Oh my sweet baby, what have we done to you?
I close my eyes you're three again.
Tugging at my skirt, crawling around the floor.
I open my eyes, where did you go? There's a little girl who looks just like you.
A frown marks her face, she sighs and scowls and calls me by my first name.
Sweet baby is that you?
When did you get so big?
I can't handle this right now, momma's just going to make a smoothie. Momma will feel better after a smoothie.
I close my eyes, you're three again.
You sing with me while I clean the house.
You play peek a boo around the furniture.
We laugh but momma needs a drink.
Momma starts making a smoothie.
I open my eyes, where did my baby go?
I see her again, a scowl is on her face.
She looks like B.
She mumbles something and her bag is packed for a sleepover.
I nod my head and say yes dear as I make another smoothie.
I close my eyes and you're three again.
Your sister is home and she's playing music.
You pull at my dress but I gently brush you away.
You bother your father but he tells you to play.
I call you Olga and a hurt look comes across your face
You correct me 'Helga momma, Helga.'
I open my eyes there's the girl again.
I guess she's seven or eight.
She reminds me she's nine.
I tell her my memory isn't as it was Olga.
She corrects me and says she's Helga.
There's nothing but annoyance on her face.
Helga, that's the name of my baby.
Helga when did you get so big?
When did my little girl become so bitter?
Oh my sweet baby, what have we done to you?