Unspoken
(My one last goodbye)
wolfram's pov.
Yuuri,
If I could have given you anything more than I was giving you, I would have had nothing.
I don't know what to do anymore, I feel lifeless.
How many years has it been?
Three years?
Four?
How long did I wait for you to say three, simple words?...
Conrad noticed something with me today and asked what was wrong.
I pointed to my chest, and with my usual bratty voice, I replied,
"It hurts here."
He told me I should have medicine, which I denied. That confused him.
He didn't understand.
No one would...
You're long gone now... and I know you won't come back. It's something I've known for forever... maybe even longer than that.
I still wait by the fountain every day until my brothers yell at me to get up and move on... but I still wait for your return.
Even though I know...
...I know...
You truly are a wimp...
A stupid, brave wimp...
Why'd you protect me?
Isn't that my job as a soldier of the king? I loved you, and you didn't love me.
Doesn't that make protecting you my job?
Doesn't it?
You always tell me about your world, and that two guys marrying is a mistake.
Well, our marriage was a mistake...
...to you, that is...
Still, I loved you...
I can't even express the love I held for you...
...and how hard it was to hold all this time.
I remember holding you close in my arms, my heart shattering.
The blood coming from your chest was breaking me.
That should have been my blood...not yours...
You said you were tired...you wanted to sleep.
I remember yelling at you, cursing at you...
...loving you.
I'm pretty famous now because of you, Yuuri...
I'm known for working for you, being your fiancé...
...and being saved by you.
My chest hurts right now...it's causing me great pain.
Though I'm sure...I'm sure you felt more.
I really, really miss you...
But you know what's funny, Yuuri?
I've always been known to only have memories of regrets...
...is that why I can't stop thinking about you?