This oneshot is just really an exploration of what could have been Roxas' motivation for leaving. A weird-ass motivation, and cruel, but not to Axel. Yes, this is Roxas talking to Axel. A suspicious Roxas talking to Axel, sure, but...can you blame him?

Once upon a time, there lived a girl named Zheyne who didn't own Kingdom Hearts. The end. (Duly Disclaimed.)

You never knew this, but it wasn't an accident they chose you to be my mentor. Xemnas told me, during that mandatory intake meeting, that you were supposed to train me and in return, I was supposed to keep you out of trouble.

Loose cannon, he called you. But we knew better, didn't we? You had a reason for everything you did. That was what made us a great team; you were the brains, I was the muscle. You always insisted that I wasn't dumb, just impatient; but you were wrong. I was very, very stupid.

It's ironic, how you used to watch me. I never slept; but I always pretended. I liked it when you watched me sleep. But I liked it more when you'd come to me and we'd do things we weren't supposed to, doors unlocked because it made the whole thing seem dangerous, and you know how we thrive on danger. Well. Thrived. It's ironic because now...now, I'm doing the same thing. Except you're not pretending, and you're never going to wake up.

You're lucky. Not everyone gets a choice. You're one of the few who ever get to choose when they fade. I wonder if you realize just how much you fucked everything up.

We had a plan, Axel. I don't understand why you couldn't stick to it. You were supposed to lay low, Sora was supposed to take out the Organization, and then we could be together again. You were supposed to turn him into a Heartless, not die for him.

...I wonder if you forgot. Did Naminé mess with your memories, too? If it really is her fault – you're connected to me, so you're connected to Sora's heart by default – then I will do anything in my power to make sure she's not around to ruin anything else. Even if it means making nice with those I despise.

I know you were with the program when we put on that little show the night I left...when Demyx was watching from the shadows. I know you were with the program when we talked, right before I let Riku take me. He still thinks he actually beat me, but now he'll never know the truth so he might as well have kicked my ass. But when you came to Twilight Town...you weren't with the program any more. I wasn't either, to be fair, but you were supposed to be. And then you spent all that time acting how you weren't supposed to.

You set yourself on fire so that Sora could get through – even though it would have been easier to drag him into a portal. Even though Sora was still Sora and not me. Even though Sora's little friends were right behind him and would lend their strengths when they found him.

I want to believe it's her fault. But…is it? Or did you decide that I wasn't worth it, after all? I'm more inclined to believe that. I may not know what happened up till now, but I do know you only stick to something until you decide you don't want it any more.

You...you're fading, you know. What happened to Us? What happened to the Plan? It was your idea. You set it all up when we heard that Riku was looking for me, remember? Why...

I hate you. Just as much as I love you, and just a little less than I hate myself.

I was just the muscle – but even though I was stronger, even though I could take down whatever crossed our paths, I never was very good at keeping you safe.