmed down only when he was at the other corner of the room. And when he saw Hitomiko, shared between anger and sadness. Then she asked slowly.
"What do you mean, Hiroto, when you say that you raped him ?
- I... I bring him to my room and I did to him... things I don't want and can't report. I can't ever say I regret because... Actually, I enjoyed having sex with him. But the mainly reason I did those things was because of the power of the Aliea Meteorite, I swear.
- You...
- Calm down, Suzuno.
- But he...
- I said, calm down. First, we need to find Nagumo. We'll resolve this problem later."
Fuusuke groaned but said nothing. Hitomiko asked everybody to begin the search in the town. Suzuno ran outside immediately. Hiroto followed him.
"Suzuno, wait for me !
- No way ! You're such a bastard !"
The silver-haired boy turned to grab the red-haired boy by the collar.
"I will never forgive you to have done such a thing ! That explains the plenty times Haruya tried to kill himself !
- What ? He tried to... I-I didn't know that...
- Yes, he tried. A lot of times. And he almost succeed like ten times."
He let go of Hiroto. He seemed sad.
"You don't know how difficult trying to stop him is. He barely cut me, once. Even if it wasn't intentional, I was scared, and so was he. When he saw my blood began to flow, he cried and didn't stop to apologize.
- Since when is he... like this ? Is it since I ...
- Unluckily, no. He was already like this before, but he had seemed to be in best mood just before we received the Aliea Meteorite. And so more when we received it. But I understand now, why he was suicidal again a short time after..."
He sighed. Now, he also understood why Haruya hated Hiroto so much.
"I'm sorry for strangling you earlier.
- No, I am sorry. I shouldn't have to do what I did to Nagumo. But it's not to you I need to apologize...
- Yeah. We should find him before he makes a mistake."
They began to walk silently. Suzuno started to think about where Haruya could be. He could be anywhere... Or not. If he was right -and he was pretty sure he was right- Haruya wouldn't kill himself.
"Can I ask you a question ?" He asked suddenly.
- I guess... What ?
- Why had you raped Haruya ? You said the mainly reason was the meteorite. But the others ?
- The second is that I really wanted to. I admit I dreamt of him in this sort of way. But I swear that I never planned to do it in reality.
- You wanted ? ... But why ? Do you love him ? I mean, not just for sex ?
- I..."
Hiroto didn't really know. He never thought about that before. Did he love the other boy ? He never thought about being with Haruya... Even with what he had done, the thought never crossed his mind.
"So ?
- I... I don't know... I-I never thought about that...
- If you find out you really love him... I promise I won't kill you soon. But first, think about it.
Haruya had dried his tears and was now in front of a little house. He knew whose house it was ans he was pretty sure he knew why his steps led him there. He pushed the doorbell and, a short time after, a blond-haired boy appeared, opening the door.
"Nagumo ? What are you doing here ?
- Can I stay a few days here ? Please, Aphrodi..."
The captain of Zeus blinked as the other boy seemed to be at the point of crying.
"Of course ! Come in..."
Afuro let Haruya enter in his house. They went to the living room where they sat on the couch.
"Can I know... what happened to you ?
- I guess... You're hosting me and I trust you more than them...
- If you don't want to, I won't force you, you know...
- No. i think it will make me feel better... If I say the truth to someone... Five month ago, after we received the Aliea Meteorite... One day, I was hanging in the building... Gran had arrived and..."
He told Aphrodi the whole story. Afuro let him speak. He was shocked but said nothing. Nagumo was now crying but he didn't care. He told the blond everything, even the parts during his rape. Afuro hugged him tightly before asked him gently.
"And what happened today ?
- He caught me stealing Hitomiko's money... He said he will lend me his, but I refused and try to insult him... But he cut me and and said the same thing as five month ago... I... I screamed that I don't forget... He... He seemed so... indifferent... And I..."
Haruya couldn't stop crying. Even if he found himself that that was overreacted, he just couldn't stop. Afuro stroked his back slowly. He could not understand what the red-haired boy was feeling, though he knew that it should have been difficult for him to tell him the whole story. But he hadn't expect what followed...
