Have you ever wondered who would be your first love? Kiss? Or the person you would spend the rest of your life with? I have. I've always dreamed that I would fall in love with my Prince Charming, and without knowing, he would one day sweep me off my feet and take me to his enchanted kingdom. But as you can tell that doesn't really happen in reality. In reality you girl meets guy, girl and guy goes out, guy proposes, girl and guy have a family and live happily ever after. Ok 5% chance that your life could be a fairytale. But for me... it wasn't, it never has been and my guess is, it never will be. You see I believe I have the WORST luck out of the whole entire world. It's true, there was one time when I was 7 when I went to visit my brother, Bill, in Egypt, I was in a pyramid with my family and I guess I got side tracked by some of the markings on the wall, and I started to follow them and see where it led. I was so into the markings that I went deeper and deeper into the pyramid and I got lost, my family left me and I never noticed...they never noticed. They closed the pyramid and since it was a holiday, I was trapped in the Pyramid for 3 days, without food or water. When my family finally realized they forgot me, and went back, it was closed and when they finally found me I had fainted from dehydration and hunger. Then there was the chamber of secrets. I was in my second year at Hogwarts and a diary, once owned by Tom Riddle, or today known as Voldemort, possessed me. I was so naïve then, I wasn't strong as I am now. I didn't know from right from wrong... I never guessed that my life could be this cursed but it is! My story isn't a folktale, my story isn't legend, my story isn't as adventurous as the famous Harry Potter, my story never really had an ending, but my story is worth telling.
My story begins when I was 16 years old, it was towards the end of summer and I was about to enter my 6th year at Hogwarts. Like ever other summer, I sat at home cleaning, reading, and finishing up my essays. My brother, Ron, was invited to Parvarti Patil's 17 birthdays party bash, and my mom made him take me, since all summer I've been doing nothing. So he did, he took me and once we arrived at the front door, he told me, "Don't bother me unless it's an emergency!" I nodded my head, I know he sounded mean, but I knew he still loved me, or so I thought so. When Parvarti opened the door and welcomed us, Ron gave me the signal to go away. SO I did, I thought I'd just go and sit down the whole night and wait till the party's over, if I even could find a seat. I remember loads of people came and it took 10 minutes just to get to one spot. I was trying to squeeze through these two people who were dancing and one of them pushed me because I was in the way. They pushed me so hard I fell to the ground and banged my head. I crawled backwards with my hands and when I hit the wall, I laid my head against it.
2 hours later
My head started to pound from the fall that I had taken, and not only that, but from the smoke and loud music inside the house. I could have sworn it was more of a rave than a party. I decided to go outside for some fresh air, but when I went outside, I didn't expect to see him. I was so sure I was over him, but somewhere in my gut knew I loved him. That's right my childhood crush, none other than the famous Harry Potter. I was right outside the door and I knew I could have gone back inside, but I couldn't breathe in that hellhole. When I looked closer I saw that he wasn't alone. He was sitting with someone on the fountain, laughing at a joke. I looked closer to see that it was the Ravenclaw seeker, or used to be now that she graduated from Hogwarts, Cho Chang. It was stupidest decision that I could have made, I decided to walk past them and see if he would say something to me, or even realized I walked by. So I did. I walked past him, and trust me making that decision caused a lot of events to happen, whenever there is a cause, there's always an effect.
I was surprised he did say something, I tried really hard not to look at him and Cho, but his face was just so happy, it was happiest I have ever seen him.
"Hey Gin!" I turned around, praying I wouldn't make a fool of myself.
"Harry! HI!" I put on a big grin as I looked at his handsome face. My eyes traveled to Cho and I swallowed hard, "Hi...Cho."
"Hey Ginny." She smiled happily. I couldn't help notice that Harry had his arm around her and she had her arm around his waist, as she leaned against his chest. Don't I wish that were I in her place.
I could hear the music from inside the house, as we stood silent. Harry whispered something into Cho's ear and she nodded and took her hands off him and walked away, he watched her go and at that moment I knew he was in love with Cho Chang. When she finally disappeared he looked at me.
"Hey look Gin, can you do me a favor?" he asked. I eyed him suspiciously, knowing I was going to regret what I was about to say.
"Well it depends, what is it?" I asked.
"Well..." he said nervously, "could you meet me at 'The Dragon Inn' at 10, its only a block away from here, and I wanted to ask you something." It felt like someone just shocked me as I widened my eyes.
"Uh...yeah sure!" I said breathlessly. He put his hand over his heart, and breathed.
