AN: Hey, sorry I haven't posted anything I promised. You know how the world is: Unfair and bitchy. Welp... This fic started with my obsession with the song It's Your Life by Francesca Battistelli. It was featured in the final episode of Jon and Kate plus 8, the final episode with them as a couple. I never liked Jon and Kate, I just thought Aiden was mother fucking adorable. This fic is 100% Canon. Most of my writing is usually AU but this time, I thought (because Dee decided for me) that it should be canon. Which makes sense. I got the idea of this format from Brittney; who is writing a Fiona Diary style story. Anyways, I'm going to watch Accepted and laugh at Jonah Hill scream like a little girl then go to bed. Enjoy my newest addition to the Kelsey Innocent Story Book.
DISCLAIMER: [I ALMOST forgot this! :O ] I do not own Degrassi or anything related to it. I do not own the song It's Your Life by Francesca Battistelli. I wish I was that rich though.
Summz: Holly J. Sinclair needs a journal too. Rated T for later.
It's your life
A Holly J. Sinclair Journal.
It's your life, what you gonna do?
The world is watching you.
Every day, the choices you make say what you are
And who your heart beats for
It's an open door. It's your life.
Yale. I got in. This was going to be tough. Money's tight still, we just moved into our new apartment. The place is smaller then the house I grew up in. I honestly didn't think my bed would fit in the room they gave me. Heather told me to suck it up and we'd be back on our feet in no time. But how was I suppose to get to Yale if we didn't have the money?
Don't get me wrong, I know that this is all a long shot, but you have to understand that getting in alone was a long shot. I can't reject them.That would be a kick in the face.
As Vice President of Degrassi Comminuty School, my peers are depending on me to succeed and make it to Yale. Then they'll all expect me to succeed at Yale. It's like they're all watching my every move, watching, waiting for me to fuck it up. Like when Sav and I broke up... Or, I guess when I dumped Sav... They all stared at me for days, just waiting for something big to happen. Someone asked me if I was going to go out with Fiona, and if that was why I broke it off with Sav.
Fiona is beautiful, and I love her, but only as a friend. She's one of my best friends. Of course, I have thought about what it would be like if I was into her too, but I'm not. When I think of my future, I think of someone like Declan, but not Declan, not anymore. Don't get me wrong on this either, Declan is great and everything, he just doesn't hold my future.
The point is, there's choices out there. The most important choice being make everyone happy, or make myself happy. To make everyone else happy, I would have to settle for a school here, date some nobody who doesn't have a future like mine and pretend. Or I can work really hard for Yale and find someone who has a successful future like my own.
Does it matter to the outside world what it is I end up choosing? Either way, someone isn't going to be happy. It's my life, and it's my life choices. Whether I choose Yale or U of T, my heart is beating for me. What does that make me? The HBIC? Or just a regular person trying to get somewhere in the world?
It makes me, me.. Holly J. Sinclair. Little sister of Heather Sinclair who ruled the halls of Degrassi for years.
Watch and Learn Degrassians. Holly J. Sinclair isn't holding back. Not now, not ever.
AN: I hope you liked it. It didn't take long, or a lot of thinking. I just started writing. I don't think anything has come so easily to write before. me some reviews, or just love notes. The next chapter will be posted in no time xoxo.