Feelings Perfected
Author's Note: This is Dale. I have returned with a brand new fic fresh from the abyss I call an imagination. This is my third full length fic. Hope this is as successful as my previous ones. Due to the loss of her relative, I dedicate this chapter to Tek. Everyone else. Hope you enjoy.
Chapter 1- Love to Hate, Hate to Love
" Chris, I tell you no lie. Jill Valentine is coming back to Orlando, Flordia. Rebecca and Carlos told me." Chris heard barely. The annoying, whiny, and almost sweet voice of his little sister. This was not the first time he wondered why Leon would actually want to date her. He had no idea what Claire was capable of.
" Claire, Rebecca and Carlos don't count as valuable sources of information. I mean, come on. They can't even give directions." Claire slapped him on the arm.
" Stop acting like a smartass. Are you telling me you aren't the least bit excited Jill is moving back here?" Claire's questioning stare bore into his eyes. Feeling his arm begin to perspire Chris crossed his arms.
" Well, I'm happy she's moving back. It's been a long time. Why? Should I be?" Chris asked as if he didn't have the slightest idea. Claire groaned and sat on the chair across from him.
" Is this because of that situation you guys had when she told you....." Claire sighed but Chris cut her off, anger present in voice with a bit of sadness added. Claire immediately stopped and nodded. She knew that after that incident Chris was never the same again. Claire looked at him sadly.
" Chris, you can tell me. Why do you resent Jill for leaving? Was it something she said. Or did? It's been a whole year already. You can tell me."
" I honestly can't even tell you anymore Claire." Chris admitted weakly. He nodded his head down and looked back up to Claire with what looked like shame. Claire got up and gave him a sisterly hug and sat down next to him. She messed his hair up.
" It's all right. But you gotta let somebody know. Otherwise no one can help you. Now tell me what happened?" Chris sighed and turned off the far away voices coming from the t.v.
" You know I had the biggest crush on her right?" Claire smirked. This she knew. She remember how Chris would try so hard to hide it from everyone by being a total asshole from time to time. But somehow Jill could see through that.
" Yeah, you used to stare at that S.T.A.R.S partner picture you took for hours. Now tell me already?" Claire pouted getting irritated with his childish attitude towards the whole thing.
" Well, a few days before Jill left for Chicago, we had a long talk and sorted out our feelings to one another." Chris looked for a response from his sister. Claire looked at him agape and started to get pissed.
" You're like this because you and Jill admitted your feelings? What the hell is wrong with you?" Chris shook his head.
" It's a little more complicated than that Claire?" Claire chuckled.
" It always is."
" I slept with her." At that Chris blushed and Claire's grin turned into a full fledged O. She knew her brother was dense and didn't have much sense but damn to sleep with your best friend and then resent her something must have happened. For Chris everything just seemed to shut down at that moment. He remembered the moment perfectly. A little too perfectly. Claire's questioning brought him back to reality.
" Well, I must say brother, you sure do work fast. That still doesn't explain why you resent her?"
" Claire, she told me that she loved me but didn't want to be with me because she said we wouldn't work out. That's why she went to Chicago. To start a new life.Without anything or anyone tying her down. She wanted to tell me how she felt before she left" At that Chris stared at Claire who was speechless.
" Jill really did that. But why? I thought she was happy with the way things were? I thought she was happy with you." Chris looked up at her ruefully.
" Well, life's a bitch Claire." Claire sighed and ran a hand through her hair similar to what Chris does.
" I still don't know why or when I fell in love with her. All I know is that I am. But Claire I can't even look at another female and not feel somewhat guilty to Jill. I mean, I was just so used to her. Not like I'm used to you are Becca but used to her being with me. I miss it." Chris ended sadly.
" Well, I'm glad you finally told me Chris. I'm so sorry. I didn't know. But you do realize what we're going to have to do right?" Chris shook his head mockingly.
" We've got to make the best of the situation between us." Claire slapped him in the back of the head. This was serious.
" No, you ass, we're going to get you two on lover's terms again. If she loves you like she told you then she should be worth trying to reconcile, if not then I'm going to kick you in the nuts every night until I see you with a real girlfriend. Not a girl from the gentlemen's club." Chris laughed for the first time sincerely.