"Oh good thanks! I was afraid you were going to say no!" I bit my lip as I looked at him, my eyes could tell I was so in love with him. Oh gosh! I really thought it was going to be the greatest day in my whole entire life! But how could it, I have the worst luck in the world. We said our goodbyes and I left to take a walk. I decided to go to The Dragons Inn and wait an hour, for Harry. I sat on a bench in front of the Inn as I sang to myself.
1 Hour later
"Ok!" I thought to myself. "He should be here any minute!" I was so nervous that I kept pacing and waiting for his arrival. I wonder what he was going to ask me?
1 hour later
"Ok there's a complete logical explanation why he isn't here! He could be talking to someone and lost track of time!" I thought. "Only Cho could do that!" I sighed again and a crossed my arms, holding myself. I didn't bring a jacket; I left it at the house, since it was so hot and humid in there.
30 minutes later
"Ok so what if he stood you up! You're too good for him anyway! I bet he's over at that party...snogging with...with" tears began to run down my face as I thought and pictured Harry and Cho kissing each other, and being happy! I new he wasn't coming so I started to walk back to Parvarti's house and wait till the party's over. I guess I was so lost in thought that I took a wrong turn and ended up at a dead end. It was a dark alley too and so I couldn't really see well. So when I figured out I was at a dead end I cursed and turned around. A man was standing right in front of me; he really scared me because I could feel his eyes on me. We stood there in silence; I tried to walk around him but he kept blocking me. I started to panic and I knew something bad was going to happen. I started walking backwards as he walked more closely towards me. I moved back so much that I was too the wall. The man, who was taller than I was, began to laugh; I was so terrified that I couldn't think.
"Are you scared, sweetheart?" he asked me. I didn't say anything; all I could do was just stare. Since it was dark I couldn't see his face, but he smelled weird, a really bad stench, I think it was his breath.
He made a sudden move and grabbed my arms, " I said are you scared!" he yelled.
"Y...y...yes." I whispered and I could see from the dark that his lips curled into a cruel smile. Then that's when it happened, squeezed my arms tighter and threw me to the ground. He took out a pocketknife and ripped my shirt open, he started hitting me and kissing me every other moment. I squirmed as his lips touched mine, he would hit me more as he raped me more and more. I would have screamed, but he covered my mouth either with his hand or his lips. He touched me in certain places I would never let a man touch. I still remember praying to God asking him to let this soon be over. I kept telling myself that someone would find me and rescue me and they will put this guy in jail. I still can hear the laugh of the man you took away my dignity. I was helpless. He whispered in my ear during the rape, "Are you still scared." That's when I really started to cry, silent tears began to fall down my cheeks, I wanted to punch him, or even kill him, but I was weak and beaten up so bad that I fell in and out of consciousness, every minute. I didn't know who saved me but all I heard was a spell, with a mans voice.
"Petrificus Totalus!" The full body bind, I thought, but the next thing I heard was, "Its ok, I'll get you to the hospital." My eyes didn't work so I couldn't see very well. I was so tired and weak and all bloody on my face, I just wanted to go home!
A Couple Days later.
The first thing I saw when I woke up was a white ceiling and someone was touching my hand. My head turned slightly and so did my eyes as they fell to a little plump woman who was asleep in a chair and was holding my hand.
"Mom?" I said softly. She stirred and opened her eyes, and saw that I was looking at her. Her eyes filled with tears and she hugged me.
"Oh Ginny! YOU'RE AWAKE! Oh thank God! Oh my precious! My precious!" My mom hugged me tightly and cradled me back and forth. I was too tired to respond to the hug. I just wanted to go home. When she pulled away from me I looked into her eyes that glistened with water.
"Mom? What happened?" I couldn't believe what I just said. I already knew what happened, but I wanted it to be a dream, something I could wash away, something that would never come back to haunt me for the rest of me life.
She looked away from me and sat down on the chair, I could tell the sadness from her face, the anger and despair. It took about a couple of minutes for her to talk but she finally said.
"Ginny...honey..." she paused, it was hard for her to speak, I could see, " you were raped." It felt like the whole room began to spin, I was surprised that I didn't cry, I just sat there, completely overwhelmed. I really couldn't tell you what I was feeling, just lost and confused, but most of all... terrified.
"Ginny, sweetheart-" I shot her a glare as I started to breathe hard.
"Please don't call me that!" I said quickly. My mother just nodded without asking any questions.
"Why don't you eat something, you've slept for two days!" She had a tray of food on the side of my bed, but I shook my head no.
"I'm not hungry." I said.
"But you must be starving I mean two days and your already skinny as a-"
"I said I'm not hungry!" I snapped. My mothers face fell and I knew I hurt her feelings.
