Yes, Risa tried once more to make a decent fanfic. Well, this is more of a drabble (I belive that's what it's called) then a fic of course. It was very random. I was trying to draw a comic on Kurofai (Didn't work out, my humans suck!) and this came from that. It wouldn't leave me alone so I said HEH! and wrote it x33
Disclaimer;; If I were clamp would I really be writting a drabble on what I /think/ are Kurogane's thoughts? No! I don't think so!!
His smiles are just damn masks to hide his pain. Big, fake, plastic masks that I try again and again to break through. His happiness is just the thin layer of his mask, of his smiles. He thinks he can fool everyone just by smiling. He's wrong. The pain is visible through the thin mask. Not a neon sign but not invisble either. It's there, it's visible and it hurts me that he tries to hide it.
Does he know I can see through his mask as if it were glass? Does he realize his mask is breaking, shatering like a mirror I had punched through? I don't care if I recive bad luck as I step on the peices so he can't pick them up and recreate his mask. Does he realize he creates more sadness and pain the more he tries to cover it up?
Does he know I can hear him cry at night when he thinks I asleep? Does he see how desperatly I want to go over there, to comfort him from what ever makes him cry? His sobs break my heart, rip me from the inside that I can't even recognize myself any longer. I was once a fearless ninja, now I wanted to hug a cry baby mage at night to comfort him. Does he know how much he affects me?
Does he know that his true, genuine smile can make me forget about even her, Princess Tomoyo? The same princess I had sworn to protect, the same one who was just like a little sister to me. My sister, my provider and my savior. He makes me forget her, forget all that with just a flash of his real smile. Does he know the power he has over me?
Does he realize that all I want to do is protect him from everything, including himself? Does he realize how much I want to...have to...need to protect him, fight for him more then the kids or even Tomoyo-hime? Does he know how much he hurts me when he talks about death? His death; it's my nightmare, a shadow that haunts me every world as I try again and again to save him from the dangers. Does he know that he'll always have me by his side, no matter what his stupid past is?
Does he realize, no matter how much he and I try to fight it, how desperatly I have fallen in love with him?
Like I said, random drabble. Did you know a kitten dies every minute? If you review you...well you don't save that poor little kitti now do you? Well, you save a newbie from starvation so PLEASE review. And if you want to save a poor kitti-kat, the SPCA is a greeeat place to start, or, in the famous words of Bob Barker, spay and neuter your animals! THOSE POOR KITTIES!! DXX!! Thank you and have a good night!! (Don't worry, no Kittens were harmed in the making of this fic.)