" You definitely take after mom. Dad was too much of a do it yourself kinda guy." Claire nodded.
" And you're just like him. Always wanted to do something yourself. Well, you may get that opportunity." Chris' head poked up.
" What do you mean by that?" Claire got up quickly and ran to the other side of the room.
" I'm moving in with Leon." Chris shot a blank glance at her before registering what she just said.
" No, I object!" Chris yelled as he chased Claire across the living room and throughout the house. Claire giggled as she shut her bedroom door in his face and shouted through it.
" Objection denied Chris!" Chris leaned against the wall in frustration but a little bit of hope was there as he grinned. Maybe Claire was right, maybe he could work things out with Jill. Of course they had parted on a pretty sour note.
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" Isn't it ironic that the others all had to do something, leaving the two of us alone?" Jill queried as she and Chris stood suggestively close to each other. Chris rolled his eyes and rested his forehead on Jill's.
" Little do they know we're already together." At that Jill sighed and rose her saddened eyes to meet his. Chris looked at her curiously and stood back.
" What's wrong?" He asked. He didn't like were this conversation was going. One minute he and Jill are practically embracing next minute she's about ready to cry. Adrenaline started pumping as Chris started to become worried with thoughts.
" Is this about us?" Jill nodded sadly.
" I should tell you the real reason why I'm going to Chicago." Chris heart began to drop.
" You're not going just to visit your family are you?" What the hell was going on? So many thoughts were running through his head he feared he was going paranoid. Just what was Jill trying to get at.
" Chris, we both love each other. We know that. But I've spent about 3 years and some months thinking. Thinking about my life and all. Umbrella is our past. My past. I want to look to my future. But....." Jill cut herself short as she noticed the sadness engulf her beau's eyes. She never wanted to cause him and sadness or pain. Oh how she wanted to save him like he had done for her so many times.
" But what?" Chris offered still in shock from her revelation. Tears started to run a small stream down Jill's face.
" But.. I have to get away from this Chris. There's so much I've missed because of Umbrella. So much to do. I wanna see things. I wanna grow. And the only way I could ever grow and see what's out there is to do this without anything holding me back. No. Without anything tying me down. Chris, I'm not coming back. I may one day but as of now I don't know what I'm going to do." Chris started to get angry at this point.
" So, when were you going to tell me this Jill?! After you found the life you're searching for. Some guy that could offer more than I could. Someone who wasn't connected with your past. That's bullshit Jill and you know it!!" Jill shot daggers at him but couldn't hide her hurt expression.
" You don't think this hurts me?! I want to be with you damn it. But this is something I want to do. Something I need to do." Chris walked up to her and softened his expression.
" Then let me be apart of it?" Jill just shook her head.
" Maybe one day. Just not now. Please Chris, you have to understand." Jill put her arms around him and sobbed into his chest. Chris stood motionless.
" What if is the last time I ever see you Jill? I couldn't live with that." Jill looked up at him.
" I'm going to make sure it isn't. Chris no matter what happens from this day on. No matter what comes between us I will always love you. Always."
" Don't leave Jill. Don't go." Chris pleaded to her with watered eyes. Jill had to use everything in her power not to take his offer.
" I have to." With that Jill gave him one last kiss. Chris returned it sadly as he hugged her with what he thought was the last time. His Jill was walking out of his life. To start hers over. And she didn't want him in it. After sending each other one last look, Jill departed and stepped aboard the plane. After watching the takeoff, Chris didn't smile, he didn't cry, he didn't even question why, he simply threw away his hopes and walked away.
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Claire opened back up her room door to see Chris passed out on the wall.. She smiled. No matter how strange her brother was she loved him with all of her heart. She was about to wake him up until she saw the smile on his face as he slept. Claire blinked once again before grabbing a blanket from his room and placing it on him. She wasn't going to wake him up. Whatever he was dreaming about it was something good. For once she could rest easy knowing her brother was on the way to being the Chris she remembered growing up. So no, she wouldn't wake him. She'd let him sleep.
Author's Note: Well, that's it for the first chapter. How was it? I'm anxious to get some reviews from this one. I'm a L/C fan all the way but I have to admit C/J have grown on me. So let me know how you like it? I will supply what you demand. Until next time.