"Then...you should get your rest." I could hear her choke back tears as she got up and left. I just turned over to my side, with my heads under my head and stared at the white wall, with blue flowers.
All of a sudden, like lightning, a pain shifted in my head and I got flashes of me struggling out of the mans keep. Screaming inside for help, crying silent tears from my eyes. I still wake up sometimes screaming in my sleep, and crying asking someone to help me.
A Few Hours Later
My mother came back to my room to look after me, when I was drifting off to sleep; I heard someone come in my room and talked very softly and quietly so they wouldn't wake me. I could tell whom the voice belonged too, it was my brother Ron. I was still on my side and I shot my eyes opened. No one visited me except my mother.
"How is she?" he asked my mother.
"She's doing better, its just she wont eat!" My mother replied miserably.
" It's all my fault, I should have been watching after her!" Ron said sadly.
"It was no ones fault! The only person who should be blamed is the person who raped my daughter!" my mother replied in a livid tone.
"Did they ever catch the man?" he asked.
"No, not that I know of!" she sighed and ran her fingers through my hair. My eyes started to fill up with water. I just said to myself, "Don't cry, don't cry! Be brave be brave!"
"Mum, I'm sorry! I'll never go to a party again! And I swear that I'll look after her more often! Especially when we go back to Hogwarts!" Ron exclaimed.
"Oh Ron, I'm so glad you're my son!" I could hear them moving and I figured they hugged.
Going home was the hardest thing I ever had to do! I was resigned from the hospital, and was brought home, where I received a very cheerful greeting. My brothers Bill and Charlie came home to visit me and welcome me home from the hospital. The rest of my brothers decorated the house with balloons and banners. The banners flashed every other minute with the words Welcome Home Ginny, and We Love You. I felt really special, maybe too special but they gave me a lot of hugs and kisses, and flowers. When everyone was done with that, they all looked at me and I looked at them. I could feel every single eye on me; I had this feeling that they were going to ask me about the rape, so quickly I said:
" I'm kind of tired, I think I'll go lay down!" I hurried off to my room where I saw loads of stuffed animals overflowing my bed. I couldn't help but smile. My luggage was already taken up to my room, so I decided to unpack. As I unpacked, I saw my brush, it was silver and the bristles were so soft to touch. I went to my mirror and brushed my hair. When I took a real good look at myself, I saw that I had a black eye, with cuts and bruises along with it. I paused from brushing my hair as I slowly lifted my hand and touched my cuts; I just stared in the mirror. A rush of anger filled through me, I got my brush and threw it at the mirror! It shattered into thousands of pieces. I fell to the ground and began to cry, I cried so hard I couldn't stop. I just laid on the floor hugging myself, crying for hours and hours. No one heard me cry, no one ever came to check up on me, so it made me cry harder and louder. How could I ever be myself again? How could I live anymore? How could my family just desert me? How could I make it through life being scared?
A/N I hope you liked that chapter. I'm writing the second one. You'll see Draco in the next one. So don't worry, I really hope you like it and please review. OH and you should listen to Enya when you read this. I find it very soothing! I don't have much to say so... thanks for reading!
My story begins when I was 16 years old, it was towards the end of summer and I was about to enter my 6th year at Hogwarts. Like ever other summer, I sat at home cleaning, reading, and finishing up my essays. My brother, Ron, was invited to Parvarti Patil's 17 birthdays party bash, and my mom made him take me, since all summer I've been doing nothing. So he did, he took me and once we arrived at the front door, he told me, "Don't bother me unless it's an emergency!" I nodded my head, I know he sounded mean, but I knew he still loved me, or so I thought so. When Parvarti opened the door and welcomed us, Ron gave me the signal to go away. SO I did, I thought I'd just go and sit down the whole night and wait till the party's over, if I even could find a seat. I remember loads of people came and it took 10 minutes just to get to one spot. I was trying to squeeze through these two people who were dancing and one of them pushed me because I was in the way. They pushed me so hard I fell to the ground and banged my head. I crawled backwards with my hands and when I hit the wall, I laid my head against it.
2 hours later
My head started to pound from the fall that I had taken, and not only that, but from the smoke and loud music inside the house. I could have sworn it was more of a rave than a party. I decided to go outside for some fresh air, but when I went outside, I didn't expect to see him. I was so sure I was over him, but somewhere in my gut knew I loved him. That's right my childhood crush, none other than the famous Harry Potter. I was right outside the door and I knew I could have gone back inside, but I couldn't breathe in that hellhole. When I looked closer I saw that he wasn't alone. He was sitting with someone on the fountain, laughing at a joke. I looked closer to see that it was the Ravenclaw seeker, or used to be now that she graduated from Hogwarts, Cho Chang. It was stupidest decision that I could have made, I decided to walk past them and see if he would say something to me, or even realized I walked by. So I did. I walked past him, and trust me making that decision caused a lot of events to happen, whenever there is a cause, there's always an effect.
