Some People don't know this about her but she hates it when people mix up your and you're.
And when she can't sleep she likes to watch infomercials.
And when she was nine she wanted to be a doctor.
Then again only three people in the world really know her but then again the really didn't.
They didn't know that she likes to read.
And her favorite genre is angst .
And mostly because it numbs her and makes her forget for a second that she has daddy issues written all over her.
She likes to read about lost lovers and failed relationships.
She likes the feeling she gets afterward the heaviness that her heart has and the wanting to curl up in a little ball.
And she likes the ones that can really make her cry, the ones that make her feel for a little while longer.
She fifteen when she really looks at her self in the mirror and she can see:
The little roll on her stomach .
The small double chin.
The fatness on her thighs.
And then she turns away because she can't deal with all her imperfections.
It only a few hours later when she finds her self back in the bathroom,
seeing all those little mistakes
So she bends down near the toilet and puts her a finger down her throat and
then she lets go of all those ugly imperfections.
Her first real boyfriend was Jonah.
Her first real love was Freddie.
Her first time was Dylan.
Her first real heartbreak was Freddie.
Her second love was Donald
Her third love was Freddie
She hasn't gotten to her last one yet.
She doesn't really like to admit but she really hates her Daddy.
She hates that he left her.
Even though he said he was leaving Mommy.
But then he never told her "I Love You" when he left
So she never really believed in love.
After Jonah broke up her it didn't really hurt.
After she kissed Freddie it was really embarrassing.
After she and Dylan were done she didn't feel anything.
After Freddie told her he loved her she had a little bit of hope.
After Freddie found out about Dylan he didn't want to see her again.
After he said he was sorry she didn't believe him.
She never really loved him to begin with.
She eighteen and she's dancing on a table.
She has a bottle pressed to her lips and her dress is ripped but she doesn't care.
She for a second she forgets how she got here.
From rags to riches.
From saving for dresses to basically throwing them away.
She hears the flash of someone's camera and she knows that her picture is going to be splashed across Page Six but right now she doesn't really care .
She twenty-one and she's thinks she finally found her calling in life.
She's sitting in a car in the middle of know where, waiting for a black BMW to pull up beside her.
And when it does she goes to her trunk and pulls out a gun for protection. She was in the woods after all.
"Sam are you coming?" She can here Melanie's voice calling.
She's quite as she makes her way towards her sister.
And when she gets there she can here her sister talking in a language she knows well but she can only listen to the words "Were glad to help." and " He won't hurt you ever again."
And then she smiles.
She twenty-three and she's walking out of a hotel room.
She really thinks she found the one.
It's to bad he's married and her boss.
She really thinks that he means it when he says he loves her.
But he's a senator and she his secretary and there both really good at lying.
She twenty-five and she finally figured out .
That maybe she was never really made for love.
Then she see's Freddie coming out hotel bathroom.
And he turns to her and say's
"I love you."
And she knows that he means it.
And for some reason she can hear herself say
"I love you to".