PRELUDE
A/N: this isn't really a chapter, the next will be longer I just wanted to write something small that would throw you into the middle of the story.
Takes place a few weeks before Bella's birthday.
Why was this happening now? I thought I had dealt with this ages ago. But for some ungodly reason the darkest of memories that I buried deep in my brain escaped this morning. Blue eyes and light blonde hair kept dancing around in my head, I want to throw up but I had already done that today- twice. I needed him, but he wasn't here.
"Bella, are you okay? Should I take you to the nurses office?" My good friend Angela asked from behind me.
I could picture his uneven teeth and his chubby cheeks.
"I think that'd be best" I told her then started biting at the dry skin on my lip.
"Mr. Greene?" Angela called, he paused mid-lecture, he looked pissed to say the least, once he realized it was Angela his face softened.
"Bella isn't feeling well, may I take her to the nurse?" Angela asked sweetly.
"Of course, let me get you a hall pass" Mr. Greene spoke and started rummaging through his desk drawer.
I stood up and thanked Angela, and we walked slow and silently on our way to the nurses office.
I parked the car in front of my home, the nurse said I was running a fever and gave me two Tylenol, I couldn't stop shaking, I didn't bother removing the keys from the ignition because no one would steal my truck.
I don't really remember leaving my truck but here I stood in my room, it had started raining at some point because the water pelted my window, the room was almost completely dark. I walked over to the light switch, my legs were sore and flipped it on. Edward was gone until tomorrow, or late tonight- I should call him but he needed to feed. My old bedroom, the white walls with fairy posters on them irritated my vision. Why did this have to happen now? I finally had someone enchanting in my life, and friends that weren't like her. I felt numb but a shot of anger would chase it away. I grabbed the lamp off of my desk, I threw it against my hardwood floor, the top popped off with a loud crack, the top half rolled until it went under my bed, I could feel my heart beating inside my chest.
I took my arms and swiped everything off of my dresser, papers flew around my feet and my computer fell with a crash- I could hear the screen crack. I went into my closet and threw all my clothes everywhere, along with the shoes and books that were in the floor. I marched over to my bed and ripped off the bedding and grabbed a pillow that fell to the ground. I didn't have to worry about Charlie because today was Friday and he left on a weekend long fishing trip with Harry Clearwater.
I stepped into my closet and closed the door, the light poked through the slits in the door, I curled into a ball in the floor, I stuck the pillow under my head and wrapped the blanket around me. I cried, tears fell down my cheeks but not once did I make a sound.
I wished Edward would come home, but then again I wished he wouldn't.