I was surprised he did say something, I tried really hard not to look at him and Cho, but his face was just so happy, it was happiest I have ever seen him.
"Hey Gin!" I turned around, praying I wouldn't make a fool of myself.
"Harry! HI!" I put on a big grin as I looked at his handsome face. My eyes traveled to Cho and I swallowed hard, "Hi...Cho."
"Hey Ginny." She smiled happily. I couldn't help notice that Harry had his arm around her and she had her arm around his waist, as she leaned against his chest. Don't I wish that were I in her place.
I could hear the music from inside the house, as we stood silent. Harry whispered something into Cho's ear and she nodded and took her hands off him and walked away, he watched her go and at that moment I knew he was in love with Cho Chang. When she finally disappeared he looked at me.
"Hey look Gin, can you do me a favor?" he asked. I eyed him suspiciously, knowing I was going to regret what I was about to say.
"Well it depends, what is it?" I asked.
"Well..." he said nervously, "could you meet me at 'The Dragon Inn' at 10, its only a block away from here, and I wanted to ask you something." It felt like someone just shocked me as I widened my eyes.
"Uh...yeah sure!" I said breathlessly. He put his hand over his heart, and breathed.
"Oh good thanks! I was afraid you were going to say no!" I bit my lip as I looked at him, my eyes could tell I was so in love with him. Oh gosh! I really thought it was going to be the greatest day in my whole entire life! But how could it, I have the worst luck in the world. We said our goodbyes and I left to take a walk. I decided to go to The Dragons Inn and wait an hour, for Harry. I sat on a bench in front of the Inn as I sang to myself.
1 Hour later
"Ok!" I thought to myself. "He should be here any minute!" I was so nervous that I kept pacing and waiting for his arrival. I wonder what he was going to ask me?
1 hour later
"Ok there's a complete logical explanation why he isn't here! He could be talking to someone and lost track of time!" I thought. "Only Cho could do that!" I sighed again and a crossed my arms, holding myself. I didn't bring a jacket; I left it at the house, since it was so hot and humid in there.
30 minutes later
"Ok so what if he stood you up! You're too good for him anyway! I bet he's over at that party...snogging with...with" tears began to run down my face as I thought and pictured Harry and Cho kissing each other, and being happy! I new he wasn't coming so I started to walk back to Parvarti's house and wait till the party's over. I guess I was so lost in thought that I took a wrong turn and ended up at a dead end. It was a dark alley too and so I couldn't really see well. So when I figured out I was at a dead end I cursed and turned around. A man was standing right in front of me; he really scared me because I could feel his eyes on me. We stood there in silence; I tried to walk around him but he kept blocking me. I started to panic and I knew something bad was going to happen. I started walking backwards as he walked more closely towards me. I moved back so much that I was too the wall. The man, who was taller than I was, began to laugh; I was so terrified that I couldn't think.
"Are you scared, sweetheart?" he asked me. I didn't say anything; all I could do was just stare. Since it was dark I couldn't see his face, but he smelled weird, a really bad stench, I think it was his breath.
He made a sudden move and grabbed my arms, " I said are you scared!" he yelled.
"Y...y...yes." I whispered and I could see from the dark that his lips curled into a cruel smile. Then that's when it happened, squeezed my arms tighter and threw me to the ground. He took out a pocketknife and ripped my shirt open, he started hitting me and kissing me every other moment. I squirmed as his lips touched mine, he would hit me more as he raped me more and more. I would have screamed, but he covered my mouth either with his hand or his lips. He touched me in certain places I would never let a man touch. I still remember praying to God asking him to let this soon be over. I kept telling myself that someone would find me and rescue me and they will put this guy in jail. I still can hear the laugh of the man you took away my dignity. I was helpless. He whispered in my ear during the rape, "Are you still scared." That's when I really started to cry, silent tears began to fall down my cheeks, I wanted to punch him, or even kill him, but I was weak and beaten up so bad that I fell in and out of consciousness, every minute. I didn't know who saved me but all I heard was a spell, with a mans voice.
"Petrificus Totalus!" The full body bind, I thought, but the next thing I heard was, "Its ok, I'll get you to the hospital." My eyes didn't work so I couldn't see very well. I was so tired and weak and all bloody on my face, I just wanted to go home!
A Couple Days later.
The first thing I saw when I woke up was a white ceiling and someone was touching my hand. My head turned slightly and so did my eyes as they fell to a little plump woman who was asleep in a chair and was holding my hand.
