I know there have been lots of stories about what happens at the end of season 12. But not that many about what might have happened directly after the shooting, this is my thoughts on it.

Need to know whether you all think I should carry this story on, I have loads of ideas for it but would like to hear what everyone thinks first.

Chapter 1

"I just bought it off the street…it was easy" she struggled to say as the blood ran from the corner of her mouth. Elliot turned and looked at Olivia who had her hand pressed to Sister Peg's chest. He could see the commotion happening around him but kept his eyes focused on his partner as she looked over at him, shocked by what had just happened. He tried to call to Olivia as he felt someone's hand on his shoulder trying to move him away. He looked down at Jenna, he was knelt in the pool of blood that seeped from her chest wound, her dead eyes looked up at him. He slowly stood up and stepped back as two uniformed officers started CPR on the young girl. He looked at his blood soaked hands they were shaking.

"Elliot!...Elliot!" he looked to towards the voice Captain Cragen was stood in front of him. He shook his head trying to focus.

"I … I had to stop her" he stammered. "She had hit so many people…..I…" he felt a tear fall down his cheek as he looked down at Jenna's body then across at Sister Pete. Olivia was sat back against the wall her head in her bloody hands.

"Elliot I need to take your weapon" said Cragen, Elliot just nodded as Cragen reached and took the weapon out his side holster and put it in a clear plastic bag.

"Sister Peg?" he asked his Captain.

"She's gone Elliot" he said resting a hand on his shoulder. Elliot felt the bile in his throat and turned quickly as he vomited in a bin.

"I need to get out of here" he said heading out the office in a daze, pushing people out the way.

"FIN!" shouted Cragen "Follow him, make sure he is ok" Fin nodded and went after Elliot seeing him heading for the door to the stairs that take you to the roof.

Cragen looked over to Olivia who was still sat against the wall. He walked over and crouched down beside her.

"Olivia" he said softly putting his arm around her shoulder "Liv, are you hurt"

She shook her head and looked up tears falling down her cheeks "Sister Peg she…she's dead…she didn't do anything wrong"

"I know Olivia" he looked round the room at the chaos around them "There was nothing you could of done" he said trying to comfort her. "You had no idea Jenna would do this"

"She was upset….I should have stayed with her, she had no one… and now" she looked up at Cragen "She was only a kid, she had lost everything"

"Don't do this Liv don't go blaming yourself, you did everything you could to get justice for her mother"

Olivia looked around the room and stood up "Where's Elliot?" she asked suddenly panicking that she couldn't see him.

"He is okay, Fin has gone after him"

"I need to see him" she said trying to push past her Captain.

"I need to keep you apart until you're interviewed" he told her placing her hands on her shoulders and looking at her. "You know that, IAB will be on the way down now"

"Don't tell me I can't see him" she snarled "He needs me….. I need him, now get the fuck out the way….Sir" she said pulling his arms off her. Cragen looked at her knowing the only way he would be able to stop her would be by handcuffing her to something.

"Don't leave the station" he told her stepping out the way. Olivia shot past him and headed for the stairs knowing exactly where he would be heading.

Elliot slammed the door to the roof open and fell through taking a deep breath or air as he staggered around, trying to catch his breath, he looked once again at his blood covered hands and felt his rage building up. He heard the door slam shut and saw Fin standing there.

"Leave me the Fuck alone Fin" he warned him.

"Can't do, Man sorry" he said walking towards him as Elliot turned away and rested his hands on the railing at the edge of the roof Fin stood behind.

"El you had no choice" Elliot shook his head "I would have done exactly the same thing"

Elliot turned and faced him, Fin could see the anger in him as he stood toe to toe with his colleague, Elliot's hands clenched down by his side.

"Leave….me….the….fuck….alone" he growled at Fin his voice low and threatening.

"Or what Stabler, you gonna hit me?" No soon had the words left Fins mouth than he felt Elliot's fist connect with his jaw and he hit the floor.

"Now Fuck off" Elliot said turning back to the railing. Fin glared at the back of Elliot but said nothing as he rubbed his jaw line and slowly stood up.

"If you hadn't took that shot, she could have hit anyone with the next shot, Me, Munch, the Cap…Liv" Elliot turned and looked at him "What if she had hit Liv and not Sister Peg?...Would you still be up here blaming yourself, she brought a gun into a police station and open fired. If you hadn't took the shot someone else would have"

Fin saw the anger leave Elliot's face "She was only a kid" he said not caring that he had tears falling down his face "She needed out help…She was the same age as the twins" he said his head dropping down to the floor. Fin stood looking at his colleague unsure of what to say. He and Elliot had never been close, but he felt the pain he was going through. Fin was about to say something when her heard the door open behind him. He turned and seen Olivia walking towards him. She walked up to Fin and lay a hand on his arm, fin saw the tear stains on her face. She carried on walking towards her partner as Fin stood and watched. Without saying anything she took hold of Elliot's hand and stood in front of him. Elliot looked up from the ground and looked into her eyes through his tears.

"I…I…."

"Ssshh" she said wrapping her hand around his neck and pulling his head down to her shoulder as his arms wrapped around her waist holding her tight. She felt him shaking as he cried, as the tears fell again from hers.

Fin watched the two partners as they held each then turned and walked back through the door leaving them alone to console each other.

They weren't sure how long they held each other before they pulled apart. Elliot pushed a stray bit of hair behind her ear and dropped his forehead to hers.

"I'm so sorry Liv" his whispered.

"Don't El, you're not to blame for any of this, I knew she was hurting I should have gone with her"

He pulled his head back and looked at "I was scared she was going to hit you" he told her. "I was scared I was going to lose you"

Olivia looked at him listening to what he was saying "What?". He saw a flash of anger across her face and she pulled back slightly. "You shot her to save me"

"I couldn't lose you…."

She pulled away from him and stepped back "you shot her to save me" she said shaking her head.

"Liv I …."

"No.. Elliot" she couldn't believe what he was saying what she was hearing "I don't want to hear it" she started pacing, Elliot just stood watching her. "You told me we couldn't choose each other over the victim…..your words El remember" she said thinking back to that night in the hospital, the night that changed everything between them.

"Liv this was different…..she….."

"She was a kid, who had lost everything… she was a victim" she shouted at him. "You said that night that we couldn't choose each other over the job, otherwise we couldn't be partners, well you broke that fuckin rule today"

"Yeah and I also said that night that I couldn't do this job without you….Liv please I can't do this without you, I need you to tell me I didn't do anything wrong, you just said I wasn't to blame" he begged her. "Even Fin said he would have taken the shot"

Olivia seen the pain he was in over what had happened and knew he was hurting "The difference is Elliot, Fin would have taken the shot because she was putting everyone in danger and she had to be stopped….. You took the shot because you wanted to keep me safe"

"What the hell is the difference, you're my partner I need to look out for you" he said walking back to her and standing in front of her.

"The difference is every time I look at you now I'm going to know you took a young life to save me, and whenever you look at me you're going to see Jenna dying in your arms. You chose me over the job Elliot…I'm sorry I can't forgive you for that". She turned and walked away from him.

"Liv please ….don't do this" he shouted after her. Olivia ignored his plea and walked away as fresh tears fell, unable to look at him.

Elliot watched her walk away and turned to the railing ripping his badge off his hip and lay it down on the ledge. He turned around wiping the tears from his face and walked through the door. He ran down the stairs to the back fire escape of the precinct and walked away from his job, his friends, his life and Olivia. Taking that one shot had taken his life.

So yes or no to carrying on, got quite a few twists in store if I do carry one review and let me know.