Callum
I was so stupid, so blindly stupid. I thought you would be ok, I thought everything would be ok but it's not. And nothings gonna be ok ever again. I thought you'd get over it, move on. You have Callie Rose to live for or at least, you did. Do you not understand that she needs you?! Lying there on the floor isn't going to help anybody, taking your life won't help her either! Don't you see? Why won't you see!
You look so pathetic, alone on the floor. On your back with your left arm stuck out as though reaching for something. Something you need but you can't have back. Because you lost it! Because it's your fault and now you can't get her back. Well do you feel better now, Sephy? Has the pain gone? Can you move on now everything you had tying you down has been destroyed?! DO YOU FEEL BETTER NOW?!
Why did you do it Sephy? What made you give up? How did they break you down and wear you out? What happened to you? What happened to the strong beautiful Sephy I knew and loved? Where did you go? Why aren't you getting up Sephy? Why are you lying on the floor? Why are your eyes open but not seeing? Where has your strength gone? Why… why did you give up, what was the last fatal fall that you suffered? Who pushed you over the edge?
Your eyes are so empty and your body is cold. You stare unseeingly up your grasping arm which failed to reach your target. A target you'll never reach, one that I can't help you with. No one can help you with. What have you taken Sephy? A bullet to the brain? I can see the wound just above your eyes. Not even a trickle of blood seeps out. All your life already fled with the sunrise. I can't say I blame you, it all became too much, right? Now they'll all be sorry, so sorry...
I'm sorry Sephy, I'm sorry I yelled. I'm sorry for everything I ever did or said that could've hurt you. I'm sorry you can't hear me now. I'm sorry you will never hear anyone ever again. I'm sorry it got so bad that you couldn't deal with it anymore. I'm sorry, Sephy.
I lied in that letter, it broke my heart but I did it anyway. I had to, to help you move on. But it did the opposite didn't it? Was it that, that pushed you over the edge? Was it all my fault? Do you blame me?
It's stupid, you know. 'Cos I'm dead and so are you. 'Cos I'm talking to a dead body, a dead shell. I'm staring into your lifeless eyes and nothing stares back. Not even my reflection. I wish you were here, with me. But that will never happen because for some reason you're not here and I am. Fate was against us at the start, Sephy, we knew that. But we never knew it would be there at the end, too.