A little bit of experimentation I did. I know it's really short, and it probably won't even be self-contained. I want to eventually deal with all the FFIV characters in sililoques (sp?) like this ('Alone' being Edward's), and this is what I came up with for Kain. Please R&R, I don't know if I like it yet.
Drown into Your Eyes
What wouldn't I give just to drown into your eyes again?
How much would it cost for me to touch your cheek, or to whisper into your ear, to taste your lips, to feel your soft touch? It would cost an eternity, but I'll never stop loving you. I'd give my eternity just to see you again, I'd sell my soul to the very devil himself. And still, my innermost being is filled with hatred, I want to hate you, I want to kill you, I want you to pay for the hell you put me through.
I let the anger build up inside of me, pent up in a container too small to hold both the love and the hatred that dwelt there. It can't hold much longer. It can't stay inside of me, but it has to. It just has to. Someday it will burst forth, but on that day it won't matter because perhaps, perhaps I'll stop existing just for that. Just for you. I'll give my everything for you and kill you all in the same breath.
It's just not right, can't you see that? Lies, it was all lies, wasn't it? How could you have decieved me so long? How could you have just taken my heart and ripped it to shreds as if you didn't care? Did you care? I would have never doubted it then, but now...now... Nothing is clear in this jumbled up mind of mine. It's a mist, a haze, and I can't see through it. I can't reach you, I can't find you, I can't even find me. I was you, you were my identity, and now, without you, I am nothing. Nothing. I'm an empty shell, living on, a body with no soul, eyes without interpretation, tongue with no words. What good am I, just existing without a purpose? I can't reach back into that depth and pull out what I must have done wrong to let you leave me for another. I just can't, and yet I live in that moment, I am nowhere else. Perhaps you see me, but it doesn't matter because I can only see that moment where I held you so near to me and you did not pull away and the stars were shining and in that moment, there was no wrong. I cannot see past that, for if I do, I know it will destroy me.
I want to forget you, I want to get past this moment, I want to escape to where I can live in peace without you and not be watching from a window as you make love to another. I need to get past the moment, to escape your smile, your beauty, your...you. Just another beauty, loved by a beast, it seems. No matter how, I will escape you. I would kill to escape you. I'd kill me, you, him; I'd kill to escape you. But I can't, driven by honor and love, I can't. So much confliction, so many battles fought within my soul, I shall just remain the heartless, sightless, souless battlefield where no one wins the war, but all shall die.
And yet...
Yet...
What wouldn't I give just to drown into you eyes again...?
Drown into Your Eyes
What wouldn't I give just to drown into your eyes again?
How much would it cost for me to touch your cheek, or to whisper into your ear, to taste your lips, to feel your soft touch? It would cost an eternity, but I'll never stop loving you. I'd give my eternity just to see you again, I'd sell my soul to the very devil himself. And still, my innermost being is filled with hatred, I want to hate you, I want to kill you, I want you to pay for the hell you put me through.
I let the anger build up inside of me, pent up in a container too small to hold both the love and the hatred that dwelt there. It can't hold much longer. It can't stay inside of me, but it has to. It just has to. Someday it will burst forth, but on that day it won't matter because perhaps, perhaps I'll stop existing just for that. Just for you. I'll give my everything for you and kill you all in the same breath.
It's just not right, can't you see that? Lies, it was all lies, wasn't it? How could you have decieved me so long? How could you have just taken my heart and ripped it to shreds as if you didn't care? Did you care? I would have never doubted it then, but now...now... Nothing is clear in this jumbled up mind of mine. It's a mist, a haze, and I can't see through it. I can't reach you, I can't find you, I can't even find me. I was you, you were my identity, and now, without you, I am nothing. Nothing. I'm an empty shell, living on, a body with no soul, eyes without interpretation, tongue with no words. What good am I, just existing without a purpose? I can't reach back into that depth and pull out what I must have done wrong to let you leave me for another. I just can't, and yet I live in that moment, I am nowhere else. Perhaps you see me, but it doesn't matter because I can only see that moment where I held you so near to me and you did not pull away and the stars were shining and in that moment, there was no wrong. I cannot see past that, for if I do, I know it will destroy me.
I want to forget you, I want to get past this moment, I want to escape to where I can live in peace without you and not be watching from a window as you make love to another. I need to get past the moment, to escape your smile, your beauty, your...you. Just another beauty, loved by a beast, it seems. No matter how, I will escape you. I would kill to escape you. I'd kill me, you, him; I'd kill to escape you. But I can't, driven by honor and love, I can't. So much confliction, so many battles fought within my soul, I shall just remain the heartless, sightless, souless battlefield where no one wins the war, but all shall die.
And yet...
Yet...
What wouldn't I give just to drown into you eyes again...?