Heyo Fam! I'm going to be doing a collection of song fanfictions because music and writing are like my favorite things in the world (other than food and rats of course) and I have a really fun time writing them. I don't own the fandoms or the songs.
The first song I'm using is After All These Years by Camila Cabello. She isn't really my favorite artist, but I thought this song would work well for Anisoka. (I know it was only one year that they didn't see each other, but whatever.) Enjoy!
Your hair's grown a little longer
Anakin walked out of the ship onto Mandalore's soil right in front of me. It had only been a year but it seemed like everything, including his appearance had changed. His longer hair gave him this kind of worn out look that matched the mood I sensed from him.
Your arms look a little stronger
"Hey," Anakin said, his voice empty and sad. "Hey." I said back, giving him a small smile. I looked down at the fist he was clenching at his side.
Your eyes just as I remember
I looked back up and gazed into his blue eyes, comforted by how familiar they were. At least one thing stayed the same. "It's felt like forever." I mused, watching as he slowly approached me.
Your smile's just a little softer
He gave me a gentle smile. I wasn't really sure what to say to him. What was there to say after walking down those Temple steps? "You look great." I sighed.
He nodded in thanks. "You do too."
And I, I never prepared for a moment like that
I stared at him for a second, in shock that he was actually right in front of me again. He was there. Anakin Skywalker was there, right in front of me for the first time since...
For a second it all came back
I thought back to a year ago when I had closed his hand around my Padawan braid. "I'm sorry, Master. But I'm not coming back..." The painful words echoed in my brain over and over again as if to torment me for leaving him.
It all came back
"I know." I had said sadly, before walking away from him for what I thought would be forever. What kind of last words to him were those?
Cause after all these years
I snapped back to reality, holding back tears. "Ahsoka I've been so worried about you." Anakin said, looking at me with the same pained expression that I saw when I left.
"I've been worried about you too." I muttered. I wanted to throw my arms around him so bad, but how could I? He wouldn't want that after what I did.
I still feel everything when you are near
I shifted my weight between my feet nervously. We were both so quiet now, just staring at each other and letting our memories cast over us. I couldn't take my eyes off him. I missed the days that we used to be lovers. I sighed, knowing those days were over.
And it was just a quick hello
"Well, the clones will be arriving shortly." Anakin said, looking down at his feet. I hated this. Why couldn't we just act normal? Why could put we ack like the dorks we always were?
And you had to go
"And then you'll have to be on your way..." I said, my voice barely above a whisper. I felt my heart snapping at the very thought of losing him again. "Yeah. I guess so." He whispered. I saw tears welling up in his eyes.
And you probably will never know
I had to tell him that I still had feelings for him. But I couldn't ruin things right when he was about to say goodbye.
You're still the one I'm after all these years
"Anakin, I-" I was interrupted by the sound of Anakin's comlink. "I'm sorry. This is probably Rex." Anakin said, walking back to his ship to take the call.
Couldn't help but overhear you
But it wasn't Rex. Togrutans have better hearing than other species and I could hear perfectly fine that it was Senator Almidala.
It sounds like you're happy with her
"Hey, Ani." She said sweetly over the comlink.
"Babe, this isn't really the time."
"Sorry. I was just calling to say I love you."
My heart sank.
"I love you too Padmè, bye."
So he was with the senator now?
But does she kiss you like I kissed you
Anakin walked back to me as jealousy ate at my heart. "Sorry about that, Snips." He muttered. Snips. I missed that nickname so much. I thought back to our first kiss. "I love you, Snips." He had murmured while briefly breaking our embrace. Did he have a nickname for her too?
Ooh, I wish I loved you like I miss you
I guess I didn't deserve his love anymore. I left and Padmè didn't. But I missed him so much! If only he knew that.
And I, I never prepared for a moment like that
"Anyways, I just wanted to tell you how proud of you I am."
I smiled a bit, letting a tear roll down my cheek. "Why would you be proud?"
He bit his lip. "You've done so much. You proved your innocence, you took care of yourself when I was gone, you've just made it so far."
Yeah in a second it all came back
"Maybe, but I still left my home. I left you. That doesn't deserve your pride."
Anakin furrowed his eyebrows.
It all came back
"What you did really hurt me."
I nodded in shame and looked down at my boots.
"I didn't agree with your decision. I was so sad and angry. I couldn't understand why you would do that to me after all I did for you."
I let more tears fall down my cheeks. That's how he felt about me. I was right.
Cause after all these years
"But now I forgive you."
I looked up. "What?"
He nodded as a single tear slid down his face. "I understand now that it was what you had to do."
I still feel everything when you are near
I didn't expect what came next. He held his arms out and wrapped them around my waist as tight as he could. I returned his loving embrace.
And it was just a quick hello
I heard the gunships landing behind us. I didn't want to let him go.
And you had to go
He slightly squeezed his arms around me before letting go. "I-" He let out a sob. "I have to go now."
I pursed my lips tightly to keep from crying even harder and nodded. "I guess so."
And you probably will never know
He started to walk away.
"Wait! Anakin!"
He turned around. "Here it goes."
I muttered. "Anakin I still lo-"
You're still the one I'm after all these years
"Oh right! You still need your lightsabers!" He interrupted, unclipping them from his belt and tossing them to me. I caught them and cried a little harder. I was going to say love you.
"Don't ask why the lightsabers are blue." Anakin said, turning back around.
That made no sense.
He started walking up the ramp of his shuttle.
I never told you, I should have told you
"I hope we will see each other again!" I shouted after him. He turned back again and smiled.
I never told you after all these years
"I have a feeling we will." He shouted back.
This was my chance. I needed to tell him whether he was with Padmè now or not.
I never told you after all these years
I opened my mouth to scream, "I still love you!" When the ramp raised up and closed shut. His ship took off, leaving me with a few gunships of troops and a broken heart.
:) Hope u liked it, guys!