Why was it so cold? If only it would hurry up and be summer again! The tears aren't exactly helping either, but sometimes I can't help myself. It's like my outer character crumbles and there's no way to stop it. I can't feel like this. I should be stronger! I mean, I know this is my family we're talking about, but I've learnt to keep my emotions locked away. I never thought it would come to this though. I know I look a mess...

Everyone is gone. I'm all alone. Ami...Mama...Papa...gone, and here I am, sat in the corner of my old bedroom, sobbing my heart out. The happy times I spent in this room seem so far away. The time my Mom was telling me how proud she was about my acceptance into my college. My father; getting weepy over some insignificant matter. My sister telling me how much she cared about me. A certain cat-eared boy promising me he would always be here for me. Where are they all now? Gone. Distant memories.

"Be careful Amu, Call me everyday so I know you're okay, If you're in any trouble call me and I'll be right there!" My mother said while hugging me, before I left for college.

"My little Amu is growing up!" my Dad said through a fountain of tears.

"Onee-chan! Don't forget Ami!"

These words still linger in my head, forcing more tears to fall down my cheeks.

This is the first time I've been back for months. After being accepted into my college I quickly moved out. It was hard for me to find the time to visit as I lived so far away. On arrival, I was so excited! I hadn't seen my family or friends for a long time. I'd stepped out of the cab, it was pretty late so I'd wondered why the lights weren't on in the house. They couldn't have been out though, I'd had made sure to inform them of my visit beforehand. I slipped out of the cab and shut the door behind me as the taxi driver helped me carry my bags to the door. I'd knocked. No answer. I had fumbled in my pocket for my old house key and opened the door. No-one was home. I'd carried my things through the hallway. I'd admired the old room; the pictures of Ami and I, my Mother and Father on there wedding day; Where were they?

I had spun on my heel to notice a small white envelope on the table. I'd narrowed my eyes. All of this seemed so unlinke my parents. I'd waltzed over and picked it up. My name was scrawled on the front in my mothers hand-writing. Once I had opened it and stared in disbelief;

Amu,

I am so sorry, but we can't get you caught up in our own mess. Let's just say; We're in some trouble. We don't want you to get hurt. Please, stay safe Amu.

Love Mom, Dad and Ami

x

...

So that's how I ended up sat in the corner of my bedroom crying my eyes out. I had been abandoned. I can understand why, but maybe I could have helped! They should have trusted me! I breathed in, my mouth dry and my throat sore. I inhaled deeply and headed towards my balcony. I reached for the key in my pocket and unlocked the door. I stepped out into the cool air, my hair blowing around my face.

I bet I looked terrible, but right now I didn't care. I choked out a sob and continued to break down again. I stared at the jet black sky, each star emitting a pretty light and there standing out from them all, the moon. I wonder...Is Ikuto looking at the same sky? I wonder where he is now, how he is, if he thinks about me. No, he definately wouldn't.

"That's impossible, I'm nothing special..." I whispered through my tears. I cried harder thinking of his last words to me;

"I promise Amu, no matter where you are, or under any circumstances, I will always be here for you, no matter what."

That night seems so long ago. Heh, like he'd ever care about me anymore. I had left him. When I told him, the pain was evident in his eyes. He stayed strong for me even though it was hard for both of us. The last time I saw him must have been 6 months ago, when we lay under the stars, hand in hand. That's when he promised me. So long ago, eh?

I never thought it was possible to care about someone as much I cared about him. He was my life back then. It hurt to be away from him and every second I was with him, I was in heaven. I was in love. I knew it then, I have known it since. My heart has had a constant ache for months, like I couldn't breathe when I thought about him. When I though of his face, his hair, his eyes, his lips...My heart skipped a beat and then the pain kicked in.

"Amu?"

Heh, I'm even hearing things now, but it couldn't hurt to check. The voice was like velvet and my name rolled off their tongue. It hurt to hear after all this time because I knew when I turned and he wasn't there, It would hurt me so much. My longing for him had surpassed my every thought for the past 6 months. How could I possibly study with him in my mind? I craned my neck slowly and that's when I saw it. More like, I saw him. Ikuto. Still as perfect after all that time, the man who appeared in all of my thoughts stood before me. The beauty radiating from him was overwhelming, the moon shining on his perfect face making my heart skip a beat and my knees go week. After all this time, he has most likely moved on, found someone better than me. My feet started to walk towards him. His expression was unreadable. In his eyes I could see shock, pain, anger but relief and hope. What would happen now?