I don't own Gossip Girl. English is not my native language, so I'm deeply sorry for any mistake.

Act One

You abuse the ones who love you
You abuse the ones who won't
If you ever had a real heart
I don't think you'd know where to start

Coming Down – Dum Dum Girls

"Are you sure about this?"

"Yes. It's the only way. Nobody gets harmed"

"Except you"

"It'll be alright. I'm Blair Waldorf, I can get trough this" she had to hold her tears and refused to look at him anymore.

"I know you don't want to hear this, but they deserve to know at least" he said trying to break some sense into her. He had already used that line for about ten times as he watched her pack.

"They can't never know. You promised Humphrey, and you'll keep it" she answered sharply "I swear you'll regret it if you dare opening your mouth"

Blair looked at her room and felt like crying all over again. Everything was packed and the only thing left that looked like her was her Marie Antoinette poster. She was only waiting for Louis to pick her up to make their way to the airport, and she couldn't help wearing a black dress in tune with her mood.

"I still think you're making a very big mistake" Dan protested once again "It's going to break their hearts"

"Serena has you" Dan wanted to say she really didn't but kept his mouth shut, knowing that subject was irrelevant at the moment "And Chuck... he... I'm sure he'll find someone to love and who loves him"

"And you're okay with that?" he couldn't help pushing it and feel desperation creeping on him as he felt time running our to convince her.

"Of course not" a lonely tear fell from her cheek "The thought of him loving and marrying someone else kills me. But it's a price I'm willing to pay as long as he's fine"

"You know this will probably send him to the edge" even if he didn't like Chuck that much, Dan knew how he would feel once he found out, because he was feeling the same heart break of watching her leave without turning back.

Blair froze but kept her voice steady "He's Chuck Bass. He'll get trough it. And... he's become such a wonderful person, I'm sure he'll find someone..." at this point she couldn't hold back her tears and Dan held her to his chest.

"Please don't leave" he begged into her temple and right then, the elevator dinged and Louis voice called. Blair stepped back and Dan felt dread and did the only thing he could do "I love you. And you have to know it if you're doing this, because Louis is not he only option if you can't be with Chuck. Blair, please. We could be..."

Her eyes widened. She shook her head and put a hand on his mouth to stop him"Thank you. But you have Serena. And you're my best friend and you have no idea how much everything you've done has meant to me. Louis doesn't love me, so it doesn't matter that I love Chuck. But to you it'll matter and I can't do that to you"

She hugged him tightly once more and with a small, sad smile walked out of the room and left him there with his chest painfully beating.

Chuck gulped down his third glass of scotch in the last ten minutes. Monkey nudged his leg with his head and Chuck leaned down slightly to pet him absentmindedly. He poured more scotch in the glass and moved to sit in the living room, taking the bottle with him. He sat on the couch and gulped the glass feeling his throat burn. Monkey climbed beside him and put his head on his master's lap. The elevator dinged, but Chuck didn't bother to look as he stared at a spot in the wall opposite him.

"Man it's not even midday and the bottle is half empty" he heard Nate's voice next to him.

"Never too early for scotch" he answered smugly and took a sip from the bottle.

"Chuck you can't keep this up. You've been locked in here for three days since you talked with Blair at the hotel" Nate sighed and tried to take the bottle from his friend, but he rapidly guarded it. "I'm serious Chuck"

"So am I"

"Serena and me are worried. For both of you" Nate tried once again. Silence reigned over the room for a while and Chuck kept freakishly still. He reacted when Monkey started licking his fingers and he scratched his ear in return. "Chuck, what happened?"

Chuck kept silent for a minute. He took and deep breath and without looking at Nate spoke "She shut me out. Again. She wouldn't even tell me why she called Dan for help. I tried everything to convince her, but she... she just walked away from me"

Nate couldn't help feeling kind of angry at Blair's attitude towards his best friend, for he was clueless at the change of heart of his ex-girlfriend. He had been there when she and Chuck had decided to run away together, and the look of utter devotion she gave to his friend didn't go unnoticed by him. He had been so sure at that time that finally Chuck would get the happy ending he desperately craved and deserved. "Chuck... haven't you thought about you know... date someone else?"

Chuck froze at this and then shot a furious look at Nate "No. I won't. She loves me Nathaniel, she told me herself. But she has this stupid belief that if she's with me I'm going to die or something. I just have to convince her otherwise"

The blond decided it was better not to ask "Look Chuck, I know, believe me I do, how much you love her. But you can keep on begging her to come back to you. There's so much a person can get rejected and this is breaking you down. You were so adamant before about letting go of Blair..."

"I'm not giving up. I know she's not happy. And I can't see her with anyone else, I don't care how much it costs to have her back with me" Nate tried to protest but Chuck kept on "I just want her to be happy. And I know I can make her happy, she told me as much before the accident. I let go because I thought I couldn't. Once I have her back I'm not ever letting her go and I'll spend the rest of my life making her as happy as she makes me"

"From where I stand she's only making you miserable"

Chuck was about to answer when both his phone and Nate's rang. He flipped it open and what he saw made his face go blanch. Nate looked too and the only thing he could think of was to grab his friend's arm as a sign of support.