Author's Note: This is Dale. I have returned with a brand new fic fresh from the abyss I call an imagination. This is my third full length fic. Hope this is as successful as my previous ones. Due to the loss of her relative, I dedicate this chapter to Tek. Everyone else. Hope you enjoy.
Chapter 1- Love to Hate, Hate to Love
" Chris, I tell you no lie. Jill Valentine is coming back to Orlando, Flordia. Rebecca and Carlos told me." Chris heard barely. The annoying, whiny, and almost sweet voice of his little sister. This was not the first time he wondered why Leon would actually want to date her. He had no idea what Claire was capable of.
" Claire, Rebecca and Carlos don't count as valuable sources of information. I mean, come on. They can't even give directions." Claire slapped him on the arm.
" Stop acting like a smartass. Are you telling me you aren't the least bit excited Jill is moving back here?" Claire's questioning stare bore into his eyes. Feeling his arm begin to perspire Chris crossed his arms.
" Well, I'm happy she's moving back. It's been a long time. Why? Should I be?" Chris asked as if he didn't have the slightest idea. Claire groaned and sat on the chair across from him.
" Is this because of that situation you guys had when she told you....." Claire sighed but Chris cut her off, anger present in voice with a bit of sadness added. Claire immediately stopped and nodded. She knew that after that incident Chris was never the same again. Claire looked at him sadly.
" Chris, you can tell me. Why do you resent Jill for leaving? Was it something she said. Or did? It's been a whole year already. You can tell me."
" I honestly can't even tell you anymore Claire." Chris admitted weakly. He nodded his head down and looked back up to Claire with what looked like shame. Claire got up and gave him a sisterly hug and sat down next to him. She messed his hair up.
" It's all right. But you gotta let somebody know. Otherwise no one can help you. Now tell me what happened?" Chris sighed and turned off the far away voices coming from the t.v.
" You know I had the biggest crush on her right?" Claire smirked. This she knew. She remember how Chris would try so hard to hide it from everyone by being a total asshole from time to time. But somehow Jill could see through that.
" Yeah, you used to stare at that S.T.A.R.S partner picture you took for hours. Now tell me already?" Claire pouted getting irritated with his childish attitude towards the whole thing.
" Well, a few days before Jill left for Chicago, we had a long talk and sorted out our feelings to one another." Chris looked for a response from his sister. Claire looked at him agape and started to get pissed.
" You're like this because you and Jill admitted your feelings? What the hell is wrong with you?" Chris shook his head.
" It's a little more complicated than that Claire?" Claire chuckled.
" It always is."
" I slept with her." At that Chris blushed and Claire's grin turned into a full fledged O. She knew her brother was dense and didn't have much sense but damn to sleep with your best friend and then resent her something must have happened. For Chris everything just seemed to shut down at that moment. He remembered the moment perfectly. A little too perfectly. Claire's questioning brought him back to reality.
" Well, I must say brother, you sure do work fast. That still doesn't explain why you resent her?"
" Claire, she told me that she loved me but didn't want to be with me because she said we wouldn't work out. That's why she went to Chicago. To start a new life.Without anything or anyone tying her down. She wanted to tell me how she felt before she left" At that Chris stared at Claire who was speechless.
" Jill really did that. But why? I thought she was happy with the way things were? I thought she was happy with you." Chris looked up at her ruefully.
" Well, life's a bitch Claire." Claire sighed and ran a hand through her hair similar to what Chris does.
" I still don't know why or when I fell in love with her. All I know is that I am. But Claire I can't even look at another female and not feel somewhat guilty to Jill. I mean, I was just so used to her. Not like I'm used to you are Becca but used to her being with me. I miss it." Chris ended sadly.
" Well, I'm glad you finally told me Chris. I'm so sorry. I didn't know. But you do realize what we're going to have to do right?" Chris shook his head mockingly.
" We've got to make the best of the situation between us." Claire slapped him in the back of the head. This was serious.
" No, you ass, we're going to get you two on lover's terms again. If she loves you like she told you then she should be worth trying to reconcile, if not then I'm going to kick you in the nuts every night until I see you with a real girlfriend. Not a girl from the gentlemen's club." Chris laughed for the first time sincerely.
