Authors Note: I don't own any of the Twilight characters, I'm just borrowing them for our amusement.

Authors Note 2: I've been seeing stories of Alice's point of view from the Twilight novel, but none have been about her life before she met the Cullens'. I thought I'd write a prequel of sorts to get an idea of what Alice went through when she was a human in 1920 and then after when she became a vampire, met Jasper, and moving in with the Cullens.

1920-

Three weeks ago, my life ended, when my parents dropped me off here at a mental institution. It's a place where families drop off their families with unusual or unexplainable conditions, never to be spoke of again. It's a death sentence really. We're left here to rot! Forgotten!

My parents dropped me off and an orderly picked me up and whisked me away. I never really did get a good look at building, but out of the corner of my eyes, I saw my parents drive off without another look, or even a spoken word. I didn't even cry. I wasn't going to give them that much, because I knew I didn't deserve to be here! They believed I was broken and this was the last resort.

"My name is Silas…" Silas glanced down at me. "I think we're going to become great friends!" He smiled at me.

As I looked up Silas, I saw his eyes for the first time and I gasped in horror. They were so frighteningly red! I couldn't stop staring at his eyes. Oh they were horrible! He noticed me watching him and looked straight ahead as if I wasn't there.

"Please don't look directly at my eyes. I know that they're horrid!"

I wasn't going to look at them again, so I shut my eyes. His hold got tighter and felt rock hard like granite and his skin was so impossibly smooth and cold. "What are you?" I couldn't help blurt out and instantly regretted it.

"I give you my solemn promise, will not hurt you, my dear little one!"

Silas never answered my question as to what he was, but I believed him. That was until he took me into this white room and strapped me down, while a nurse injected me with something. I was frozen. I couldn't move! My vision was all fuzzy. I couldn't get a lock on what she looked like. I couldn't even really see Silas either.

The nurse shoved something in my mouth. "Bite down on this. It will help with the pain." She told me, giving me a sad look.

Pain? What kind of treatment will I be receiving? I wondered. Silas was at my side.

"It's ok, little one!"

I felt the nurse yank my hair so hard, I thought my hair would come off. The realization hit me like a ton of bricks. They were going to cut off my hair! Oh god! Could there be nothing left of me? Can't I keep my hair? Why do you have to take it?

Scissor cut through my hair like butter! Each strand…gone. Like a piece of me will soon be gone and there will be nothing left of me once these doctors and nurses are through with me.

After a minute or so, I heard the cling of the scissors hit the table, and out of the corner of my eye, I saw a large stack of brown. It was my hair. It was gone. I was so afraid to look at myself in the mirror. I couldn't, I wouldn't look at myself. It would be too hard. I began to cry anyway. This was what my life was going to be like!

"Doctor!"

The doctor placed two paddle like objects on the side of my head. They were cold and clammy. What was he going to do? I'm so scared. I want to run and hide but I cannot! I remember I'm frozen literally.

"Nurse!"

I heard a flip of a switch and then jolt. My body was lifted off the bed and spasmed uncontrollably. The pain coursed through me. I was sobbing. I wanted to scream. I bit down on the wood piece the nurse had given me.

"It's ok, Mary Alice!" The nurse had said to me. "Just let go and let the therapy work for you!"

This lasted for another few minutes and then the doctor took the paddles away from me and the machine was silent. The nurse removed the piece of wood. My whole body was shaking.

"There, there!" The nurse said. "Silas, hand me a rag. Ms. Mary Alice is bleeding." The nurse wiped away the blood that began collecting at my nose and my ears.

My heart beat so fast and for so long, I didn't know if I could slow it down.

Silas came into my site and he smiled at me warmly. It was as if he were my center, my strength, but why? Why did I suddenly feel a connection with this man? I hardly knew him.

I closed my eyes to calm myself. I breathed in and out, in and out, and I soon began to calm down. I wasn't sure I could endure any more of these so called treatments.

My body was spent.

"I will give you something to help you sleep. The first time is always exhausting." The nurse poked my arm and injected me with something. I was out like a light.

Several hours later, my eyes flew open when everything came flooding back to me. I started crying. Everything that I held sacred was gone! Gone! Forever in the night!

I heard someone in the room with me and I went silent and closed my eyes. At first, I thought it was Silas, that didn't feel right. It was someone else! They were so close to me, smelling me. I was frozen in fear. It didn't matter if I faked sleep, they knew that I wasn't asleep.

"Mine!" The man whispered as he kiss my neck softly with his rock hard lips. "You are intoxicating Mary Alice!" I heard him smell me again. I felt something sharp nip at me. "I'm going to have you and no one will stop me!" He purred.

This was it? This is how I was going to die? I didn't want to die. I wanted to somehow get out of here and live my life, find my family.