"But I... I can't say that I... That I hated what he had done to me anymore... I know that's not true... When I remind me... The feeling of his touch on my body... I-I feel like a fire in my stomach...
- Do you think that... You may love him ?
- I don't really know... I'm disgusting...
- That's not true. You're not disgusting at all. You never wanted all that, right ? So that's not your fault. You're just suffering the afterwards."
Nagumo looked at him in a way which was too difficult to support. The blond looked away. Suddenly, he felt his mobile vibrated. He opened it and saw the name of Suzuno appeared.
"I leave you five minutes, okay Nagumo ?
- Yeah..." the red-haired boy sniffled.
Aphrodi picked up when he reach his room.
"Suzuno ?
- Aphrodi, can I ask you a question ?
- Sure.
- Is Haruya here ?
- Yeah. He also tells me what happened to him.
- So you know for Hiroto... Well. I think it would be better if Haruya stay with you a few days, time for he calms himself.
- I think so. So don't worry, I will take care of him.
- Thank you so much Afuro. I owe you. Bye.
- Bye."
He sighed. At least, the others seemed to worry about the golden-eyed boy. He came back to the living room to find his friend asleep. After all, he sure need rest, Afuro thought. All he hoped was that Nagumo wouldn't try to kill himself during his stay here. He wasn't sure he couldn't handle this without Fuusuke... He almost just watched the red-haired cutting his own wrist the last time it happened. He was afraid by the sight of blood, it wasn't his fault ! But when Suzuno had screamed to him to do something to help him stop Haruya, he did a big effort to pass above is fear and help the snow-haired boy. He almost pass out just after but at this moment, he just didn't care. One of his friend had just tried to kill himself and, if he had found time to be selfish, he surely had thought that he just could not lose one of the forward of the Fire Dragon team, especially not one of the two with whom he created a hissatsu.
He stared at Nagumo, sighing. Maybe the red-haired wouldn't try... After all, he could have done that instead of going here. But with Haruya, he couldn't be sure...
Fuusuke and Hiroto were back to the orphanage. The teal-eyed boy said to Hitomiko that Haruya was safe and with someone trustworthy. She called back the others and asked Hiroto to follow her in her room. She let Suzuno come because she saw that he wasn't as angry as before towards the red-haired boy.
"Hiroto, I can't say I'm not disappointed. But what you've done is a terrible thing. I even wonder why Nagumo don't go away before. Do you understand the gravity of what you've done to him ?
- Yes, Hitomiko. I know. But, like I said before, I don't regret. And... Suzuno made me think about the reason I've done that.
- So what ?
- I did that because I wanted to and now that I thought about all that, I can affirm that I wanted to do that because I like him...
- Just like ?" Suzuno was now angry and ready to jumped on the other boy.
"No, I love him. That would explain the dreams I have and why I keep looking at him so often...
- Well... So, you raped him because the Aliea Meteorite pushed you to realise what you wanted, right ?"
Hiroto was blushing more than it could be possible but nodded. Hitomiko sighed. She would not have believed that Hiroto could do such a thing if it wouldn't have been Hiroto himself to say her that.
"Okay... Then, Suzuno, where's Haruya ?
- He's at Aphrodi's. So we don't need to worry about him. Aphrodi take of him and I'm sure he will manage to stop him if try anything.
- Don't you tell me he wasn't able to do anything when Nagumo had tried in Korea ?
- I do, but I trust him. Plus, if Haruya wanted to kill himself after he talked to Hiroto this morning, he would have done this instead of going at Aphrodi's, don't you think so ?
- I guess. So, we just can wait and see how Haruya will come back ?
- Yes.
The two sighed. Hiroto felt a bit lonely but said nothing. After all, that was his fault if Haruya went away. But what could he do ? Presently, all he could have told to Haruya certainly could have made him feel worse... He just had to wait and see, like Hitomiko said...
Tell me if I should continue or stop this... massacre (?)... And if someone is ready to "beta"(?) me... It would be a real pleasure ! TwT
Last thing before I leave you... I'm very slow in writting story so don't expect I post the next chapter soon... Sorry !
See ya' !