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Chapter one: Letters

Jacob's POV:

"Bella wrote you another note." My dad said, handing me an envelope that looked like it was from a stationary kit.

I took the envelope and went to my messy bedroom. I slammed the door shut and locked it. I sat on my bed and opened the envelope, tearing the paper just slightly due to my shaking. I don't know why I even try to read these letters. They just hurt me. I read it silently to myself:

Jacob,

I am sorry. I wish you could just understand that. I love him. I love you too - just not the same way. You're like family. You helped me so much when Edward was gone, and I thank you for that. I wish we could be friends. I want to be. Please talk to me. Answer the phone. We need to talk. I am sorry.

Bella

I decided it was time that I should reply. Just for her to stop. It would help my pain. I got up and went to my small, unorganized desk. I pulled out an old notebook and I pen. I thought for a minute, and then wrote this:

Bella,

I don't know why you're making Charlie carry notes to Billy like we're in second grade – if I wanted to talk to you I would answer the

But then I stopped. It doesn't sound right. I scratch it out, and then I think for another minute.

You made the choice here, okay? You can't have it both ways when

I scratch that out. Why is this so hard and painful? Bella and I were never together. I should not be in pain! She wants to be friends, but that is not enough. That bloodsucker of hers is too, too – to perfect. And dangerous. And he is stealing my (Well, almost.) girl! I decide to write this:

What part of 'mortal enemies' is too complicated for you to

Before I can finish, I realize I was getting so mad, the pen broke. Ink splattered all over the page and my bare chest. I start shaking. I run outside, knowing I am about to phase. I go out there and try to calm myself down. If I phase now, the guys (and Leah) will know everything. Then they will make fun of me and tell me I should not even waist my time on that Leach Lover. I calm myself down enough for the shaking to stop, and then go back inside to write. I realize I should try writing something else. I scratch out the last stuff I wrote and try again for the fourth time.

Look, I know I'm being a jerk, but there's just no way around

I stop as the pen brakes. I need to stop breaking all of the pens in the house, or else dad will be pissed. I take a few minutes to calm down, and then pull out a new pen. I mark out the last stuff and begin again.

We can't be friends when you're spending all you time with a bunch of

I stop, realizing that Charlie might read this before Bella. I draw a line over it, and try this:

It just makes it worse when I think about you too much, so don't write anymore

I stop again, scratching that out. I don't want to hurt her by knowing I am in pain. I think for a while then settle on writing this:

Yeah, I miss you, too. A lot. Doesn't change anything. Sorry.

Jacob

That should work. Telling her I miss her, might make her change her mind. Make her come and see me. Make her fall in love with me. I tear the paper from the notebook, and then fold it up. I walk out of my room and hand it to Billy.

"Give this to Charlie. Tell him to give it to Bella." I say walking back to my room. I slam the door shut and lock it again. I lie down in my bed and try to make the pain in my heart go away. But it doesn't, and tears begin to form in my eyes. My life just sucks!

Note: Wow! That was hard to write! So much emotion and everything. But I did it! And to my fans of eternal love, I am writing the new chapter now. I will have it up soon, I promise! Did you like it? Hate it? Review Please!

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