"Mom?" I said softly. She stirred and opened her eyes, and saw that I was looking at her. Her eyes filled with tears and she hugged me.
"Oh Ginny! YOU'RE AWAKE! Oh thank God! Oh my precious! My precious!" My mom hugged me tightly and cradled me back and forth. I was too tired to respond to the hug. I just wanted to go home. When she pulled away from me I looked into her eyes that glistened with water.
"Mom? What happened?" I couldn't believe what I just said. I already knew what happened, but I wanted it to be a dream, something I could wash away, something that would never come back to haunt me for the rest of me life.
She looked away from me and sat down on the chair, I could tell the sadness from her face, the anger and despair. It took about a couple of minutes for her to talk but she finally said.
"Ginny...honey..." she paused, it was hard for her to speak, I could see, " you were raped." It felt like the whole room began to spin, I was surprised that I didn't cry, I just sat there, completely overwhelmed. I really couldn't tell you what I was feeling, just lost and confused, but most of all... terrified.
"Ginny, sweetheart-" I shot her a glare as I started to breathe hard.
"Please don't call me that!" I said quickly. My mother just nodded without asking any questions.
"Why don't you eat something, you've slept for two days!" She had a tray of food on the side of my bed, but I shook my head no.
"I'm not hungry." I said.
"But you must be starving I mean two days and your already skinny as a-"
"I said I'm not hungry!" I snapped. My mothers face fell and I knew I hurt her feelings.
"Then...you should get your rest." I could hear her choke back tears as she got up and left. I just turned over to my side, with my heads under my head and stared at the white wall, with blue flowers.
All of a sudden, like lightning, a pain shifted in my head and I got flashes of me struggling out of the mans keep. Screaming inside for help, crying silent tears from my eyes. I still wake up sometimes screaming in my sleep, and crying asking someone to help me.
A Few Hours Later
My mother came back to my room to look after me, when I was drifting off to sleep; I heard someone come in my room and talked very softly and quietly so they wouldn't wake me. I could tell whom the voice belonged too, it was my brother Ron. I was still on my side and I shot my eyes opened. No one visited me except my mother.
"How is she?" he asked my mother.
"She's doing better, its just she wont eat!" My mother replied miserably.
" It's all my fault, I should have been watching after her!" Ron said sadly.
"It was no ones fault! The only person who should be blamed is the person who raped my daughter!" my mother replied in a livid tone.
"Did they ever catch the man?" he asked.
"No, not that I know of!" she sighed and ran her fingers through my hair. My eyes started to fill up with water. I just said to myself, "Don't cry, don't cry! Be brave be brave!"
"Mum, I'm sorry! I'll never go to a party again! And I swear that I'll look after her more often! Especially when we go back to Hogwarts!" Ron exclaimed.
"Oh Ron, I'm so glad you're my son!" I could hear them moving and I figured they hugged.
Going home was the hardest thing I ever had to do! I was resigned from the hospital, and was brought home, where I received a very cheerful greeting. My brothers Bill and Charlie came home to visit me and welcome me home from the hospital. The rest of my brothers decorated the house with balloons and banners. The banners flashed every other minute with the words Welcome Home Ginny, and We Love You. I felt really special, maybe too special but they gave me a lot of hugs and kisses, and flowers. When everyone was done with that, they all looked at me and I looked at them. I could feel every single eye on me; I had this feeling that they were going to ask me about the rape, so quickly I said:
" I'm kind of tired, I think I'll go lay down!" I hurried off to my room where I saw loads of stuffed animals overflowing my bed. I couldn't help but smile. My luggage was already taken up to my room, so I decided to unpack. As I unpacked, I saw my brush, it was silver and the bristles were so soft to touch. I went to my mirror and brushed my hair. When I took a real good look at myself, I saw that I had a black eye, with cuts and bruises along with it. I paused from brushing my hair as I slowly lifted my hand and touched my cuts; I just stared in the mirror. A rush of anger filled through me, I got my brush and threw it at the mirror! It shattered into thousands of pieces. I fell to the ground and began to cry, I cried so hard I couldn't stop. I just laid on the floor hugging myself, crying for hours and hours. No one heard me cry, no one ever came to check up on me, so it made me cry harder and louder. How could I ever be myself again? How could I live anymore? How could my family just desert me? How could I make it through life being scared?
A/N I hope you liked that chapter. I'm writing the second one. You'll see Draco in the next one. So don't worry, I really hope you like it and please review. OH and you should listen to Enya when you read this. I find it very soothing! I don't have much to say so... thanks for reading!