Not So Lost..
As each finger touched the keys to that simple but beautiful piano, the stars oh how they danced in what I thought was the reflection of the sky. The moon crept higher, becoming the suns replacement.
But as I watched all this occur I couldn't help to think why I was alone. maybe it was to the fact that I no longer felt you beside me. that maybe I choose to be alone. As I lay there unmoving upon the grass I just had that sudden urge I've always had.
Those night that you were they beside me, protecting me from what I thought was harmful. In fact that wasn't what hurt me the most. What hurt me the most was they way the ancient piano would play its song peacefully but what that piano felt was enough to rattle the windows of my heart.
All I could hear at that very moment was the empty hum of my imagination.
Of what I knew wasn't real. what was imaginary. Nothing is real from this point and on. That low hum I have in my ears that pain that I know Im alone for the rest of eternity now.
That which hurts, I rather feel that than feel nothing at all. I try to smile sometimes but whets it worth when its fake? What's it worth if Im a fake who doesn't feel but when she does feel its not something people would expect her to feel.
Its nothing more that a charade but even thought this feels more than a poem more of a story, its a life of someone who was abandoned and someone who was left waiting in the dark for that tiny little spark.
Do you believe it never arrived?
Even though she never lost hope about this, its too late to stop wishing upon those stars that shine upon her twinkling and giving her something to hope about because in those stars eyes they see someone who shouldn't feel as they do.
They see someone who should hope for more than they see. Those stars know that she's not so lost in this big world.