"Hey, where are you going Jay?" Syrus asked his friend.
"Jesse and I were gonna walk around for a little bit to catch up. I'll see ya later Sy!" And Jaden left without a backwards glance.
"Oh," Syrus replied softly to the empty room. He sunk onto the bottom bunk and tried to be happy. They were back now, everything was going to be okay. But that didn't stop him from feeling like some of the damage that had been done over the year could never be fixed.
Syrus wondered if he should talk to Jaden about it. If he should tell him that he thought they ought to spend more time together. But lately… it had been so hard to reach Jaden that Syrus though talking to him might make everything worse.
As Syrus pictured Jesse, with his sunny attitude and admirable dueling skills, he felt his insecurities sinking in again. Of course when Jaden met someone better than Syrus he would move on from him, who wouldn't? The only thing I've got that Jesse doesn't is that I've known Jaden longer, but that doesn't even count for anything.
Syrus realized suddenly that he was crying. He tried furiously to wipe the tears away, but more kept falling as he found he couldn't erase the images of what a hell this year had been… And before Syrus knew it he was sobbing uncontrollably into Jaden's pillow.
They were growing apart, Syrus thought miserably. Now that they weren't kids anymore they didn't have much in common and they didn't have as much time for that kind of best friendship. He had grown apart from friends before though and it had never hurt this much. But then again, Syrus realized, he had never loved any of his other friends as much as he loved Jaden.