AN; this flew out of my ass, hope you like it
The song is The Places You Have Come To Fear The Most by Dashboard Confessionals
AN2: //song lyrics//
Disclaimer- I own nothing
This is what I see going on in Spike's head after Buffy tells him that she was in heaven.
I see you slayer. I know you. You and your Scooby gang don't think that I could possibly understand, but I do. You walk around every day, every night-like a ghost. You wake up, make nice with your little friends. Then when night falls, you come out here, and slay. But there is nothing behind those beautiful dark eyes of yours-not anymore. I remember how you used to be. Full of life, of love, of energy. You walk around, looking so beautiful with your golden hair. Your perfect body. You walk around; people look at you-dream about making love to you. But they have no idea what you really are. They have no idea of the strength that lies within you, and the pain that fills your heart.
//Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,
and covered with a perfect shell,
such a charming beautiful exterior.//
Fighting you was a pleasure, because you always fought back-with everything in you. And you still do, except now, there is nothing there. You're empty. Your eyes are dead. Watching you slay my kind-I feel pity. Pity because I know what you are going through. I too know how it feels. To walk around and know that you are not supposed to be there. You put on a brave face; I'll give you that. But all the smiles and quick comebacks can't hide what you're really feeling. That you hate them, for loving you so much.
//This is one time
that you can't fake it hard enough to please everyone or anyone at all.
And the grave that you refuse to leave
the refuge that you've built to flee
the places you have come to fear the most.//
It's funny, me, a vampire, feeling pity for his slayer. You are you know- my slayer. From the day that I met you, from the first time that we ever fought, I knew that you were different from all the other's I've met. I just didn't know how different. You changed my life you know. You are the biggest challenge that I have ever faced. Not only because you kicked my ass almost every time we fought, but because you made me care.
//Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,
and hidden in the public eye.
Such a stellar monument to loneliness.
Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes
and perfect makeup but you're barely scraping by.//
You didn't let me die all those times, so I'm going to do something for you. I'll keep your secret. I won't tell your friends what they did to you. I'll do anything you want; just don't ask me to one thing. Don't ask me to kill you. Because I can no longer imagine living in a world where I was responcible for your death.
//This is one time
that you can't fake it hard enough to please everyone or anyone at all.
And the grave that you refuse to leave
the refuge that you've built to flee
the places you have come to fear the most.//
The song is The Places You Have Come To Fear The Most by Dashboard Confessionals
AN2: //song lyrics//
Disclaimer- I own nothing
This is what I see going on in Spike's head after Buffy tells him that she was in heaven.
I see you slayer. I know you. You and your Scooby gang don't think that I could possibly understand, but I do. You walk around every day, every night-like a ghost. You wake up, make nice with your little friends. Then when night falls, you come out here, and slay. But there is nothing behind those beautiful dark eyes of yours-not anymore. I remember how you used to be. Full of life, of love, of energy. You walk around, looking so beautiful with your golden hair. Your perfect body. You walk around; people look at you-dream about making love to you. But they have no idea what you really are. They have no idea of the strength that lies within you, and the pain that fills your heart.
//Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,
and covered with a perfect shell,
such a charming beautiful exterior.//
Fighting you was a pleasure, because you always fought back-with everything in you. And you still do, except now, there is nothing there. You're empty. Your eyes are dead. Watching you slay my kind-I feel pity. Pity because I know what you are going through. I too know how it feels. To walk around and know that you are not supposed to be there. You put on a brave face; I'll give you that. But all the smiles and quick comebacks can't hide what you're really feeling. That you hate them, for loving you so much.
//This is one time
that you can't fake it hard enough to please everyone or anyone at all.
And the grave that you refuse to leave
the refuge that you've built to flee
the places you have come to fear the most.//
It's funny, me, a vampire, feeling pity for his slayer. You are you know- my slayer. From the day that I met you, from the first time that we ever fought, I knew that you were different from all the other's I've met. I just didn't know how different. You changed my life you know. You are the biggest challenge that I have ever faced. Not only because you kicked my ass almost every time we fought, but because you made me care.
//Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,
and hidden in the public eye.
Such a stellar monument to loneliness.
Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes
and perfect makeup but you're barely scraping by.//
You didn't let me die all those times, so I'm going to do something for you. I'll keep your secret. I won't tell your friends what they did to you. I'll do anything you want; just don't ask me to one thing. Don't ask me to kill you. Because I can no longer imagine living in a world where I was responcible for your death.
//This is one time
that you can't fake it hard enough to please everyone or anyone at all.
And the grave that you refuse to leave
the refuge that you've built to flee
the places you have come to fear the most.//