WELL I'M A BIG FAN OF NATSUMIKAN SO DON'T HATE ME FOR BEING BITER BECAUSE OF MY MOOD! FEELINGS AFFECT WHAT I WRITE SO…NO HATRED!
DISCLAIMER: I'M A CHILD SO YOUNG AND SO NAIVE, SO WHO AM I TO OWN THIS!
Does it hurt so bad? does it satisfy you to break my heart? Does it felt good to see me cry? Does it make you happy to see me like this? Broken and half real, shattered and incomplete, and most of all you left me pretending and fake, but you know what , you made me a person I swear I'll never become….a fake…..bitch…you had made me turn to a wrong direction, and now I'm lost. Lost to a place called Despair and Loneliness. You left me sobbing and shattered….
" did you hear? A girl finally had the grasp of a certain someone…you know that 'BOY'."
"yeah and I thought SHE can make the guy soft. But I guess I was wrong because another girl did"
Whisper, muttering and lies are all around me. They didn't know what pain it cause me either. They don't know a thing, they don't even want to know the truth….
No one want to…
When I was sitting to OUR favorite tree, my best friend run towards me one day..
She heard it too, she was my bestfriend and still is. I know that she knows that o was hurt, I was on pain and she can see it through the eyes and masks I put.
Because in this kind of world , I learn all the lies and how to lie. I learn that people was probably being fake or just plain fake and users. I learn emotion can be a burden , so I hide it. And now, I became this girl, cheerful and strong and fake at the outside, lonely, weak and fragile on the inside. Like a glass, easily broken and yet ot was pure that can be turned blurry and unreadable.
" hey, are you okay?" she said
" yeah, I am fine" and then I smiled
" stop smiling, stop being like that girl' she said
"what do you mean? I am who I am" I replied
Lies … it hurt me to say that. And I know she was right, I am hurting.
"liar! I know you! We've known each other for a long time now. For years spending time with you, I know what move you would do next. Why do you always say' I am okay' or 'I'm fine' and then smile like that when you now that it hurts…. It hurts you from the inside? I saw you cried many times but I never saw you cried like that on your room one night. You lean to hide your emotion and pretend to everyone but…not me…it hurt you so much . I know your heart an world shattered and your soul died away..but please , it hurts me more to see you like this so please live….. for me ,,, for all of us…please don't kill yourself. Listen to me, okay?" and then she had silent tears flowing out her violet eyes,
"I would but sorry okay? Forgive me for what I'll do" and with that said, I left her staring at my back, for the first time in her life, confuse.
TBC
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