" You definitely take after mom. Dad was too much of a do it yourself kinda guy." Claire nodded.
" And you're just like him. Always wanted to do something yourself. Well, you may get that opportunity." Chris' head poked up.
" What do you mean by that?" Claire got up quickly and ran to the other side of the room.
" I'm moving in with Leon." Chris shot a blank glance at her before registering what she just said.
" No, I object!" Chris yelled as he chased Claire across the living room and throughout the house. Claire giggled as she shut her bedroom door in his face and shouted through it.
" Objection denied Chris!" Chris leaned against the wall in frustration but a little bit of hope was there as he grinned. Maybe Claire was right, maybe he could work things out with Jill. Of course they had parted on a pretty sour note.
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" Isn't it ironic that the others all had to do something, leaving the two of us alone?" Jill queried as she and Chris stood suggestively close to each other. Chris rolled his eyes and rested his forehead on Jill's.
" Little do they know we're already together." At that Jill sighed and rose her saddened eyes to meet his. Chris looked at her curiously and stood back.
" What's wrong?" He asked. He didn't like were this conversation was going. One minute he and Jill are practically embracing next minute she's about ready to cry. Adrenaline started pumping as Chris started to become worried with thoughts.
" Is this about us?" Jill nodded sadly.
" I should tell you the real reason why I'm going to Chicago." Chris heart began to drop.
" You're not going just to visit your family are you?" What the hell was going on? So many thoughts were running through his head he feared he was going paranoid. Just what was Jill trying to get at.
" Chris, we both love each other. We know that. But I've spent about 3 years and some months thinking. Thinking about my life and all. Umbrella is our past. My past. I want to look to my future. But....." Jill cut herself short as she noticed the sadness engulf her beau's eyes. She never wanted to cause him and sadness or pain. Oh how she wanted to save him like he had done for her so many times.
" But what?" Chris offered still in shock from her revelation. Tears started to run a small stream down Jill's face.
" But.. I have to get away from this Chris. There's so much I've missed because of Umbrella. So much to do. I wanna see things. I wanna grow. And the only way I could ever grow and see what's out there is to do this without anything holding me back. No. Without anything tying me down. Chris, I'm not coming back. I may one day but as of now I don't know what I'm going to do." Chris started to get angry at this point.
" So, when were you going to tell me this Jill?! After you found the life you're searching for. Some guy that could offer more than I could. Someone who wasn't connected with your past. That's bullshit Jill and you know it!!" Jill shot daggers at him but couldn't hide her hurt expression.
" You don't think this hurts me?! I want to be with you damn it. But this is something I want to do. Something I need to do." Chris walked up to her and softened his expression.
" Then let me be apart of it?" Jill just shook her head.
" Maybe one day. Just not now. Please Chris, you have to understand." Jill put her arms around him and sobbed into his chest. Chris stood motionless.
" What if is the last time I ever see you Jill? I couldn't live with that." Jill looked up at him.
" I'm going to make sure it isn't. Chris no matter what happens from this day on. No matter what comes between us I will always love you. Always."
" Don't leave Jill. Don't go." Chris pleaded to her with watered eyes. Jill had to use everything in her power not to take his offer.
" I have to." With that Jill gave him one last kiss. Chris returned it sadly as he hugged her with what he thought was the last time. His Jill was walking out of his life. To start hers over. And she didn't want him in it. After sending each other one last look, Jill departed and stepped aboard the plane. After watching the takeoff, Chris didn't smile, he didn't cry, he didn't even question why, he simply threw away his hopes and walked away.
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Claire opened back up her room door to see Chris passed out on the wall.. She smiled. No matter how strange her brother was she loved him with all of her heart. She was about to wake him up until she saw the smile on his face as he slept. Claire blinked once again before grabbing a blanket from his room and placing it on him. She wasn't going to wake him up. Whatever he was dreaming about it was something good. For once she could rest easy knowing her brother was on the way to being the Chris she remembered growing up. So no, she wouldn't wake him. She'd let him sleep.
Author's Note: Well, that's it for the first chapter. How was it? I'm anxious to get some reviews from this one. I'm a L/C fan all the way but I have to admit C/J have grown on me. So let me know how you like it? I will supply what you demand. Until next time.