-(WARNING) Hello, this is Breanna in 2016. When I wrote this story, I had no idea what direction I would be taking with this. I sort of wrote it chapter by chapter. But now I know that outcome and I wanted to warn the readers who might be sensitive to reading about certain things. I would also like to that the comment that told me how important is was that I put this warning in my first chapter. This has attempted rape, murder and angst. I did not want to offend or trigger anyone by not putting this in my intro.-

Hi! This is my first fan fiction ever! I'd like to know what you think and your options. Also if I should continue. So let me know with reviews and stuff, that would like make my day, lolz. P.s. sorry if there are any mistakes.

I don't anything but the plot.

Admiration Plus Confusion

Chapter 1

There was a whistling like noise outside as the wind circulated. It was peculiarly comforting as the students at Palm Woods High School finished their work. Especially to one young, striving individual in a Forensic Science class. Said student finished his work early and took this free and relaxing time to catch up on some reading and studying.

Searching through his book bag, Logan pulled out a heavy medical book. Anyone that is close to Logan knows about his aspirations to be a world-famous brain surgeon, saving many lives, and spending the rest of his life pursuing his passion.

Sighing in contentment, he started to open his book. But there it was again, that feeling of being watched. It was an unsettling feeling for Logan and gave him butterflies as he started to twitch under the unwanted pressure. Looking up from his medical book, he looked to his left and saw that from three seats over and two seats down, he was being stared at by the same vibrant green eyes yet again. Those eyes have watched him from afar all day, and for the past two weeks now. Actually, now that Logan thinks about it, those eyes seem to be doing more than staring, it was more like they were observing him. Like they were trying to remember his every move. Almost like they were mesmerized by his movements.

Although this has been going on for two weeks and Logan was a little uncomfortable with the new, unwanted attention, he was to timid and shy to really say anything to his intrancee. And in all honesty he's not too sure if he wanted to. Aside from his admirer's vibrant, warm, earthy green eyes, he was actually really handsome.

A light pink dusted Logan's cheeks as his chocolate eyes locked the others for about four seconds before he turned away from his observer. However not before he saw the smug look that traced the boys features.

'Oh My God! What was that?' Logan asked himself, half shocked and the other half confused. Looking up one more time, he saw the tall, blonde, and green-eyed boy wink at him. Causing him to become confused and flustered. Logan returned his eyes back down to his abandoned medical book and attempted to read the rest of the chapter, but his mind had other plans.

'... Did he wink at me? The popular Kendall Knight? Hockey Captain, School heart-throb Kendall? Why does he keep looking at me all of a sudden?' Getting lost in thought, he didn't realize when a body moved next to him and took the empty seat on his right.

"I swear Logan, I can just see the gears grinding in your head" James chuckled. Logan jumped, and let out a little gasp, making James laugh even more and get some annoyed looks from the other students who were working (not that he cared though). Stopping his laughs, although the glare that Logan was giving him almost made him start again, he said " What? You should have seen the look on your face. And whatcha' thinking about?"

James could tell something was on Logan's mind. He always gets the same, deep, lost in thought look on his face. Logan's eyebrows would furrow, his lips would get really pink or sometimes even red, because he'd bite down on his lips as he contemplated things. But if it was something really interesting his cheeks would get all rosy. These were the things that James picked up on from their long friendship. You could say they were basically brothers. That's usually what they called themselves and how they introduced themselves to people.

"Oh yeah, I'm fine just really tired... and hungry." Logan said, telling only half the truth. But it wasn't because of mistrust, obviously. It was because Logan wasn't sure what to make of his situation yet. He wasn't even sure if there was anything to make. And although he already came out to James when they were younger he wasn't really comfortable saying who he liked. James could be over protective and it's not that he doesn't appreciate it. It's just that sometimes it's a little overbearing. He didn't want to tell James that he had a small crush on Kendall Knight because for now, he just wanted to keep it to himself. And he most certainly didn't want to tell James that Kendall's been staring at him excessively for the past two weeks. Also the fact that Kendall and James are both on the same hockey team, hang out regularly and have become very good friends also contributed to him wanting to keep how he was feeling to himself. Logan wouldn't want to cause a rift or make things awkward between them over something that is possibly nothing.