Hello Upper East Siders. I know you've been dying to have some news about our runaway Mrs. Grimaldi after she was spotted trying to make a run for it at the airport with Lonely Boy. So after days of uncertainty about our newlyweds apparently wrecked relationship, our own Queen B was spotted again at the airport, this time in company of her charming prince. Leaving for the honeymoon trip? Perhaps, but judging by B's luggage she's not coming back anytime soon.

You know you love me, xoxo Gossip Girl

A photo of Blair and Louis getting into the plane was shown and another one showed luggage that seemed Blair's entire wardrobe on it.

"I have to..."

"No" Nate stopped him right when Chuck started getting up for leaving "She's made her choice. You have to move on Chuck, before you lose your mind. You know you won't be able to see her once she's in Monaco. She's a princess now Chuck" Chuck seemed to give up and sank down in the couch once again "I know it hurts. You're my best friend and believe me when I say it hurts me too to see you like this, but please, please be reasonable"

Monkey, as if sensing his master's grief, let out a long sad whine.

"You have one second to tell me why she left without telling me anything"

"Hello to you too Serena"

It had been only ten minutes since the blast and Serena had arrived knocking like a mad woman to Dan's loft. Dan was greeted by the sight of a disheveled and apparently desperate Serena.

"I don't have time for niceties and your sarcasm Dan!" Serena said entering the loft

Dan closed the door and turned around to look at the blond, who seemed about ready to hit him if she didn't get answers "I don't know"

"Like hell you don't!" Dan rolled his eyes "Tell me the truth. Now, Dan"

"I honestly don't know"

Serena lost it and yelled "This isn't a game Dan! This is about my best friend leaving without saying goodbye to anyone! The girl you supposedly love! She didn't tell me and the only person who could possibly know is you"

Dan gave up trying to convince Serena, he should know she was stubborn like hell "I can't. I promised"

"Dan this is serious!"

"Look, there's a reason she told me and not you, so please stop pestering me!" Dan asked rubbing his temples and trying not to lose his patience.

"She's my best friend Dan, and she didn't talk to me! And I can't believe you're actually being her accomplice when you know she's not in love with you!"

Dan lost it "Maybe, but there's a reason she relied on me and not you. And you know why? Because you only pay attention to whatever unlucky soul that looks at you! Maybe Blair realized what a crappy friend you are and that's why she didn't bother"

He immediately regretted it when Serena looked as if she had been slapped "I see. So that's you answer, I suppose."

"Serena, I..."

"Save it" without sparing him a look, she walked out of the loft and left him standing there trying to make out what had just happened.

It was about 3 am and Blair couldn't sleep.

She was at the princess quarters at Monaco's palace in a king sized bed and fluffy pillows, but every time she closed her eyes all she saw was Chuck's brokenhearted face when she, again, told him she would not be with him ever again. She also heard Louis' cruel words. Tears flowed down her face and took her cellphone from her nightstand. She hesitated but typed the number when Chuck's face once again went trough her head.

"Hello?"

"Hi. It's Blair"

"Blair? Why are you calling me? Is everything alright?"

"Everything's fine, Nate" Blair said trying to keep her voice steady

Nate's sigh of relief was heard trough the line "What's going on Blair? You just left! Do you have any idea of how worried we are? What Chuck is going trough?"

At the mention of Chuck, Blair's resolve started to crumble "I... I know. That's why I called. I need to ask you something"

"I don't know Blair. I really don't feel like making any favors to you" Nate said harshly and Blair knew she deserved it

"It's not for me exactly" Blair answered and her voice trembled "I want you to... I want you to promise me to take care of Chuck"

"You don't need to ask for that" Nate answered "What do you want?"

Blair took a deep breath and closed her eyes "I... please, just... make sure he moves on. Stop him from seeking me out. Help him find a nice girl who loves him, who..." she remembered Serena's words at the wedding "Who is not afraid to risk it all from him, no matter what"

"Because you couldn't?" Nate added cruelly. He knew he had stepped a line, but he couldn't help lashing out to her

"Yes. Because I can't" Blair gulped down a sob and Nate noticed even trough the phone and felt guilty

"Look Blair, you're one of my best friends. But... please don't call me again. I don't think I'd be able to keep from Chuck and it's going to break him even more" Blair's lip quivered at this "But I do promise you that I'll do what I can to help him move on. In return I want you to promise me something"

"Seems fair" she answered after a minute of silence

"If you ever come back to New York and he indeed has moved on, please leave him alone"

"No need to, I'm not going back" Blair retorted, but deep down his harsh words made her heart tighten.

"Just promise Blair. He deserves as much, since apparently a stupid pact is easier to keep true to than Chuck"

That ended the task of breaking her and she couldn't keep a sob, because deep down she knew it was truth. She was a coward and because of it the man she loved was miserable "I... I..."

Nate sighed "Whatever Blair, just don't call again please. And... take care"

He hunged up and Blair broke down for the first time since she had married Louis.

I reuploaded it because I think ffnet failed or something, so here it is again. I apologize once more for grammar or spelling mistakes. So this is what came to me after that awful wedding episode and what I saw at the promos. It'll have a happy ending, tough, because in my mind they deserve as much, but both (especially Blair) have a lot of making up to do. The next chapter will be three years in the future.

I hoped you like it, and even if you don't I hope you leave a review on your thoughts about this. Thank you!