Disclaimer: Ncis belongs to DPB.
A/N: English isn't my native language and this is my first fanfic. Any misstakes are my own since this isn't betaed!
This is my idea of Gibbs thoughts at the end of Ex-file when he sits in the stair.
-----------
It's always bittersweet to hear their voices.
I remember all the happy and joyous moments, but it also reminds me that they are lost to me forever and there won't be any new moments too add. What wouldn't I give for just seeing them once more.
I hear my own voice from earlier today echo in my head. I told her you died and it was the end of the story that I have put you behind me, I lied! I just don't want her to analyse, profile and trying to make me talk. I don't do talking I can't it hurts to much.
It's sixteen years since I last saw you but most of the time it feels like yesterday. I love you I always will, just as I will miss you till the day I die
If I could turn back time I would embrace you both in my arms and never let go.
I look down at the woman standing by my boat I know it won't last this time either, a few more weeks and then she will walk out of my life and I will gladly let her.
Now my only constant family is my team, my mind goes to Kate. I don't talk about her either she is the only one besides Shannon and Kelly I ever had a nightmare about. I wonder if it means anything.
I hope they are out there somewhere and that I will get to meet them again. I listen as their voices fades away and brings me out of my thoughts.
I whisper silently for my self as I stand up "I miss you guys"
--------
Please leave a review on your way out. I glady consider any suggestions for improvement, and perhaps it will help me finish the longer storys I'm working on.