I Lost You and I Love You
I lost you in this world.
I couldn't accept your death, so I traveled to different worlds again and again. Looking for a world where you were alive.
My only wish... is that you live.
But in the world where you lived, I never existed to begin with.
When a person who isn't supposed to exist forces his way into the world, he is treated as a foreign body.
That's right. Up until now,... I've killed you so many times like this, in order to escape my own death.
A forceful death is cruel. And there were no gentle ways to die. I was so scared and it was so painful that I could not take it anymore. I killed you with my own hands.
But even when I killed you, my stupid self would just cry, unable to bear the guilt, and I would move on to another world.
Choose. Burn to death here, or... die by my blade. Neither are gentle. I know form first hand experience.
Why am I crying?
It's strange. I don't feel any pain or suffering. Could it be because this is the first time I've chosen my death?
Even though I knew I had to give up, I wanted to see you, I wanted to see you smile for me one more time. And for such a selfish wish, I killed you... I'm supposed to die here.
Every time I traveled to a new world and found you, I was a stranger to you.
All I could do was watch you from a distance.
Your smiling face, your cheerful voice... Even though it was meant for someone else, as long as you were happy...
But the truth was, I missed you.
I missed you so much,
So, to be able to meet you in this world, and even if it was only for a brief time, to be able to spend time with you,...
I was happy.
This is what I get for having done so many cruel things to you.
My love,... you will live. From now, until forever.
I've lost count of the number of times, I've met you and lost you.
This is probably the last time... I can talk to you like this, so I'll tell you now:
I love you.
Thank you for reading, minna-san! Please check out my other stories as well!~