Then it was silent. Slowly, I opened my eyes, and there was Silas standing by the window, staring out at the moon, and he sparkled. So beautiful. I was mesmerized. I'd momentarily forgotten about what was going on.

"You're safe now!" Silas didn't even look at me.

I nodded and then I slut my eyes, letting sleep claim me. This went on every night for the next several weeks. Silas always protecting me from the unknown man. I didn't understand why the unknown man just didn't end it the first night? And why does he keep coming back?

I began having nightmares about dying. Or maybe they could be visions. I didn't know for sure.

My waking visions kept getting stronger and stronger, and I was having more of them, though, I never had any of Silas. I did keep having them of the man who keeps coming into me room, but they always change before I die.

After my last treatment of the night, I went straight to bed, totally exhausted. An hour later, I was woken up by Silas scooping me up in his arms, holding me close to his chest.

"What's going on?" I demanded to know.

"No time to explain!" Silas ran out of my room.

Everything was a blur.

"Where are we going?"

Silas didn't answer right away as he kicked the door open at the end of the hall. The nurse's station was totally empty, that was unusual, but I didn't question.

We headed down several flights of stairs until we were on the bottom floor. He flew out of the lobby and through the doors.

"What are you?"

It was night time. I didn't know where were going.

"A…" Silas debated on telling me the truth. "Vampire."

"A vampire?" I didn't know such things existed, but wasn't I questioning what he was early on? Yes. I knew that he was something other human. "I guess I knew that. Your eyes was a giveaway." I sighed, I was too tired to fight it. "Where are we going?"

"Somewhere safe."

My eyes were drooping but somewhere safe meant that I was in danger. "What's going on?"

"I will explain everything later!"

I thought back to an incident a few days ago. I'd just been placed in the common area after my treatment. I was sitting next to Mary Margaret, a young woman who had been catatonic.

As I got up to go back to my room, a male patient walked over to me. His name was James. I'd seen him from time to time after my treatments. This time, stopped me, and pushed me up against the wall. He was practically salivating. I looked into his face, he was handsome, dark red eyes, and were they ever menacing. I couldn't move. I was scared. I knew this was the unknown man who'd been in my room. I wasn't going to let him get the better of me. I was going to fight somehow, but even that was probably senseless, but I had to try, right?

"Get away from me!"

James sniffed the crook of my neck. My resolve quickly faded into fear. I had no idea what he was going to do. He was too big, to strong, but for me to handle.

"You're mine!" James growled, licking my neck, and caressing my arm. His hands were rock like granite and cold like Silas. It was then that I realized, Silas and James were the same.

I felt sharp teeth nip at my neck.

"Just do it now!" My voice cracked.

James was all about the games. He liked to play with his pray before he pounced. That's exactly what he'd been doing all alone. I was just too scared to see what exactly he was doing. But Silas did when he pried him off of me.

"Leave her alone!" Silas barked. He looked just as intimidating. "She's mine!"

Both men growled and James looked at me again and tried to grab me, but Silas wrenched his arm way. For an older man, he seemed to be able to overpower James. I finally got my wits about myself, and I hurried to my room, and away from that.

I was brought of my reverie when Silas placed me in a room with no windows, and before I could protest, he was gone again. What was going on?

It seemed like days that I was stuck in this room, but it could have only been an hour. I didn't know. The room was too dark to even see my hand, let alone figure out what day and time was. I feel asleep and was woken up when Silas came into the room, closing the door behind me. He was next to me in seconds. I wish there was light in here to see his face, to know what he was going to do with me. Deep down, I knew already. I'd been seeing my death for weeks now. I just never imagine that Silas was the one to bring it to light.

"Please…" I begged.

There were plenty of times when I wanted my life to end when I was in my treatments, but I wanted to live now that I was free of the institution.

"You would have already been dead if I wanted you dead!" Silas said coolly. "I saved you from James!" He was quiet a moment. "I took care of him, but it won't be long till he finds us. He's a tracker. That's how he found me."

"The other patients?" I knew the answer to that but I had hear it.

"They're gone."

I closed my eyes and took a deep, ragged breath in and out.

"It's been a game to him. None of the other patients mattered to him, only you. He was going to save you for last. I couldn't let that happen. You are mine!" He growled. "Mine!"

Something sharp bit into my neck, I screamed, but no one heard me. I tried to fight, but his strong arms pinned me down.

"I promised myself I wouldn't drink from you but you taste so good!" Silas licked at my throat. "You should be feeling pain and it will get worse, so unbearable, but don't fight it. Let it happen. It will be worse if you fight."

Suddenly there was a noise outside of the room and Silas was gone, and the pain hit me hard. My world had gone dark and I was out.

TBC