Author's Note: This is a fix-it for 'Flaming Hot Cheetos, Literally', set in the New Emotions series. I'm mad. I was told that this season would not be angsty for Nicky. I think I'm gonna need a break from new OITNB episodes/seasons. Life is sad enough without having sadness in fiction. Fiction is meant to be an escape from the bullshit that life can throw at you. So, when it ends up being painful to watch, like OITNB has gotten lately, it's upsetting. I just want everything to have a happy ending. I get really upset when characters I care about don't get happy endings. Bc that's not what fiction is about. Well, that's my opinion at least. Might continue this fic, might not. I hope you enjoy this! WARNING: This fic contains references to sex, food, pregnancy, mental health issues, and psychosis and its symptoms.
Nicky sits at the table, trying to scrounge together enough scarps for a meal. She notices a presence in front of her, and looks up. She's greeted by none other than Lorna Morello, the love of her life and her omega.
Or at least, it would be that way. It should be that way.
Not long before leaving for MAX, Lorna had consented to be bonded to her. Bonding, the way alpha and omega pairs commit to being together for life. Nicky couldn't have been happier as she sunk her teeth into Lorna, and the omega did the same to her. Of course, when she did come back after 3 months in MAX, it was to the announcement that her mate was married to a beta.
"Hey, listen, I gotta tell you something," Lorna says nervously, sitting down across from her.
Nicky sighs. "Lemme guess, we can never do it again, because you're married, and you gotta stay true to him, right?"
"Um…I'm pregnant."
Nicky's world is reduced to a slight ringing in her ears. She blinks, and struggles to swallow with her suddenly-dry mouth. She used a condom with him, and even if she didn't, male betas impregnating female omegas is almost impossible. I'm the only other person she's fucked, and we haven't been exactly careful…Oh my god.
The blonde alpha realizes that she's shaking, and struggling to breathe. Lorna reaches out and grabs her hand. Nicky looks into her eyes.
"Fuck. Oh my god. Um, what are we gonna do?"
Lorna lets out a nervous laugh. "That's not all."
"Oh god, what else?"
"I accused Vinnie of cheating on me, and he decided that he didn't wanna be with me anymore. Especially when he found out that I was already bonded to an alpha," Lorna gives her a tiny smile.
"Well, fuck," Nicky laughs, not knowing what else to do.
"Also, I've been trying to find out about ant-psychotics that are safe to take while pregnant."
Nicky, suddenly desperate, moves closer, to pull Lorna into her arms, inhaling her soft smell. "Are you doing this for me or for yourself?"
"…I talked to Suzanne. And she said something that really hit me. She said that I need to be able to take care of myself in order to have successful relationships. And you're the only person who's ever encouraged me to take care of myself, even when it means hurting yourself. Even before we were bonded, you've been like that."
"You've hurt me so much. I love you more than I've ever loved any girl I've been with. But I can't let you fuck me over all the time."
Nicky thinks hard, imagining the two of them, after this fucking thing is over. Nicky only has a year left, and Lorna has less than that. The brunette would be out before their baby was born, and Nicky would get out only a few months later. In the meantime, all that matters to the blonde is to keep her family safe. Red, Lorna, and the baby.
"I'm divorcing him. And when all this is over, I'm gonna try to get on some meds. Nicky, I want this to work. I've been thinking about this since before you left for MAX. It took me so long to figure out what I want."
"After this is over, and if you get on meds and still want me and the baby, then we can try it. But right now, we need to find a safe place. I don't want you to get hurt when those guards come busting in."
Lorna nods, and the two of them get up, leaving the cafeteria to search for their safe place.