James looked at him for a few seconds, considering if he should believe this or move on for now. Picking the latter James asked what they were suppose to be doing right now.

"Well if you were here on time you'd know that we were working on our hair analysis lab. Why are you late anyway? It's the last class of the day and you come..." Logan looked at his phone for the time, "Thirty minutes late." He finishes shaking his head. Typical James, he thought.

"Hey, I have places to be and people to see." James stuck out his tongue then continued to say, "Besides like you said its the last class of the day" He stated, grinning from ear to ear.

Logan smiled. "Yeah Whatever. At least I finished MY work. So, YOU should get to work." He said returning to his book.

Seven chapters later, the bell rang signalling the end of class. James turned to him and said "I have practice today. If you want you can stay behind with me and I'll drive you home." He offered. Logan nodded in appreciation. Even though he didn't live that far from the school and could easily walk home, it had started to rain heavily and he didn't want to walk in that mess.

"I'll see you at the rink, I have to put some stuff in my locker." Logan told him.

"Alright." James made his way out of the class with one last smile back to Logan as he exited.

Logan looked around and noticed that the teacher, and a couple of people were left in class. One of them being Kendall. Looking back down, Logan finished putting his stuff in his bag as Kendall made his way was over to him.

"Hi Logan." Kendall said the words slowly. He looked nervous and hesitant. Which was weird to Logan because he didn't understand what he'd be nervous about. He is the Kendall Knight.

'What's he nervous about? He's like the king of socializing.' Logan thought, looking down. He was to shy to meet Kendall's eyes again. He was kind of afraid he'd get lost in them again and embarrass himself.

"Hi." He replied back timidly. The eyes that already knew too much about him were staring down at him and it was like he was being pulled or compelled to look up. It was strangely appealing but some how he didn't. Although Kendall's inviting green eyes were vividly emblazoned in his mind.

Kendall chuckled at Logan's shyness, finding it extremely adorable. He used two fingers to gently raise Logan's head to meet his eyes. They stared at each other again, longer this time, until Logan snapped out of his trace and looked away to hide his red cheeks, but it's a mystery to himself about how he managed to look away.

'Why is he so cute? I should just tell him now that I like him. Why is it so hard to tell him anyway? I think he might like me. Okay, I should just do it... I can do it.' Kendall thought with a huge smile on his face. The smile got Logan's attention and made him feel warm all over.

"Listen, Logan... I know that this might seem really sudden and maybe even bizarre to you but I..." He took a deep breath and smiled nervously to Logan again, "I have liked you for a while now and have tried to work up the courage to talk to you for a few weeks now. But I just keeping getting nervous like I am now..." he pauses again, doubting he'd be able to continue but surprising himself when he said, "Well anyways, I was hoping that I'd tell you and you'd feel the same way but i understand if you don't. I just wanted you to know I guess." he finished, taking a deep breath again and waiting with bated breath for Logan's reply to his confession.

A stunned Logan searched Kendall for any deception. It was rare to see any of the jocks to date any of the kids that weren't all that popular and Logan didn't want to be hurt if he confessed his feelings and they started to date the blonde. He's learned his lesson from the last time he was in a relationship. And although Kendall may be a nice guy like he's heard from James and people from around the school, he doesn't know what to say right know. He's also speechless about Kendall's admission. He should have realized Kendall liked him! He was the smart one. It made sense now.

"It's okay to say no, I understand." Kendall whispered sadly looking down. He took Logan's long silence as his answer. He didn't want Logan to say the words that he didn't like him back, he realized it would hurt him to much. As he was about to walk away, keeping his head down, Logan grabbed his arm.

"Wait." Logan said, shocking himself and Kendall with his actions. Kendall lifted his head slightly and Logan saw that he had watered eyes and a sad expression that made his chest tighten. He knew that he, or anyone for that matter, could not say no to that sad face.

"I don't think one date would hurt." Logan said, deciding to take a chance. And it was with his decision, he saw a big, warm smile replaced Kendall's face. He hugged Logan, taking Logan off guard, but Logan returned the gesture. And it scared Logan with how nature it felt.