DECISIONS

A/N: I own nothing. Seriously people if I did Gibbs and Abby would be married with kids by now or something. Everything belongs to DPB and CBS and yadda yadda yadda!

No idea where this came from, just trying to get over some writers block. Enjoy!!

"But…I, I don't understand?" Abby stammered. She was standing in the middle of Gibbs' living room. She had just gotten off of work at the navy yard and had come over to his house, which had become the norm since they started their new relationship not to long ago. It was a time for them to enjoy each others company away from all the prying eyes and whispers. They hadn't tried to hide it, they loved each other too much.

So they would meet at either her apartment or his house and just be…they didn't have to do anything. Being in each others company was enough for them. But Abby had started to notice a change in the way Gibbs was acting. She couldn't really figure out what it was, but he still looked at her the same and treated her the same, so she just brushed it off as stress from a rough case they had recently solved…

Until today…he had met her at his house and told her to sit, they needed to talk. She automatically started to get nervous. Nothing good ever came from those words. So she did the only thing she could, she waited and listened. But she did it standing. She refused to give him the benefit of telling her what to do. He had just come out with it…that he had made a mistake thinking that they could make a relationship work and he was sorry, but he just wanted them to go back to the way things were, friends.

"Friends?!" Abby couldn't believe her ears "You mean to tell me, that after 3 of the most amazing months of our lives and yes I said OUR lives. You've decided that you don't really want to do this. YOU'VE decided! Without even thinking about me or thinking about what I might think. Ugh!! No wonder you've been married so many times!" By this time she was well and truly mad. She couldn't fathom what could have prompted this out of him. She thought everything was fine. She was happy and she had assumed he was too.

"Abbs, please just don't make a big deal out of this. I still love you I just think we're better off as being friends. It just gets to complicated when you mix work with your personal life. And you know I still do have Rule 12." Gibbs tried to make it seem less then what it really was. He didn't know why he was doing this he just woke up one morning and got this sick feeling in the pit of his stomach that said he had ruined the best relationship he had ever had and he didn't know what he would do if it fell apart. So he decided the best thing he could do was end it with Abby as quietly as possible and hope she understood and then they could go back to being best friends and that would be the end of it.

But he didn't factor Abby into this theory. Or the fact that she would react like she did. He had never in his life seen the look she was giving him right now, it was a look of pure and utter hatred and loathing. And it was all he could do not to beg her to forgive him right then and there. But his friendship with her was more important then anything.

"Abby I know you're upset" "Upset?! Me upset?! Why Gibbs whatever gave you that idea?" Abby was spitting out pure venom at this point and Gibbs could see it was only going to get worse before it got better. "Ok, Abby" Gibbs said " Tell me why I shouldn't do this and why we should continue this, this, well whatever THIS is." What?! No that wasn't what he was suppose to say. No he was suppose to hug her and give her a kiss on the cheek and they would drink some coffee and she would go home. No he most definatly was not suppose to tell her to give him a reason to stay.

Abby seemed to soften just a little at this statement. She then sat down and motioned for him to sit as well. He did what he was told and held his breath. She looked at him with eyes that held a love for him that he had never seen and he waited. She took a deep breath and began "I just want to know why? We've had a wonderful few months, everything is going well. Everyone at work is happy for us, so why would you want to do something like this? I don't understand?" And then a light bulb went off in her head and it dawned on her why he so desparately wanted to end the relationship and go back to being friends. He was afraid. After 1 wife and daughter that were killed and then 3 ex wives, love and marriage were not on his side, it would appear.

But then we weren't talking about Abby. Abby who refused to take no for an answer. Abby who could make his day better just by coming to the bullpen to say 'Hi' or Abby who could make him do anything and everything with a single look. No we were NOT talking about Abby.

"Gibbs, you can push me away all you want to, but we can't and won't go back to being just friends. Or you can let me love you and you can love me and we'll make this thing work. Cause like it or not no matter what you say to me tonight. I'm not going anywhere. You know why? Because I know you're afraid, I mean with Shannon and then all the ex Misses Gibbs and then all the ex's in general. I mean seriously Gibbs you've had some women and you know what…that's ok. Because you only get one me! And I only get one you! All I ever wanted was you, you with your messed up past and me with mine. We're meant to be. Like it or not you've got me…deal with it!" And with that she kissed him hard on the lips. His decision had already been made.