Author: Jaid Ziaen
Rating: G
Summary: Kyp Durron thinks about the blow up that he had with Jaina Solo.
Disclaimer: The song is "Nobody Knows" by Kevin Sharp; everything else is GL's. 'Sept for the plot. I'm not making any money off of this. I hope.
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No OneI pretend that I'm glad you went away
But these four walls close in more every day
He paced the floor.
She was gone.
He knew the words that they had parted on should have made it easier for him but they didn't.
He knew everyone thought he would be happy she was gone.
How he wished it were the case.
And I'm dyin inside
And nobody knows it but me
He ran his long fingers through his jet black hair. His dark green eyes filled with pain and he dragged his hands back down his face. Oh FORCE how he missed her!
She was his soul, his light, reason, his everything.
Without her…
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
He didn't have to tell anyone. He didn't even know of anyone that he could tell. He knew it was his fault.
He knew it.
Every time he acted like he could care less if she had left, it felt like a lightsaber - hers - cut a little bit more from his heart.
And I'm cryin inside
And nobody knows it but me
He choked back the screams of pain, the tears of regret. The tears of loss, of emptiness, of… the emotion ran to deep for words.
Why didn't I say - the things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
He pounded his fists into the wall, it was his fault!
He sank to the floor.
He should have been able to be what she needed.
But he hadn't been able to.
He couldn't.
She was gone.
His fault.
Now my world is just a - tumblin down
I can see it so clearly, but you're nowhere around
Everywhere he looked. Everything he did.
She filled this place; nothing was untouched by her.
He saw it all.
Without her…
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinkin about the love that we had
He remembered all the times they talked.
Of the plans they made.
All the dreams they'd confided…
And I'm missin you
And nobody knows it but me
He knew that she didn't know.
Nobody knew.
Their bond lay dormant.
There was no one else he was close to.
How blue can I get - you can ask my heart
Just like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
His life was dull.
All color, all vibrancy, all brilliance, had left.
His hopes… dead.
His heart had torn as they had parted.
Every second away from her tore it a little more.
Now it was shattered in pieces beyond counting… he didn't even bother deluding himself that it could be put back the way it was.
It could never be.
A million words couldn't say - just how I feel
A million years from now you know - I'll be lovin you still
Nothing he could say would help.
Nothing he could do would change anything,
He'd love her.
Forever.
The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
And I just keep thinking about the love that we had
He finally turned slowly and entered the refresher and washed his face.
Another day stretched ahead of him.
Another day without her.
And I'm missin you
And nobody knows it but me
He opened the door and stepped out, his face set.
No one would know.
No one could know.
No one.