BPOV

Hey this is Edward, I'm afraid I have gotten some bad news ,
Call me when you get this message.

Edward Cullen now that was indeed a surprise considering we had been at war of and on for over a year , funny how I can't even recall what the fight this time was about I think it was about jacob again but who knows.

Who keeps track of the causes anymore they've had so many fights over the years it's hard to keep them on file and he'd never been the one to call first seeing it as a sign of weakness and anyone who knows Edward knows that he'd die before showing weakness especially to her so why would her arch nemesis be calling her. Edward hr best friend and worst enermy all rolled into one, he knew everything about her and usually used it to his advantage it was a game we played and needless to say we played it well. I can't help but laugh remembering the time I told his Flavor of the month I think her name was Sally that he had a wife and child living in Forks, she couldn't get out of the resturant fast enough not that it mattered girls didn't seem to last long with Edward,he got bored quickly,him being a total ass didn't help matters and that idiot had no brain to mouth filter he said what he felt like when he felt it yet still the girls came running in there numbers and Edward was happy to have every last one of them. What a whore I thought with a smile but that whore happened to be my best friend and I loved him even though I hated him sometimes and he drove me to want to dig my eyes out. not to mention that ass was a relentless cockblocker if I died a virgin it will be because of him. We were quite the pair the virgin and the whore I mused.

What was he up to now I wonder. The sound of the telephone ringing got her back to reality.

"Hello Isabella Swan's office how can I help you?"I answered the phone with a smile on my face still thinking about Edward's and my strange relationship

"Well for starters you can answer your fucking messages once in a while,How you keep that job of yours is beyond me" Blasted a very annoyed Edward. "Hello Edward, How are you today I see you are still your charming self, What seems to be the problem now" I asked trying to be extra chipper because he got totally pissed when I did that and I lived to piss that fucker off.

"Bella I think you should sit down" and after a short pause from Edward "are you sitting" He added I wish He'd just get to it he was making me nervous , "yes I'm sitting well out with it already"I muttered .

"Bella,Adam killed himself last night some sort of girlfriend problems that's all I know at the moment so I think you should go home pack your bag because I've arranged a flight for us in the next two hour. Bella , Issy are you there? Are you OK?" He asked his voice filled with concern this wasn't easy for him, and I was trying to find words but none came.I was in shock I had pictures of a smiling laughing Adam floating around in my head and I just couldn't undrstand how this had happend and what do you really say when someone tells you one of your closes friend has died because no one told me and I sure as hell didn't have the words.

"I'm sorry love to have to tell you over the phone and all but I've still got some stuff to arrange before we leave and you know I've never been good with tears, I've always hated to see you vulnerable so take some time to get it together and I'll see you at the airport " Edward whispered tring to comfort me yet not knowing exactly how to do that being the emotional black hole that he is but I appreciated the effort.

"I'll fax the flight arrangement to your secretary now OK. Bella, Bella snap out of it. Bella are you OK" He added oviously not comfortable in the role he'd been cast in and I know it would have been easier for him to just let Alice call me because god knows she's better at this but he wanted to tell me himself even though it had to be hard for him Adam had been his Best friend since they were five."I'm fine Edward or I will be when the shock wears out. How about you? How are you holding up?" I asked knowing the answer before he enven said it but you still needed the words to be said.

"Better than expected to tell you the truth, we'll talk later bye Love" He answered panicing that maybe I'd start a heart to heart wih him that was like on his top ten of wost things Bella can do list. "Bye Edward" I whispered as I hung up the phone my hands were shaking and I was trying so hard to hold back the tears if I allowed them to fall I didn't know when they would stop and I needed my control now so I could arrange everything before I left. I placed my hands over my face wondering how we got here to this point in our lives where we bearly knew each other anymore.

The three of us had met when they were eleven at summer camp the friendship with Adam had been instant He was so easy to talk to once you got over his shyness, he was an amazing person,
When we were eleven we would talk for hours about everything and anything,Adam was the best friend you always wished for but with Adam came Edward they'd been friends since birth so it was inevitable that I had to put up with Edward. Adam and I developed an effortless friendship over the years,

My friendship with Edward was the opposite, it took a different road sometimes it felt more like hatred than friendship but that's how it always was but there was no denying that there was nobody who knew me as well as he did and in times of trouble there would be none that I'd want by my side but him.

They had one fucked up friendships but it worked for them some way alone the journey of growing up Adam got left behind it was never intentional it just sort of happened,not that this best friend thing she had with Edward was all sunshine and roses either far from it it was at most times a living hell because they knew each other too well and would frequently call each other out on their bullshit which was the reason they were frequently at war.

I began to felt so guilty I stole his best friend, I stole his best friend all those years ago,yes we were all still friends but

Edward was the one I called at two o'clock in the morning when my life was going up in smoke and my grades suck just like I was his when he had his problems with school or he couldn't sleep or was wondering if he made the right choice to go into medicine or when he had his female issues and trust Edward had female issues regularly. How did we reach here and how was it that Adam was no longer referee to our insane relationship.
Adam was gone and I had not a clue as to why Adam would kill himself,there was a time when I knew everything about his life and now six years later I knew next to nothing.
The first tear trickle down my face as the shock wore off and the pain came to take it's place.

Adam was gone and I don't get to tell him all the things I should have like I loved him and he was always my rock the constant in my ever changing world but the words so many words was coming too late. I just never thought he needed the words,I always thought he knew how I felt.

I was crying now and no matter how much I tried to be in control of them I couldn't stop the tears so I just gave up trying.

I'd wallow for a min or two then go home and pack to go face the family. I was total not ready for this this hurt, this pain, this guilt I had failed him,I had failed to be there when he needed me and It was too late for sorry now way too late